the awesomest

famous people die

why the hell cant like solja boi
or larry king
or brittney speard die!!!

i want the rev
and michael jackson
and billy mayes
and lenord skinner back!!!!

even tho i didnt really have a preference for mj, and i just miss seeing billy mayes, and lenord skinner inspired lynard skynyner and i guess technicially wants famous
but still




i cant spell

and colleen made my day this this:::


ROTFLOLASHTINCBISAGOWOTTARUTDIAIOA!!!


it means - Rolling on the floor laughin out loud and so hard that i nearly choke but i see a glass of water on the table and reach up to drink it and im ok again.

soooooooooooo, i thought i saw nasty

from FIR
walking dwn twn

it wasnt D:

it was an old asian lady that had a random patch of black on the side of her head and gray over the rest

i think i insulted nasty
im sorry D:

why cant

the teachers at this school learn to let kids fail or pass on their own

i just don't understand how a school that claims to get us ready for the 'real world' and college has teachers that totally go against its own morals

that all really


uggggg
in college theachers arnt gonna proof all of our work
and arnt gonna give us deadlines for every little single piece
unless its like an english class or something

this is y i liked careers class
they gave us all of the stuff
and it had ONE due date
not a due date for each thing
and of course the assignments are spaced out but still

i think classes like this should give u all the shit at the begining
and get it at the end of the project


its gay that my cuzin passes if she presented
and that at brentwood all they need is hrs and a power point
well at every school they just need a power point
this schoool is so fucking gay

woooooohoooo!

haha
i love that i ask maranda questions in my blog
and then she answeres them xD
haha

i get paint friday :D
and if im right i get like
148
blah
soooo not worth it
but i gots tips
so it is
haha

i think i have work today
and didnt yesterday
well i kinda did
but i said i cldnt work
cuz i was "on call"
and then i found out someone that was supposed to work got called off
so i dnt feel bad

blah
my powers been out since i got home yesterday
and my mom said it may b a few days till it gets turned on
i have a flashlight in my pocket
and i wisht i signed up for cafe 18
im kinda hungry
and i was gonna get breakfast
but then i felt sick
then i felt better and was gonna get someting at cafe 717
but i didnt want a bagel cuz i didnt want to put cream cheese on
so i bought a juice and a pencial
cuz i needed an new one
for math

maranda better b here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




ummmm
yea



i charged my phone in the school bathtoom while i straightened my hair
and like all of brooklines power is out D:
its creepy
and i used a flashlight to get to my busstop
cuz it was creepy
blah
i hope the power is on wen i get home
but just incase im charging my phone at work!
hopefull i wont have work
in which case i wont really need it to be charged
and i cld stay for study club
blah
i dnt wanna goto work
lolz
mainly cuz i haz blisters
blaaaaah

i could just go to the nursed

and this is probably really long
and i kno its really pointless

o wells


peace

i hate this school

and i cant say that enough
















uggggg

debating

if poped or un poped blisters hurt more

my feet are fucking killing me from work
so im not going
idc wat she says
im not
and if she has a problem wit it shell have to take it up with my parents cuz they need me to clean cuz we r having a realator

ugggg...im bout to chug ib profin
i cnt wlk normally
and i like limp
and i feel lazy wen i say my feet hurt and i cnt wlk
but because im not lazy they really do

uggggg
shoot me please x_x

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is it normal...

to feel like ur not in controll of ur life

to stop believing in something that was almost shoved down ur throat for who knows how longs

to feel as if ur trapped in an hour glass and time is just depleating and theres nothing to do no matter how much you try, and no matter how hard you try to stop that sand it just starts to flow more and more

to feel like your broken

to fall in love with complete strangers

to want to just completely distance youself from life untill you can finially make sense out of the simplest things

to be a drone

to fine beauty in pain
and love in misery

to want to re-wind life and do it all over again, just to think that you afraid to change your life cuz u dnt want to lose the good things that u have

to cry wen u think about the good things in the past instead of the bad

to be normal

to be different

to be me

to be you

to be someone that conforms to the stumpiest little rules in order to please people in spite of how they feel

to go and tell one person your fine then vent the hell out of another



ugggg, in other words im broken
as i told some one repetivley
and i dont think they get it
blah
w/e

i just have sooo much on my mind
yet nothing at all
and i have a feeling that tomorrow if they tell me to come in, ill try to explain y i cant
then i probably wont

i have atleast 3 blisters on my feet
and i only poped 2 of them cuz the other was too painfull


i should probably attmept this wonderfull little thing called sleep

night

ANBERLIN HAS A NEW CD TODAY!!!

