My so called "life"

im not really sure why im actually in a shitty mood
because i really dont think its ne ones fault
i think its my fault
and i think i think that its people because i dont want to blame myself

any who, of course someone made it worse
so i said fuck it

and tried to watch alice in wonder land on netflix
but my connection is shit

my friends are drinking four loco tonight
i didnt have money to pitch in so i didnt have to think of a last min excuse to not go

i kinda wanna b alone
but i wanna cuddle with someone
but idk

so i jacked my room mates alice in wonderland, because i hate slowness

and i kinda want noms
but really dont wanna eat ramen now
mainly cuz the microwave is loud
and cuz i really sldnt be consuming 3290482309calories and 3204923049grams of salt in one sitting, especially at 1135 at night
despite the fact its a friday
i was up since 540
cuz i dont sleep
and im probably gonna pass out soon

any ways
idk
i was gonna do hw and was like w.e fuck it
sooooo, i might attempt it after this
cuz god knows i wont be able to fucking sleep

blah
im calling kwik fill tomorrow
because they didnt call me
and i mean, idc if the reason they didnt call me is because i didnt get the job
i mean, i want it
and ill b upset if i dont get it
but i mean, if i didnt get it at least have the fucking decency to call me and tell me
so ill call tomorrow
and act nice
and not like im pissed that they didnt call me
ill be like "hi, this is holli, i had an interview last week and i was told that i would be called this week, but since i wasnt i was just wondering if im able to work or not, thank you so much"

now that i planned that someone will answer and ill b like
"is beth there"
and if they say yes ill be like lemme tlk to her
and ill b like
"hi, this is holli..."
in which shell probably cut me off
at least from wat i gathered about her
but if she doesnt ill continue like
"you said ud call me this week, but i didnt get a call, so i was wondering if you talked to ur manager about hiring me"
or
something
idk

it doesnt matter
shell just cut me off
and b like
"sorry, but we found someone else"
and ill b like, "okay, thanks anyways, but if u ever need me ill be more than happy to work"




holli wants monies x_______x





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