why cant i have nice, not shitty things?

my glasses are spotted
my make-up is running
and my eyes
my eyes are blood shot

from these tears i cry
but not for a good reason
for an, odd reason

i have to finally part with my camera
the first non hammy down electronic that i didn't have to pay for
after begging and beggin for this really awesome camera that i fell in love with
i got this
so there was a tiny disappointment

i had it for like 3 years
it broke about a year ago
maybe a little more
and today a decided i wanted to fix it
and i couldn't
I wanted to take it apart
but i couldnt un-screw it
so i had my dad do it
i kept everything neat and in order
the internal and external screws were seperated
and stuck to tape so i wouldnt loose them
[btw, there was a "lense error"]
and after 2 hrs of pulling and nudging
and getting shocked and scratched
and of hopeing
and excitiment for it to work
i ask my dad to put it back together
and he sais its broken and not fixed
i couldnt even get the batteries to turn it on to prove him wrong
there was no point to destroying it
so i have it
and ill keep it
all but the screws
i re-attached it as best as i could
and its my little drawer thing
with all my other broken electronics
cell phones, mp3 players, little hand held games, a portable dvd player
and a working boom box
and my red samsungs box
and my current mp3 players box
all nice and neat
now it rests in pieces there

idk if its me
but i get attatched to MY electronics
even if i hated them
because if its an every day thing
of course im gonna miss it when its gone

and theres the bitch
and i dnt even wanna get started
because shes such a fucking cunted whore ass bitch that needs to fucking slit her fucking throate so i can be a hell of a lot less stressed the fuck out all the fucking time

but there was a big fight
blah blah blah
fuck her

and when i was putting my camera in its grave
i found my old camera
well, my dads REALLY old ass one
and i looked at the pictures
they are from 2007
but i really think they are from earlier
but thats not the point

this was the broken shitty camera
and now its my working one
its one of the shitty-est i've ever seen
but it works, and i can edit them to make them look like a normal camera took them
at least i think i can
its a 2.0 megapixel
my new one was a 7.1
big asssss difference

during that argument
i went on a rant
how i cant have nice things
and the only thing that i use every day that works
is my lap top

my mp3 player:
i need to bend and morph the head phones so i can hear out of both sides
the radio doesnt work with the speaker
if it tap the head phones the wrong way i have to re-do it all

camera:
i just explained

phone:
i had no need for a camera
because i had pic messaging
now i do not
and my pics on my card for my phone dnt always show up on my computer
and the speaker that i hear out of is fucked up
and makes every one elese a little harder to hear

lap top:
doesnt matter wats wrong with it
my school will fix it for free
but its the eaisest to deal with

btw, the old ass camera, well, the memory card is as big as my phones battery [no lies]
so i need to dig in a mess of courds so i can find one i can actually use...

this shall be fun...