im really happy
even tho im not gonna buy it
maybe wen i get my pay check
ill have like maranda take me
and then i can get new shoes too
:p

ps, maranda, this is a question from me to u!

i just dnt kno wen ill ever b off x_x haha

robo trippin

haha, im pretty sure a was a little high from it yesterday wen i went to work
but hell, i stopped coughing

and today i keep coughing, but only wen im doing school work

i have my meeting with "the dream killers" and im kinda excited cuz i brought my iar stuff :D

and i got my yearbook today
and im only in like one picture
and that one picture is my posed picture
i really like it

and colleen looks really emo/punk in hers
and i really like it
:D

well, i guess ill do my work now....

maybe its mean

but i couldnt stop laughing at this
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-564611/Girl-13-hangs-obsessed-Emo-suicide-cult-rock-band.html


its mean because she died
but its funny because evidently cutting is and initiation to being emo
and emos believe that wen u die u go to the black parade
and people wonder y i hate the news, but love watching it
haha

i thought i saw some one jump of the bridge into the water, but it was just a bird

surprisingly
i was not the one that said this


but when i heard it, i thought of me
because thats something i would say

i realized im only home for like 8hrs a day
haha, thats how much sleep ur supposed to get


and now they ppl like next to me/behind me are talking about porn
and how just because u watch it doesnt mean u masturbate
because there is funny porn
like a skinny ass white guy
and a reallly fat black chick
and he was holding on to her fat
and then i got offered to make a porno

haha, sometimes i love this shcool xDD
well, no
just the people

now they are talking about justin beiber
and how the one wants to b his little brother
so i said hes have to be like -5 years old to do that
then the other one was like i wanna b justin beiber best friend

then the one was like
holli we sld have babies
and i was like yeeee, no
and hes like not together, but we sld have babies
and i was like no
and hes like y
and i was like i hate kids
then he started talking about finger painting

i guess i gotta do some work

blahhhhhhhhhhhhh x_x

Anti Nowhere League

isnt that great
or what i expected
or maybe im just not in the mood to listen to them

but i like there 'metal' stuff better than their 'punk' stuff
because there 'metal' is more like more modern not as heavy punk, kinda like nofx with out the ska, kinda...maybe grungeish
and their 'punk' stuff is more like dark and gothic sounding...kinda like rob zombie, but not as heavy

u probably dont kno wat i mean by heavy
and its hard to explain
so i wont

research

lead me to find a band
that i think i may like
haha

idk, i think they are gonna sound like a combination of the casualties and system of a down
even tho i dnt think i mean soad
i think i mean korn

yes i meant korn
cuz they sing kid nap sandy claws
i hate soad
and i think that there abriviation is really like syo
but that makes no sense

ewf, system of a down

heres there one song
which idk y im posting it
cuz there are better ones

but i found it ironic that its like a prayer

Give me bread and water, give me blood and pain
Give me toxic air to breathe, give me acid rain
I never wanted much from life, just to have some fun
To play a little music, does that hurt anyone

Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
Then you point your finger and say that I'm to blame

Lord God have mercy on this sinners soul
He gave it all for rock n roll and this is what he's done

Teach me to be normal, teach me to be good
To look up to my elders the way I always should
Don't lead me to temptation, keep me safe from harm
Blessed are the peacemakers who didn't stand a chance

Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
I stick my fingers up at you 'cause you're to fucking blame

No I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You've raped this fucking planet so there's nothing left to do
So fuck the system, fuck the law, and fuck the lot of you


so far i really liked their song self harm
its also the one i found first
haha

Went up on a journey, where the animals were small,
I took with me a hammer, just to prove that I was tall.
And I came across a preacher, who just looked at me - With eyes that cannot see.
And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”.

Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
You are believing, your life is better, without me.

Hey brother Razor Blade, I need you, once again,
I run my fingers down your edge to see, if I still feel pain.
Pretty pictures are on my arms, pictures of the days when I was young,
But these pictures are just scars, the only thing that’s ever real!

Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
Just like the others, you think you’re better without me.
(This is for you, are you watching me, I’m Self Harmed)

Now I am cutting, I feel the ripping in my flesh.
Now I’m bleeding, I’m satisfied I’m now content.

