http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OVKaemIz860
bah
i think i twisted my knee
and my intern was shit today
bah
w/e
idc ne more
the pssas were pure bull shit
i mean giving us 4 hrs to do 51 questions is over kill
like, how the fuck wernt people down??
we had over 2hrs to do 26 math problems
and people wernt done!!!
come the fuck on!!!!
im an idiot
yet i took my time
and had an hr of sleep
x_x
fuck tards
gah
i hate people
x_x
lalalalala
i want some GOOD punding punk music now
casualties
OLD afi
maybe a bit of misfits, dare i say
a tad of nofx maybe
hmmm, thats all the good ones i can think of
its sad
1) that there are next to NO good ones
2) that i dnt kno ne more than that
but every time i look bands up
the suck ass
or i cnt find ne dwn loadable songs
so i for get about them
the donots
hmmm
i need to go back to my imeem, i kno i have some there
:)
thank you memory...
GAH!!!
thanks myspace
fuck you
i liked imeem
fuck you to fucking hell!!!!
grrrrrrr
fuckkkk
im swole now
fucking mysapce doesnt have half these fucking bands
thank you myspace
i now have u even more than ever!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrr
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fml
old song bring back old memories
old friends
good and bad
its kinda nice.
blah, trying not to get involved in more 'drama' than i already am
x_x
i just remembered why rise against is my favorite band
:)
and it kinda over powered y i dnt like them...
but im sorry, i cant respect straight edge 'punk' bands
its just, eh
i just checked my school e-mail
and i have a glimpse of hope
:)
i might be able to pass history with a C
and ill just have to make up math
ill try to do all my shit next trimester
idk
its gonna b hard
cuz butch cnt teach
and im not gonna waste my time doing homework that ill get a 10 out of 10 on JUST because its turned in complete
i mean, if im gonna do the work, i want REAL grade
not a pansy grade
MAYBE if thats how we were being graded i would attempt it
i guess i should do my work
so i can pass
ill b so proud of that C
gawd, reality is like a fucking brick wall
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it occurred to me
that i can do something significant to show that i trust someone
and that is free willingly crying in front of them
and not holding it in then letting it go
but go up to some one and just let it out
so i guess that i dnt trust ne one..
..just saying..
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my heart if just filled with butterflies listening to some of these old songs
:)
so peaceful, so much meaning behind them
happiness
its next to impossible to NOT smile
*sigh*
i want to lay in the grass again
here are some lyrics that make me remember the past..
[as if you care]
"ill show you mine, if you show me yours first. lets compare scars, ill tell you whos is worse"
"i wont cross these streets untill you hold my hand"
"mom and dad, i think you ought to quit smoking so much pot"
"we wonder if were waiting here for nothing"
"well never fall if we stand for something"
bah, idc ne more
too much effort
ill just post this now
and call it the end
and if there is more
ill post that later
or w/e
3/31/10
3/30/10
there's nothing to lose..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGUw0und0HM
damn pssa's tomorrow
fuck that shit
imma fail
x_x
woo-fucking-hooo
i established i have next to no reasons to have a phone
or motive
sooooo
imma keep it ne ways
:D
i had an big 'plan' for wat i was gonna write
but now idr
or really care
or both
mainly idr tho
so i guess i shall just call it a night?
damn pssa's tomorrow
fuck that shit
imma fail
x_x
woo-fucking-hooo
i established i have next to no reasons to have a phone
or motive
sooooo
imma keep it ne ways
:D
i had an big 'plan' for wat i was gonna write
but now idr
or really care
or both
mainly idr tho
so i guess i shall just call it a night?
this is stupid...
losing people over stupid things
its stupid
and sometimes i wonder if its worth getting them back
in the words of maranda
"of a relationship is beyond repair, don't try to fix it"
or something like that
bah
idk ne more
in the words of chris crocher...
"shes not well!!"
hehe
i spend my life on yourtube
shanes giving me a present
i haz 25 canadian cents now
:D
i can go buy some canadian now and laters
or fruties
or cheap canadian hookers
:D
hehe, people make me smile
bah
and some people give lame, yet funny advice
that does nothing more than make me laugh
bah
gah
meh
i need something else
to do
fuck math
and fuck the pssas
i already kno im not graduating either at thus school
or with my class
blah
w/e
is it funny that the two clases that im failing the two classes mrs kalnicky taught
bitch
its stupid
and sometimes i wonder if its worth getting them back
in the words of maranda
"of a relationship is beyond repair, don't try to fix it"
or something like that
bah
idk ne more
in the words of chris crocher...
