now i have spell check again...

so yesterday i decided to look up lyrics to try and explain what i've been feeling like
so i made this then
but am posting it now
because i was afraid what i have tried not to tell people
would be to obvious
then i finally just said "fuck it"
and im about to hit the post button...
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Shouldn't I feel alive?
I swear that I've tried
To be alright
To sleep at night

Lost myself in an endless goodnight
Kept the time by the patterns of the streetlight
Couldn't get it right
I could never get it right
Sadly, this is a wasted conversation
Lost on you, lost on you
This is a test of my patience
Your blue eyes are so cruel
I can't escape all the things we've said
I've takin years off my life with the weight of regret
Now there's nothing left
There is nothing left to lose


Sadly, you turn away and now I'm faced
With the harsh truth, the harsh truth
My cold heart is a place where true love cannot bloom

Your pride just swallow it

just stop and take a breath
suck in the stench of death

so cross your fingers
until there's nothing left

it's getting colder
each and everyday
the nights get longer
i slowly fade

find me some beauty
in this empty place
before you know it
i'll be gone without a trace

give me a reason to
wake up and face the light
i've been searching for
a way out of this life
how will i make it through
this long and bitter night?

when things like breathing
feel like a waste
it seems like leaving's
the only way

the best intentions
they never got me by
i can't escape this
it has overcome my mind

You'll be lucky if you make it out alive.
Haven't we lost our minds?
What the hell were we all thinking?
Now they're choosing sides.
This is the world.

So close your eyes
and paint the picture.
The sunset staring back
won't last forever, forever.

Just close your eyes
and paint the picture,
cause the world we could have had
would have been better.

You'll pierce my lungs
my limbs go numb
as my colors fade out.

I gave you everything to die with a smile
all you wanted was to live for a while
you took everything but it left you empty
you can't replace me, you can't.

This path is like a loaded gun, but what’s said is done. You don’t have to say a word.

’m so afraid to ask,
I’ll turn my back forget the past; find me something true that is isn't sad.

We watched these days go by,
The seasons change and faded away, and the things I’ve learned to love go on and die.

I feel so alone and now my head is bowed in shame again,
So I look to the heart of the devil for answers.

I spend my nights and days, locked away; they’re all the same,
I don’t know how much more I can take.

somebody please tell me
what am I suppose to do?
you've died and I'm here
thinking that I hear your voice,
but it's somebody else
it's always somebody else
why did you die?
don't leave me please
I beg you God tonight bring me peace
I'll never sleep without
the dreams of you alive here with me, alive here with me
the brightness left your eyes
as I held your face
don't tell me it's the right time
and your last words will sustain me
until my end...until I see you again

Your words (your life) evade me (but a moment)
I'll cling to (I'll wait to) remember you (forever)
and what you have (your words) meant to me (on my blood)
could never be forgotten
the chains (why) of death (today)
have fallen (away), but my heart still bleeds
it longs for (why) the day (did you die)
when we will be as one, one, one

This life is much too hard for you and me.
They say we’re living in our dreams
black, white, and nothing in between.
This world is never as it seems to be.
But they don’t want this
and they don’t feel this

This world, we’ve gotta let it go.
This life is out of our control.

Just Breathe
The midnight air will do you well
Believe
I miss your taste,
I miss your smell.
The past mistakes that brought you here,
Will break the fall for you my dear.
I'll ask the nurse for bandages,
Don't send me on my way.

Rescue me from everything,
I just want to live,
I wish I could breathe.

Every other day,
I sit and wait for the same bad news.
Can you hear me say
"I've got nothing left to lose"

I've seen the worst case scenario,
I'm slowly letting go.

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth

I believe in nothing
Not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing
Not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing
Not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing
But the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing
One hundred suns until we part
I believe in nothing
Not in satan, not in god
I believe in nothing
Not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing
But the truth of who we are

I never thought the day would come
When we'd have to say goodbye
But now the time has come
As I wipe the tears from my eyes

Too tired of these lonely nights
I've lost everything
That meant anything
You're still ringing in my ears

Haunting in my dreams
I've tried running but I can't
Escape from you in my memories

It's what kills me slowly
You kill me slowly with the way
I know you won't come back
and I regret everything I said

The city is so cold tonight
It's exactly what I feel inside

I've lost you somewhere in forever
So lets start this all over
Because all of this seems to familiar

I might seem lifeless
But I'm not dead
Help me pick up the pieces
So I can see you again

With blood
And sweat
Hold back your tears

I won't forget the day that you went away
But somehow I know you're always here
Close to my heart
I can't believe your gone

I won't forget what you told me
I know you're out there somewhere
Waiting for me any day

Always close to my heart
I still can't believe your gone

this is my fate
i know there is no way out

So I can forget about yesterday
It's something that I can't forget
about this time,
can't let this break me down

Where are you tonight
I couldn't say goodbye
Your words still echo in my mind

We'll keep on fighting, but we'll never win
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i claim either scary kids scaring kids or before their eyes my new favourite band
and if u havent noticed
the first like 50 lines and the last like 20 lines are from them