ugg

i wish...

that i could make up my mind
about things

like
well, just every thing

my grad project is probably the most important
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i wish...
that i can rid the people i dont want to be around
and for friendships with the ones i do

but i cant
im not that mean
and im not that appealing to everyone
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i wish...

that i could have the strength to go on
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i wish..
that people could see me
the way i want them to see me

but with out me having to act that way

to force that smile
to fake that laugh
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i wish..
that people wouldnt lie
for stupid reasons

like, to gain your trust, affection, and friendship
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i wish...

that my mind and heard wouldnt always contradict
and dissagree
with each other
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i wish..
that i has a magical stop watch

stop
rewind
forward
freeze
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i wish..
that i could make myself and other happy
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i wish...

that i could bring back the dead
and watch people as the start crying

and smileing
as they see the ones the lost

and get to tell them that they love them
or are sorry

and change the last words they said to them
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i wish...

i wasnt crying right now

or that i could keep it inside longer
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i wish...

we could see

what out lives would be like if we could change the choice we made
and then choose the one we liked better
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i wish...

i had enough

strength

to take down that wish bone from freshmen year...

they only one i can remember my wish of..
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i wish..
that my parents could just make up their goddamn minds about moving

and get it over with
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i wish...
that

i could have things
that im proud of
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i wish...
that ur not having trouble reading this

because of the stupid format im using
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i wish...
that u under stand that im

sorry

if you are
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i wish...

that used tampons and pads

didnt stink
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i wish...
i could start each day

with a cup of flavored tea

and end it the same
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i wish...
that i could change the way i look
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i wish...
i was prettier
and
skinnier
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i wish...
that my skin wasnt so dry

and thick

and disgusting
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i wish...
that i could just accept myself
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i wish...
that i wouldnt regret

soooo many things that i did
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i wish..

that i dont have to live

with regrets
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i wish...
that i didnt have

these

marks

all over
my body

that will never go away
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i wish...
i could never have the memories of they reasons they are there

they people that made them be there
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i wish...
that i didnt just say that
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i wish...

that i could just beleive in things

that arent there

or real
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i wish...
that i can fall asleep in someones arms

and wake up still there
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i wish...

that i could find

something pure

and real
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i wish...
that one day

all of my wishes will com true