i really neglect this blog

i guess all my anger was really due to shitty high and the people there
and the unknown of college








i kinda miss venting and ranting
and i fell as if i just kinda post on here so i remember it exists





who knows, ill try to do a weekly post
but what day...hmmm, wed maybe?
cuz i probably wont do it on a weekend, and i have off tues and thursday so i can be up till like 6am on wed :p

i think that works :)
so wed, and ill try to have a scheduled time
like, between my class thats over at like 3 and before the one at 6


naw, fuck that
every wed starting the 25th ill post :D

catchy title

explaining that title a little more
or hell, maybe it's lyrics


and now here are some words talking about how i feel
or what im thinking
or what i did today
or what i plan on doing



and then, this is the end

even tho no one cares









im randomly more emotional right after i get off my period...









the fucccccck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from nikki sixx to a fan then what i think

Sandy George
I wanna be a rockstar!
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SANDY BE-CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.....ITS A LONG DARK ALLEY LITTERED WITH NEEDLES,VOMIT,WHORES,WEAPONS,LAWYERS ( SHARKS) RECORD COMPANY EXEC'S ( MORE SHARKS ) ADDICTION'S,DESTROYED MARRIAGES,BANKRUPTCY,JAIL,REHABS AND EVENTUAL DEATH.. BUT IF YOU SURVIVE THAT LITTLE RUN....ITS ONE HELL OF A RIDE THAT YOU WILL NEVER FORGET.....AND TO EVEN WALK INTO THE MOUTH OF THE LION YOU MUST HAVE HIT SONGS.....WELCOME TO THE WORST POSSIBLE IDEA YOUVE HAD TODAY....BUT I WOULDNT CHANGE A THING...ITS BEEN A FUCKING SEXY RIDE... ANYBODY ELSE?
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and this is exactly why i dont want to be a rockstar, i want to be the person that makes other peoples dreams come true, i want to be the one making those hits, helping them get clean, help them get through everything, i dont want to just provide a space and what they want...i actually want to do as much as physically possible in order to make them an amazing well known band :)<3

helping you pack and watching you drive away was one of the hardest things ive had to do this semester


i litterally had to leave because i didnt wanna look like and idiot bawling my eyes out because like all of the people in my building that i hang it with are leaving


it just really fucking sucks that you are all going what seems like a million miles away
even if i only knew you guys for a bit, its just like poof


next semester is gonna suck
imma be so lonley
and bored, just hanging out with the few people that are still gonna be here


arg, maybe i just get attached to people too quickly
but hell, it was fun while it lasted
:)

maranda

i looked at ur post titled "DA FUCK!!!!" and just laughed for a good 5 mins

then forgot what i was doing
then posted this

and now imma read it :D

feels like its been forever since i blogged
only 4 days tho

and i wish i could rant bout how i feel
but idk how i feel
im not sure if im tired and have a headache
or if i actually have something on my mind



fuck it, who am i kidding...

...i always have something on my mind...

life is getting interesting

in a good way
haha



but everyones leaving me next semester

its sucks sitting in a room with a group of 6 friends and knowing only one will be back next semester

it sucks knowing almost everyone in you building that you hang out with and talk to is leaving

it sucks to create bonds and friendships just to have them all torn the fuck away




i am surrounded by some of the most interesting and intertaing people ever
they make this place worth staying

i was ranting about this and they were like youll meet new people blah blah
and i was like i know, but they arnt gonna be nearly as disfunctionaly amazing of all of you


that was my night
kinda
not really
at least five people that i hung out with today will be back
that makes it a little better...


kinda

dear person that commented

"i know that feel.


it's so hard, but it'll be okay babycakes :*"


im not sure if that made me happy because you said babycakes
or if i wanna punch u in the face for being anonymous!