like shit
i hate this school
and especially this class
research
x_x
so get ready for constant bitching
and yesterday i was stuck in an elevator for 40mins
with like 15 ppl
kill me jesus
x_x
8/31/10
8/27/10
sometimes...
i honestly wanna isolate myself from the world
and like, waste all my money on drugs
and then die with someone i can say i love
that's just as hopeless and worthless as me
yes, my standards are high
but why set the bar high if you know that you'll just miss?
and like, waste all my money on drugs
and then die with someone i can say i love
that's just as hopeless and worthless as me
yes, my standards are high
but why set the bar high if you know that you'll just miss?
yet once again
im attemping to write a song
and im having one of those days
where im fine then pissed then fine then pissed then fine then pissed then really happy and content then sad that decent then sad then decent
blah
welcome to my life x_x
my computers being gay
and its just pissing me off so w.e
im at one of those points where i just stop caring
im just gonna shut up now
so w.e
gah, blah
and im having one of those days
where im fine then pissed then fine then pissed then fine then pissed then really happy and content then sad that decent then sad then decent
blah
welcome to my life x_x
my computers being gay
and its just pissing me off so w.e
im at one of those points where i just stop caring
im just gonna shut up now
so w.e
gah, blah
8/22/10
*hiccup*
my
arm
is
fucking
killing
me
and unless it is stationary, it hurts like a fucking bitch
uggggg
and tomorrow is my first day at ccac for physiology
and kennywood
with my arm
it may be hell
but ill probably be having too much fun to care
umm, yea
FUCKING HICCUPS!!!!
im hoping that i can get an editing system on my laptop
and then i can start making videos
ummm, yea
but yea,
a reality check time
life is moving too fast for me to take it in
and somethimes it stresses and freaks me out
i never thought id actually end up graduating high school
and i never really wanted to go to college
but city high made me change my thought
and idk, but i really dont want to
okay like,
i want to experience the "college life"
but i dnt want to goto any normal colleges
and the 3 i really wanted to go to
well
full sail maked u pay 200 dollars to reserve ur seat
plus all the other shit i said about it
IAR doesnt have an 'apply here' button
and neither dose IBC
and all the 'big' colleges applications that i kinda wanted to goto pose too much effort because i got to create an account
i gotta love my laziness
but its too much effort to like, not get accepted
idk
and even tho it would be the smartest choice, i dont want to goto ccac for 2 years
i mean, its not that its a community college
but it is
and i havent even officially attended a class there and i fucking hate it
its gay and pisses me off
just like city high
idk
and yes, here i am pondering if i should just drop out and get my ged
but i will wait till graduation project
and once i fail i will tell my parents i dont want to graduate at some random school and im not staying at city high for another year
gotta love how possitive i am
gah
i applied for a job at cvs
yay x_x
but i rather work there than mcdonalds
actually, i promised my self id never work at mcdonalds
wendys, yes
idk, i need to go back to the mall and get more applications
i would love to work at hot topic
or jurneys
because, i love those stored, dah
surprising typing does irratate my arm too badly
and i wanna like, do my laundry, but its too heavy and hurts
so ill probably take some more ib profin and then fold clean clothes
and wake up at 8 to do my laundry
and get a shower
and then ill b ready like way early for no reason
but my clothes will b clean
blah
actually, i might b able to find something clean
in matter of fact, i kno ill b able to
haha
ummm, yea
and i need to show maranda the curgeres den
because it seems pretty chill
and theres a pool table there
haha, win xDD
ugggggg, i need to clean my gauges
which reminds me...
i took them out one day wen i was getting a shower because the tapers kinda annoy me when im getting a shower
yea, a few hrs later i remembered
it kinda hurt a bit
but it felt good becuase they didnt feel really loose like they normally do
okay
no ones gonns read this
and if they do they do
but imma sleeeeeep
or something
night
arm
is
fucking
killing
me
and unless it is stationary, it hurts like a fucking bitch
uggggg
and tomorrow is my first day at ccac for physiology
and kennywood
with my arm
it may be hell
but ill probably be having too much fun to care
umm, yea
FUCKING HICCUPS!!!!
