maranda, its not wrong if it helps you pass the class ;D







anddddd, i actually need to rantish to you
about someone
that is now making me giggle because of his doucheyness
^_^
anddddddddddddddddd, im depending if i should try to fuck with it for my own enjoyment
or just let it be






hmmmmmmmmm xDDD

dont take your guns to town

i gots too much on my mind


or for once its all about school


this is a bit scary
arg, too much going on
thank god i dont have classes tomorrow

and i have a 4 day weekend
because i forgot to set my alarm x_x

took a few hour nap last night because of a head ache
woke up around 11
rolled around in bed till about 3
then decided to sit outside for a bit because it was a bit stuffy
worked on DnD shit till break fast, which is 7
came back to my room around 8:15
derped around on the computer
skipped english because i got an A for my midterm grade, and i only have 4 note cards when we need 15, and i only missed 2 or 3 days counting this one
i say or because the one day we were in the library and i dont think he took attendance, and i told him that im an idiot that couldnt find them
so i took like an hour nap
went to math
then music
then got noms
then played pool
and darks
and enjoyed the weather
then came to my room
registered for a summer class
its june 11th till july 12th
i think
its online though
and if i need to be online at specific times, im dropping it
and i just noticed that the last day was warped tour
soooo, im hoping to god i dont need to be in class for it
at least the finial
so if i do ill tell him im working a lot at different hours and it might conflict
and see if i can reschedule
or drop it
my dates might be wrong, they probably are

i was going to clean, but i guess im getting noms then playing DnD
sooo, oh wells, it was a nice little productive day








and the lady made me a custom milk shake thingy
and it was amazing
and she was soooo fucking sweet and kinda
i wanted to hug her :)
shes my favorite person in the world right now
and if shes not there when i go back ill be really depressed
i should have asked her how many shots of pumpkin she put it
well, pumps, not shots, but hopefully this person will be amazingly nice too
im guessing she did 2 or 3
but i really dont want them to charge me for all them
because i dont think she did
oh well, itll b worth is

it was delicious
and i described it as
"if i gave ronnie radke a bj, his jizz would taste like this"



and i really dont know why i associate jizz with tasting good...because, yea, well, its jizz....

no, just fuck you know
your over fucking dramatic
and i get shit because i offend you over and over again while not meaning to
even after i said im an offense person because i assume that everyone is like me and not a pussy when people say 'offensive shit'

oh wait, i did also tell you that i speak with out thinking
yea, that was one of those times

and me telling you to shut the fuck up, WHILE I WAS FUCKING LAUGHING, was offensive too


im sorry, but we can't be friends, but you dont underFUCKINGstand that
please just stfu and walk the fuck outta my life


and i bet if you were reading this, you would get offended
and try to send me on a guilt trip, like FUCKING always x_x




and i dont punch hard, so stop being a little faggoty bitch about it


whoooops, bet that was offensive

first, id like to point out that this post is my house number





secondly id like to point out some irony in my life

i remember saying that there wernt enough black people at edinboro
and now, i have black guys asking me out
lolz

not what i wanted to happen, and i have a feeling that seems racist, but that wasnt my intent







oh irony, you have a way with everything

i googled my self, the blue are wins (falling in reverse, chris from punchline, and S.H.I.T) the orange are fails (some chick next to a picture of a twilight dude, and ryan sheckler) haha, regardless, its awesome ^_^

never trust a happy song

maranda: fuck you, maybe i wanna be happy!!! haha














and on another topic
someone managed to convince me to goto south side today
on st patrics day


i was supposed to be home at 10
i didnt get home till 12ish

and i thought i put my zune in my purse before i left so i could listen to music on the way home

and i cldnt find it on the way home
so im hoping its here, i mean
i think i put my headphones in my bag then said to myself i needed to look for it
but im not positive that i did

and im afraid to look for it incase it isnt here

buttttt
i do have someone that loves me enough and said shed buy me a new one if i did lose it


haha


any waysssss, im contemplating what im about to do....hmmmmmm

i got a new layout, im not sure if i like it or not yet....









hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
well see...

