is it normal...

to feel like ur not in controll of ur life

to stop believing in something that was almost shoved down ur throat for who knows how longs

to feel as if ur trapped in an hour glass and time is just depleating and theres nothing to do no matter how much you try, and no matter how hard you try to stop that sand it just starts to flow more and more

to feel like your broken

to fall in love with complete strangers

to want to just completely distance youself from life untill you can finially make sense out of the simplest things

to be a drone

to fine beauty in pain
and love in misery

to want to re-wind life and do it all over again, just to think that you afraid to change your life cuz u dnt want to lose the good things that u have

to cry wen u think about the good things in the past instead of the bad

to be normal

to be different

to be me

to be you

to be someone that conforms to the stumpiest little rules in order to please people in spite of how they feel

to go and tell one person your fine then vent the hell out of another



ugggg, in other words im broken
as i told some one repetivley
and i dont think they get it
blah
w/e

i just have sooo much on my mind
yet nothing at all
and i have a feeling that tomorrow if they tell me to come in, ill try to explain y i cant
then i probably wont

i have atleast 3 blisters on my feet
and i only poped 2 of them cuz the other was too painfull


i should probably attmept this wonderfull little thing called sleep

night