My so called "life"

im so done here
i hate it
if im gonna b in the middle of fucking no where i wanna at least be learning something that will actually help me with what i want to fucking do

uggg

and nescom is in a small city
which is like 20,000 or 50,000

as where here its called a small twn
which is 2,000 ti 9,999

i hate it here
i hate the nothingness
and i hate everything
arg
theres a few people im becoming accustom too
so thats a plus
and i like the drama and tv

everything else i hate
i do love my room set up

but yea, hate everything else
arg







i was filling out a scholarship application
then to make sure i spelled the hazlett right i look on my internship ladys fb
she doesnt work there ne more
and does something sooo much cooler
so i looked on the kid that taught me everything i kno bout sound
and hes in fucking tennesse or masachucis or some place and goes to fucking sae
which is one of the places i wanted to go
after iar
and before nescom




arg
im just mad
and pissed
and wanna throw shit
and punch things




and once i looked on both of their facebooks i got all emotional and pissed off
and then did what i always do wen im mad
and started to cry
then i cldnt use my mouse pad
and my tears were awkwardly warm
and kinda had a yellowish tint on my mouse pad






arg, im just hating everything
if i dont get scholarships for nescom im stuck here
cuz the only schools in pgh that offer mass communications or the like is the same price as nescom/ i dont have a chance to get into them
like point park, its actually more expensive for just a year of tuition than me living on campus at nescom for a year
and i forgert if it was duquense or carlow that had communications, but hello, they are christian schools or w.e
soooo, they are just as much x_x


uggggg, and im not going to iup, even tho its closer
unless i somehow get a car
and i already had that choice
and picked here




idk







i guess i just hate everyone and everything atm














ill b better in a few days
i always am
and i always hate it






going to fir is just gonna make me miss pgh more x____x
buttttttt i<3 ronnie



and my room mate needs to get the fuck back so i can ask her for a ride
and if shes not back by like 8 or 9 ill txt her