My so called "life"

i have a headache
and i feel like im going to throw up
the longest ive been awake was about an hour
and now since its late that gets to change

yay?

not really, arg, i need to work the graveyard shift someplace so i can justify this fucked up pattern!

and because of all the sleep today, i literally ignored everyone that texted me or called me
and i didn't post anything to twitter or facebook

so im sorry if you were one of those people
but i doubt that you are

i talked to a whole 5 people today
2 of them being my parents
its a slow day

but ive realized that as much as i like the aloneness, i NEED to interact with a lot of people to be happy and content, thats why work always makes me feel better
i also strive for chaos, not too much, but there needs to be some
and im normally good at finding that perfect balance between chaos and sanity, i guess those count as opposites

this headache wont go away
and i kind of want to go to sleep
but if i do ill probably sleep untill 5am, and get all pissed off
im shooting for 1 maybe 2am as a time to go to sleep tonight
i hope i can make it till them, and i hope im not wide awake by then