love hate relaionship with AP

so i found 2 colleges that were in AP magazine that i fell in love with
they have everything i need, want, and more for me going into the music industry!!!
thats the love

the hate is that they are located in 2 of my least favourite states
orlando fl
and new york, ny
i almost wanna cry
i HATE those states with almost ever ounce of everything in me
now here r the facts
i either suck it up and go [most likely]
i go to different colleges
or i dnt go into the music indusrty

but gawd, iv wanted to go to iar [ny] for that past year in a half or 2 years
i cant just ditch that now
and full sail [fl] has sooooo many amazing guests that help there
people that worked with nirvana, pearl jam, NIN, rolling stones, jay-z
its just too good to pass up
i mean, there are onl line courses, but i cant do that
id get distracted to eaisly

but yes, i think im gonna go to them
and yes, both of them
i know, i know, iknow
it will fucking kill me
but the way i see it
if i goto 2 schools that basically are meant for wat i wanna do
and im gonna b working with ppl that put big bands where they are
and "creating real world relationships" with these people
why, no, how could i pass it up

i mean, im only at my internship because there is a recording studio there
because i may get a chance to learn how to use it!
its not definite
i may never touch ne of that amazing equipment
but just the thought of it amazes me
like wed, i was soooo fucking happy that i go to carry all that stuff
i mean, i had no idea wat almost any of it did
or how to set it up
but i wanted to learn
and i know the moment i wlked into that studio i was like a kid in a candy shop each time

gawd
then there is ringold
saying i cnt do it
blah blah blah
fuck him
and the next time he says i cant
im gonna tell him to fuck off, because i can achieve anything if i want it enough
and my god, i want to do this enought