im hoping that i can get an editing system on my laptop
and then i can start making videos
ummm, yea
but yea,
a reality check time
life is moving too fast for me to take it in
and somethimes it stresses and freaks me out
i never thought id actually end up graduating high school
and i never really wanted to go to college
but city high made me change my thought
and idk, but i really dont want to
okay like,
i want to experience the "college life"
but i dnt want to goto any normal colleges
and the 3 i really wanted to go to
well
full sail maked u pay 200 dollars to reserve ur seat
plus all the other shit i said about it
IAR doesnt have an 'apply here' button
and neither dose IBC
and all the 'big' colleges applications that i kinda wanted to goto pose too much effort because i got to create an account
i gotta love my laziness
but its too much effort to like, not get accepted
idk
and even tho it would be the smartest choice, i dont want to goto ccac for 2 years
i mean, its not that its a community college
but it is
and i havent even officially attended a class there and i fucking hate it
its gay and pisses me off
just like city high
idk
and yes, here i am pondering if i should just drop out and get my ged
but i will wait till graduation project
and once i fail i will tell my parents i dont want to graduate at some random school and im not staying at city high for another year
gotta love how possitive i am
gah
i applied for a job at cvs
yay x_x
but i rather work there than mcdonalds
actually, i promised my self id never work at mcdonalds
wendys, yes
idk, i need to go back to the mall and get more applications
i would love to work at hot topic
or jurneys
because, i love those stored, dah
surprising typing does irratate my arm too badly
and i wanna like, do my laundry, but its too heavy and hurts
so ill probably take some more ib profin and then fold clean clothes
and wake up at 8 to do my laundry
and get a shower
and then ill b ready like way early for no reason
but my clothes will b clean
blah
actually, i might b able to find something clean
in matter of fact, i kno ill b able to
haha
ummm, yea
and i need to show maranda the curgeres den
because it seems pretty chill
and theres a pool table there
haha, win xDD
ugggggg, i need to clean my gauges
which reminds me...
i took them out one day wen i was getting a shower because the tapers kinda annoy me when im getting a shower
yea, a few hrs later i remembered
it kinda hurt a bit
but it felt good becuase they didnt feel really loose like they normally do
okay
no ones gonns read this
and if they do they do
but imma sleeeeeep
or something
night
8/19/10
i looked
up the meaning of my dream
and now i feel better
and its true and makes perfect sense
its still freaky as shit
but im better
or at least im telling myself that
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fml
i goto sleep for like. 10mins
and now im flippin shit
y arnt ppl awake
uggg wake up
wake up
wake up
wake up
this is not a drill
and those 4 lines werent lyrics
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thinking...
ugggg...how r u gonna fall alseep/ignore me in the middle of a deep conversation
and how come i cnt b pissed at u
gay
i have issues
because...i just do
and guys r lame
especially wen they fall asleep like this
grrrrrr
or hes ignoring me
gah
grrrrrr
howwi angre/anxious/upset and tired
blah
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8/18/10
chat roulette with out penises! :D [coll, ur in this! :D]
in: yo
out: hi
out: wats up
in: you dont have a penis showing
in: nothing realy bak from bowling you
out: haha, neither do u :D
out: and bored
in: i know amazing
out: haha
in: we all are
in: so hows life over there
in: in the internet
out: boring, lolz
out: the internet if a very boring plcae
out: plcae*
in: well aint that a bitch
out: place, i cnt spell x_x
in: but its got so much porn
in: and even bunny ninjas
out: lmfao
out: bunny ninjas r the shit!
in: no worries i cant also
in: rightt!!!!
out: but not as awesome as ninja clouds
in: youve seen ninja clouds??/
in: thats fuckin amazing
out: duh! haha, havent u?
in: i havent!!!
out: lolz fail
in: i wanna see two clouds do battle now
in: place bets on it
out: haha
out: the one on the right will win!
in: it always does
out: it must b fixed!!! eek!
in: whats in ur ears
out: headphones
in: ohh
out: yupp
in: and what are theys playing into your ear cavaties
out: the ding of ur ims, haha
in: sounds sexy
out: lmfao, so very sexy
in: i wanna ding some ims
out: lmfao, then doooo eeet!!! xDD
in: actually i think ive gone ims dinging before
in: it was erotic
out: haha, so ive heard :p
in: you hear a lot of things 0.o
out: definatley! haha
in: i need those headphones
out: y? haha
in: cuase u heard all that with them in your ear
in: must be magic headphones
out: i do! and they are!'
out: i stole them from the devil! muhahaha
in: did you use a fiddle?
out: haha, no
in: NO WAYY
in: then how did you do it?
out: i robert pattinsons hair, it will kill nething
out: hes the twilight dude btw
in: death by pattinson
out: lolz
out: yes, yes indeed
in: man what a horriable way to go
out: iknorite>
in: omg u know things to
in: not only hear them
out: yes, i am all hearing and all knowing :D
in: your all herowing
out: haha, what?
