My so called "life"

i want to clear my mind
block some stuff out
and let other stuff in


i need to be in a different mindset than i am
even though i practically forced myself to be in the one i am

i dont want to change
but i know i need to

right now i have the motivation to do it
but i know it wont last

it might for a bit
but it never lasts







i want to pick up
and start over new

i just want things to change
for the better















and its weird
and kinda scary that i want things to change for the better

i mean



im such a negative person
i cant be positive
but i need to try to be

and the first step to being positive
at least in my book
is to believe that i can be positive