breaking my back just to know your name

i thought of something sad today
just in case you cared...

then i thought
and, of course, that didn't help

so for the most of the day
i had the same two or three repeating in my head
over and over again
eating away at my skull
making every breath go by faster and faster

every breath we take,
is a breath closer to the end

i think of it the 'depressing' way
but there really is no 'happy' way to think about breathing
you know?
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so i was looking through all of my open programs
and i found the note pad i had these lyrics posted in

"Drivers in the taxicabs,

People live their roles.

Thirty-five cents.

Throw it in the toll.

They don't know they're paying what

is stealing their food.

They're forced into the melting

pot where they're simmered and

brewed.

He loves being sick but he looks for a cure.

[Chorus:]

You can call this sane.

You can call this eccentric.

He marks his books with steak knives.

All we are is lunch for the sky.

Why can't we be jazz musicians?

A little melody will soon be missing.

All we are is lunch for the sky.

Let's all play the lottery so we

can buy all our dreams.

I'm a self-help video with the worst themes.

Everything I wanted I was all in a dream.

I still wasn't much or was that just how I seem?

He loves being sick but he looks for a cure.

[Chorus]

I stood back to the countryside.

I asked if you'd like to take a ride.

My moods come in two stages.

God-awful and contagious.

I can't tell you what I want to say.

The city digested yesterday.

Death is not the end it is the cure.

[Chorus]"

and i remembers why they were there
and that reason is because
i remember saying that these were MY lyrics
they described me
and they were like, my theme
but now,
now i look back and don't see it
because i realized that i missunderstood a few of them
and they arn't the same
but i really do enjoy Socratic
and halafix
and i spelled that wrong
but
yea
indie is suck an amazing genre of music
if i could chose to be any genre sterotype, it would be and indie, or punck
i don't know why
but probably more indie
because it's like
not there
you know
like you look at people
and can say "oh they are metal heads"
or "they are crunk kids"
or "look! emo kid!"
or "theres a future rapper"
and even "haha, punk kid ftw"
and why not throw in "hes a ska kid"
but i don't think ive ever been like "zoh my god, theres and indie kid"
like, i looked at and indie clothing store
and some of there stuff is like, scene or punk
its like, a scene/punk mix
idk, sterotypes are just getting kinda annoying

alouthough, i saw some one
that always says "SCENE KID!!!!" when he sees me
and that time he didnt
we just did that look at each other thing
and i was like, "so your not gonna say it this time?"
and he acted completely clueless
and idk wat got into him

and i havent been called an emo kid by a certain person for quite some bit
but maybe cuz he said someone kept calling him emo
and he realized how fucking annoying it is
idk
hes no where near emo
so w/e

ugg, i really should sleeeeeeeeep
maybe ill look at some indie clothes and what not
then call it a night

good night world
and good night moon
today, is a good night
with smiles and happniess
gawd, don't make the morning come to soon now
just stay like this
during the time life is good
<3 :)