My so called "life"

fuck.
i looked at my cover page and started fangirling.
being a fan girl is hard :/

like seriously,
you'll never understand what i go through.
being really self conscious doesn't help either.
because when i pass a guy in a band i like i can't be like "oh hai, can i take a picture with you?" or "your really awesome"

no,
i just get a love struck feeling and look in my eyes
and awkwardly stare at them
as i die of overwhelming happiness on the inside.



but on the plus side,
im not a crazy fan girl that does something stupid
like
crowd surf to get past the barriers and security gaurds
and then jump on stage.

i'm glad i have self control




this was long and pointless.
but i killed some time so i would be able to get some sleep and stop fangirling.
haha.