some one catch me

before i fall too in 'love' with you

arg, i hate when this happens
it's not that i dont like you, because i do
it's just i cant
because its awkward
i dont think that i could be with you like that
yet i want to

i am beating myself up about this like crazy
trying to hide it, and forcing my self not to tell
gawd, when i do this thing, i encase my self in a deep state of depression and confusion
so you can tell when it peaks

so ill just cut my wrists
and black my eyes
so i can fall asleep tonight
or die...