in: man thats badass
in: i combined hearing and knowning
out: haha, i try
out: and ooooooh! i see ur logic :D
in: wahahah!!! exactly
out: brb, i need to get my friend something
in: alright
out: backkkk
in: i gained powers
out: ouch my eyes D:
in: sories i cant control it
out: its okay, my devil headphones shall help xD
in: they protect you fromthe ligthtt
out: yes :D
out: hi
out: wats up
in: you dont have a penis showing
in: nothing realy bak from bowling you
out: haha, neither do u :D
out: and bored
in: i know amazing
out: haha
in: we all are
in: so hows life over there
in: in the internet
out: boring, lolz
out: the internet if a very boring plcae
out: plcae*
in: well aint that a bitch
out: place, i cnt spell x_x
in: but its got so much porn
in: and even bunny ninjas
out: lmfao
out: bunny ninjas r the shit!
in: no worries i cant also
in: rightt!!!!
out: but not as awesome as ninja clouds
in: youve seen ninja clouds??/
in: thats fuckin amazing
out: duh! haha, havent u?
in: i havent!!!
out: lolz fail
in: i wanna see two clouds do battle now
in: place bets on it
out: haha
out: the one on the right will win!
in: it always does
out: it must b fixed!!! eek!
in: whats in ur ears
out: headphones
in: ohh
out: yupp
in: and what are theys playing into your ear cavaties
out: the ding of ur ims, haha
in: sounds sexy
out: lmfao, so very sexy
in: i wanna ding some ims
out: lmfao, then doooo eeet!!! xDD
in: actually i think ive gone ims dinging before
in: it was erotic
out: haha, so ive heard :p
in: you hear a lot of things 0.o
out: definatley! haha
in: i need those headphones
out: y? haha
in: cuase u heard all that with them in your ear
in: must be magic headphones
out: i do! and they are!'
out: i stole them from the devil! muhahaha
in: did you use a fiddle?
out: haha, no
in: NO WAYY
in: then how did you do it?
out: i robert pattinsons hair, it will kill nething
out: hes the twilight dude btw
in: death by pattinson
out: lolz
out: yes, yes indeed
in: man what a horriable way to go
out: iknorite>
in: omg u know things to
in: not only hear them
out: yes, i am all hearing and all knowing :D
in: your all herowing
out: haha, what?
in: man thats badass
in: i combined hearing and knowning
out: haha, i try
out: and ooooooh! i see ur logic :D
in: wahahah!!! exactly
out: brb, i need to get my friend something
in: alright
out: backkkk
in: i gained powers
out: ouch my eyes D:
in: sories i cant control it
out: its okay, my devil headphones shall help xD
in: they protect you fromthe ligthtt
out: yes :D
8/16/10
i established
that if i get shot i wanna keep the bullet in me
unless it wld kill me if it wasnt taken out
in which case i just wanna keep it
and if i die from getting shot i wanna keep the bullet in me
and wen i die i wanna b burried with it
even tho i wanna b creamated and thrown in a river/ocean
i sld pick which one i want to b thrown in
hmmmmmmmmm
research timeeeee!!!!
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8/12/10
omg...no blog in forever
my bad
haha
well no school so i have nothing to bitch about really
i went to a seconshand serande concert
with white tie affair
and runner runner and the camera cant lie
ss lead singer got jumped in boston
so he was wearing glasses like a gay douchebag
and i love that me and maranda go to concerts to just see one specific band and rip on all the others about being gay and sucking...excpet for wen there r other good ones...haha
idk wat im saying
so ill tlk about pizza
and by that i mean im quoteing some guy at fories with a hat that said satan
"dont waste good pizza like that"
hehe
ps i saw johnny from the i drive at the concert
just saying
hehe
ummmm
grl ur driving me so crazy
craig sucks
i wanna go to one concert with blessthefall escape the fate and of course falling in reverse
and its funny cuz btf and fir wld hate etf...bahahahahaha
it wld b amazing
especially if ronnie wld steal the mic from craig and start singing not good enough for cliche
then marry me
not that i had a dream like that
but with out the marrage
and yea...haha
dnt judge me
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8/1/10
awe
sue could recall seeing dylan cry only once. he came home from school upset, and went up to his room. he pulled a box of stuffed animails out of the closet, dunped them out, burrowed under, and fell asleep surrounded.
[pg 209]
it reminds me of my fort
and iv found my self comparing my self to them
mainly dylan
is that bad?
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"brian and the petrones hauled the crosses away, hacked them into little pices, and then tossed the rubble into a dumpster"
[page 194 in columbine by dave cullen]
ive been staring at that line for the past 10 mins
trying to not cry
and im not gonna rant about it for ever
im just going to say one thing to sum up how i feel about that line
imma kill that mother fucker....pinkey promise
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