So I go to sleep - I go to sleep. (Go to sleep)



that song
i think i just like it for the first few lines
especially the "And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”." one


ummmm yea
so i hope they dont suckkkkkk!


two fingers and im outtt!
[yea, im hxc like that :)]


im back
after just posting this
because now i sense a hint of steel panther
because of this song
called so what

and matellica wanted them to sing it

So fucking what!

Well I've been to Hastings
And I've been to Brighton
I've been to Eastbourne too
So what, so what

Well I've been here
And I've been there
And I've been every fucking where
So what, so what

So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you

Well I've sucked sweets
And I've sucked rock
And I've even sucked an old man's cock
So what, so what

Well I've fucked a sheep
And I've fucked a goat
I've had my cock right down its throat
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you

Well I've drunk that
And I've drunk this
And I've spewed up on a pint of piss
So what, so what

And I've had scag
I've had speed
I've jacked up until I bleed
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you

Well I've had crabs
And I've had lice
And I've had the pox and that ain't nice
So what, so what

Well I've fucked this
And I've fucked that
And I've even fucked a schoolgirl's crack
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Who cares, who cares about you
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you....


but they went from punk to metal
haha











i also wonder if an undercut is against dress code...hmmmm

even tho...

its alot of work
and im constantly running around
and its kinda nasty
and i need balence and have to lift heavy trays

i love the heticness of it
kinda y i like drama

something attracts me to heticness
its kinda fun

and i love that i dnt have to ask my parents for money

and i love that there is screamo in the kitchen playing

its a nice change from the classical music in the dinning room

haha
so even tho my feet r killing me
i liked it
surprisingly

lolz

ummmmmm
i was gonna say someother stuff

but idr

haha

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an 11 year old invented the popsicle

thank you Frank Epperson, because with out you my addiction of freeze pops would never exist xD

blah

i feel shakey
and cant type right
blah
lah,

w.e


im just gonna shut up and attempt to do this shit
or atleast make it look like i am


i would have loved to not come to school today

blah, idc






i lied my face off by alkaline trio was all ive been listening to
and now its stuck in my head



blah





things just all like to crash and burn at the same time dont they?
and althought nothings wrong, for some reason it feels like everything is



blah

how come...

whenever i thought i was depressed people told me i wasnt

and when i dont feel depressed people tell me i am?

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so that picture thing

yea, its not working out too well
haha




my life is boring

blahe

i forgot about the picture thing yesterday D:
so imma take one today during the ccacness

but i get sent to the counsoler person
ugggg

all i did was agree
it was sooooo annoying
but hell, i got out of research

blahhh
i also said i hate this school
and i dnt care about research
and then she brough up college
and i went to say how the guy at iar is dumb and wont tell me how to apply

which was more thatn i intended to say
but blah

she went on this rant bout how i sldnt keep things bottled inside
and im like i dont?
i talk to my friends..and bitch to them sometime

and then she went on to say that depressed people sleep
and i was just like
so do ppl that wake up at 530 and have to b in school for 8 hours
blaaah

i wanna go back
because i hate this class
and it gets me out of it
haha

@colleeeeeeen!

thats right!
i just went twitter on ur ass!!!

haha

but i saw alice, and it was a movie
but i think it was like, a bunh of episiodes from a tv show put together

and if we r tlking bout that same thing
HE IS SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SEXY!!!!

cramps

are a bitch
so today i caught up on my blog reading
and on each persons blog i clicked the next blog button
2 ppls blogs took me to their other blogs
and 1 persons took me someone elses blog from my school
now i follow him

and one persons took me to this blog
i think it was called happy snappy
or something like that
and that gave me the idea to take a picture of one thing each day of my sr year
idk if i sld do weekends yet
so, yea, ull have lots of pictures
ummm, yea, thats about it


and ummmmm, off with her head!
and your name is umm
and what did she do to my dear jabawokki
and shes the wrong alice
and what do a raven and a writing desk have in common
and it needs to b purified by someone with evaporating skills
and ive been accused of being the alice and the wrong alice all day
and u called it wonderland the last time u were here
and my father said he somethimes thought about 6 impossiable withng before breakfast
and 1. there is a drink that can make u shrink 2.and a cake that can make ur grow 3. animails can talk
and ive been thinking about things that start with an m
and i cnt think or ne quotes
but i was waching that earlier
ugggg, cramps x_x

awkward smiles

and totally non related to that...

i feel nausish
and i cnt spell




my bookbag weight more than me today
x_x
its partially my fault
oh how i love ye columbine

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