i want to clear my mind
block some stuff out
and let other stuff in


i need to be in a different mindset than i am
even though i practically forced myself to be in the one i am

i dont want to change
but i know i need to

right now i have the motivation to do it
but i know it wont last

it might for a bit
but it never lasts







i want to pick up
and start over new

i just want things to change
for the better















and its weird
and kinda scary that i want things to change for the better

i mean



im such a negative person
i cant be positive
but i need to try to be

and the first step to being positive
at least in my book
is to believe that i can be positive

party!! party!!! party!!! woooohooooo!!!

this is my 800th post!!
w0000t! xDDD


haha















but yea, i got sooo much shit on my mind
and i wanna rant, but i really want feedback
which is weird
im weird

ugggg, sitting on fb chat

talking to three guys
2 that like me
1 that i like

and of course, the one with the guy i likesish is going no where x_x
but me and the other guys have been talking for a while
despite the fact that one is saying he still likes me after ranting bout his ex that hes in love with and blah blah blah he wants it to work blah blah blah, said he wants his kid to call me mommy instead of her blah blah blah its still been going on for a while, haha


and the other one is, well, him, lolz
and he needs to stop saying cute shittttt, lolz

"hey, arn't you that chick that is having sex with that college guy?"
"no"
"you wanna be?"

days like today remind me why i hate people x_x haha










i may have the mentality of a 5 year old
but at least i can tell difference between a joke and someone being serious...

so its almost impossible for me to be positive











and I'm really starting to think that there is no way in fucking hell that I'm coming back next semester


fuck.




































still wishing i was in Maine at NesCom, then maybe i wouldn't be failing to miserably



ill talk to my parents, and see what they thing about me dropping out of Edinboro and going there, Edinboro just isn't where i need to be.

I mean, I'm taking classes that i don't want to take, because they don't benefit me in anyway.

i probably should have taken wellness and walking, then i would have passed.
maybe over break I can try to do some more shit, arg, I just don't know what to do anymore...I'm just not motivated enough to be here

soooooooooooooooooooo
today was funnnn


it was nice so me and some people played out side
and by that i mean we had chalk xDDD

it was awesome
except for the one cunt that "mumbled" "im not 5, im in college"
when i asked her if she wanted to play with chalk
like stfu and get the stick outta your ass
we had like a 25 year old playing with chalk xDDD


and now im procrastinating packing
mainly because i got a lot to do, and i dont wanna
but im taking home a decent amount of shit that i dont use or wear so its easier for me to pack when i move out


so yeeeeeea



and for like a week ill be living at krystals over the summer xDD haha

bahahahahahaha, i have a play list withhhhh:::

wiz kahlifia
trey songz
snoop dog
yelawolf
mc larz
k.flay
lady soverign
twiztid
brokencyde



yet another example of how my life is interesting, bahaha

























and i will never cease to be amazed by how fucking retarded people are in edinboro x_x
like with common sense and shit like that


and a decent amount of annoying fucking people
like, im not your friend, idgf about your life



any who








my phone is being shit
and no one loves me enough to take me to sprint
which is acceptiable
it just makes it harder to do shit
and i love that it really acts up during the weekends



and ive been saying i was gonna get a shower since i came back to my room around 1:30
but i got better shit to do, haha








and u think i have dnd today, im joining people that they started
but seeing as how 1 of the 2 people that have my number doesnt have unlimited txts and prob doesnt want to text me, and my e-mail thing spams his phone and uses more texts, and no offense to the other...butttttt...i really dont think shes smart enough to txt me e-mail thingy if im not replying to my phone


but then again, with me knowing that, i should msg her first
but probably after a shower
and after a little nappy :)
im on 29hrs
but thats not much
im gladd i got this no sleep thing on a friday night to saturday morning
so i can goto bed whenever today
and wake up whenever :D


haha
so i kinda dont wanna goto sleep super early
but i am kinda really tired
and im not here enough to corridnate times to see if its logical that im this tired
but it probably is
i mean, thats more hours than should be

















and i kinda think i hear someone at my door....butttttttttttttttt, idc
xD



haha, maybe a cat nap...or nap till like 11pm
bahahaha
that would suck


anywho, im rabbeling on
and i murdered that soooooooooooooooooooo bad its spell check is all like "DAFUQQQ!?!?!?"

hoe bag-- i.e maranda!

you need to skype me cuz my phone no workssssss, haha





and i stand by that theory for yesterday/todayish too ^_^




awesomeness rolls over from day to day sometimes :D

good days are good :D



especially when they are good, then great, then AMAZING!!!