i wanna vent
so the world [or who ever reads this] can see

but i already vented enough



same shit
different day
















ugggg




so many pluses and fucking negatives
but i guess they all balance out
kinda
i guess
maybe
idk




night

came to bed at 1am

now its time to play the how long can i roll around in bed till i pass out game...lolz

came to bed at 1am

now its time to play the how long can i roll around in bed till i pass out game...lolz

i feel like i need to say this to you










so i'm sorry
that seems insincere
but it wasnt meant to be

it kills me

when u ignore me

i feel like you keep pushing me away
and the more you do
the less i care

idk if this is just you being you
or if ur busy
or if what

but it kills me
and it takes away from everything amazing about you a little more each day

maybe im being me
or a girl
or paranoid

but no matter what it is i dont want to play these games
and i dont want to be apart of your shanagines

fin

that moment when you realize who actually reads your blog
and then you are stuck living in that jail inside of yourself
just so they don't know what your really feeling, thinking, wanting.





but sometimes you need to actually think.
is it worth it to protect them?
or do you need to let it out more?


but knowing me, ill keep it bottled up until one day its just to much
then ill blow



and you'll never know anything about this



so i guess i should go to sleep
or at least attempt to while thoughts pollute my mind.



goodnight.

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

this summer shall be interesting as fuckkkkk :)<3

my bodys tired as fuckkk

but my head is ready to take on the world x_x

my body is also in achey pain

ib profin and sleepy pill time? i think so :)

desite how long its been since weve talked

and despite the fact i feel as if well never talk again

and despite the fact we have extanged some of the most hurtfull words

i stand by what i have said
i called you my everything
and i meant it

you truely do mean the world to me
and no matter what happens
and how much time passed

you
will be the one and only person i call my everything

and

no matter what
i will keep the most important promise i made to you
no matter what

ive broken it a few times
but ive learned
its been what feels like forever since i broke it
and as hard as it is
ill try to never break it again

and maybe one day our paths will cross again
and i can tell you how long i kept this promise

and maybe youll be proud
in fact

i know you will be
and i know you are

even thought i have no idea where you are

<3
i just hope youll never forget me
because i know ill never forget you

fuck this
w/e
i quit on you


blah
its pointless


today was mainly shit
with an exception of open mic night
tomorrow should be better

hopefully i have someone at work so i dont gouge my eyes out with a spoon
and i found two people that are willing to work there
so yay

gah
all anything is with you is head games
this is one of the reasons i didnt wanna come back
for the past three years its been one of us playing head games with the other
on the plus i think its me this time

because i know that last time it was you
maybe its mutual each time

gah
why x_x



i feel like poo
and i wanna curl up in a ball and die
but i have way to much shit to doooo
and a bunch of stuff on my mind
ive been sleeping all day and im bout to go sleep some more




fuck this x_x

i have such a thing for short guys its weird lolz dont girls normally like taller guys? haha oh wellllllz ^_^

how am i supposed to say no

you keep doing and saying adorable things

and despite the artist of this song, its adorable
and you are communicating with me through music
which i adore in so many ways





and this

long story short

finally done packing with an exception of stuff im using tomorrow, the walls are blank and boring, my curtains are down and i hate the emptiness and imprisonment...im not looking forward to going home and unpacking and still feeling imprisoned...but on the plus i thought of a way i can set up my room so i can bring my drum set to school, and i finally get to enjoy that yoohoo ive been saving since the beginning of the semester for this exact moment...its so bittersweet to be leaving...



and i want to say so much more
but i dont feel like it


and i want to feel...something, anything

just once i only had posters to take down i just got so emotionless
i hate when i get like this
its depressing
but it doesnt depress me
because i dont feel anything

i just feel empty
empty like my room
it sucks










fuck saying life is hard
growing up, moving on, and change is hard
 

and if thats the only thing i ever learn in life, ill be happy with it





























gah, i feel so lost right now x_x

http://www.erietvnews.com/story/18169369/veteran-hollywood-villain-chooses-edinboro-univeristy-to-film-latest-movie

a movie
about a school shooting
at my school

i knew there was a reason i came here
just kinda sad i couldnt be in it or anything like that D:

haha

dont repeat the same fucking thing over and over
if i said no the first 5 times obviously the fucking answer is no

when i change to idc that means your pissing me off


when i change to "i dont fucking give a shit"
dont tell me im getting an attitude
when i said "well no fucking duh"
dont hang up on me
then text me about it
then get pissy when i dont fucking reply in a min
ESPECIALLY WHEN I FUCKING TELL YOU I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF EMAILING A FUCKING TEACHER!!!

when i dont reply to ur second msg dont call me

when i like your status that is fucking about me, dont fucking text me about likeing your fucking status



my fucking god
im not sure if this is how you normally fucking are or if its cuz your fucking drunk


also, dont be like "well i guess im just going to go to bed" all fucking sadly
i dont get guilted into fucking doing things

grow the fuck up
and shut the fuck up
i dont fucking care


sdjfosadifhaoihtweoi[tuwiof[wut]i2ut]ptu249t

youd think that a girl would be attracted to a guy that would do what ever he could possibly could do to make her happy..











....whats wrong with me?

i like when people can bring me out of a bad mood with out realizing im in one or realizing what they are doing. those are the kind of friends you want to keep around :)

watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rvAv4TSLx-c&feature=youtu.be