"shes not well!!"
hehe
i spend my life on yourtube
shanes giving me a present
i haz 25 canadian cents now
:D
i can go buy some canadian now and laters
or fruties
or cheap canadian hookers
:D
hehe, people make me smile
bah
and some people give lame, yet funny advice
that does nothing more than make me laugh
bah
gah
meh
i need something else
to do
fuck math
and fuck the pssas
i already kno im not graduating either at thus school
or with my class
blah
w/e
is it funny that the two clases that im failing the two classes mrs kalnicky taught
bitch
3/29/10
come along with us...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q26ixkXqggw
its pretty cool
i was gonna write this big long thing
but now im deciding to keep it short...ish
just by saying a few things to one person...
im not sorry
i didnt apologize
my friend did
so that there would be less drama
ur a little bitch
i havent been involved in this shitty ass drama since freshmen year
i cnt believe a guy is involved in it
especially cuz it started over SHOES
now i understand y i went on that half unconscious rant about how much i fucking hate u
its like for shadowing or some shit
i like my life better now
im happier
and seem less depressed
i plan on living my life like u r basically un-existent, because i like it this way
and i do not plan on apologizing for this incident
because it's retarted
and sorry for sounding like a bitch, but its my blog
AND PEOPLE SLDNT TRY AND SAY SHIT ABOUT IT AND SAY MY FUCKING OPINION IS WRONG!
bye bye a.w
[in case you still read my blog and couldnt figure out it's about you...because i kno that u are bad with using COMMON fucking LOGIC]
its pretty cool
i was gonna write this big long thing
but now im deciding to keep it short...ish
just by saying a few things to one person...
im not sorry
i didnt apologize
my friend did
so that there would be less drama
ur a little bitch
i havent been involved in this shitty ass drama since freshmen year
i cnt believe a guy is involved in it
especially cuz it started over SHOES
now i understand y i went on that half unconscious rant about how much i fucking hate u
its like for shadowing or some shit
i like my life better now
im happier
and seem less depressed
i plan on living my life like u r basically un-existent, because i like it this way
and i do not plan on apologizing for this incident
because it's retarted
and sorry for sounding like a bitch, but its my blog
AND PEOPLE SLDNT TRY AND SAY SHIT ABOUT IT AND SAY MY FUCKING OPINION IS WRONG!
bye bye a.w
[in case you still read my blog and couldnt figure out it's about you...because i kno that u are bad with using COMMON fucking LOGIC]
this aint a love song, this is a fuck song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uSfVoErENos
bah, im over the fact i pretty much lost a really good friend over sandals
and politics kinda
haha, lame ass reasons
but o wellz i guess
i've been thinking of names for a band
i like "The Downfall To My Apocalypse"
idk, its long
i kinda like long names
people laughed tho
D=
haha
for short it cld b called T-DOMA
hehe
it sounds like a rapper, kinda
idk
i still like "Afraid to Feel"
and i have a sweet cover idea for that one xD
ill have to put it up here laterrrrr
bah, im over the fact i pretty much lost a really good friend over sandals
and politics kinda
haha, lame ass reasons
but o wellz i guess
i've been thinking of names for a band
i like "The Downfall To My Apocalypse"
idk, its long
i kinda like long names
people laughed tho
D=
haha
for short it cld b called T-DOMA
hehe
it sounds like a rapper, kinda
idk
i still like "Afraid to Feel"
and i have a sweet cover idea for that one xD
ill have to put it up here laterrrrr
3/28/10
u thought u were there to guide me, u were only in my way, ur wrong if u think that ill be just like u!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04fQTmvFfGo
hmmmm, i wonder...
pent up emotions
a mix
not particular ones
a lot of them are jumbled up
in my head
and in my heart
just floating around
leaving little droppings of things that will soon turn into more
and soon ill explode
and you can witness my down fall
:)
arn't you so honored?
three days grace is slowly making their way to the top of my fav band list
<3
every morning i listen to their new cd
and i LOVE all of those songs
and SOOOOOOOOOOOOo many of their older songs
<3
meh, maybe it's a "phase"
story of my life much?
any who
im really tired
and just wanna pass out now
and get a shower in the morning
meh
well see wat happens...
idk
im really loosing interest in things i use to find entertainment in
its odd
but, i mean, its not like it hasnt happened before
and many times
haha
read/listen to this!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQaAqeLOG34&feature=sub
gah
i really just need some time to myself
i wanna make something worth while
imma look through my songs on here
http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/
tell me if u see one u think i sld work on
and imma make it good
and try to actually turn it into something
ill like find apps on the comp
and make it sound good
although i cant sing
i just wanna have a tangible product that i can be proud of
so, tell me if u like any, if u do
comment them actually
pic ur fav
thanks :D
hmmmm, i wonder...
pent up emotions
a mix
not particular ones
a lot of them are jumbled up
in my head
and in my heart
just floating around
leaving little droppings of things that will soon turn into more
and soon ill explode
and you can witness my down fall
:)
arn't you so honored?
three days grace is slowly making their way to the top of my fav band list
<3
every morning i listen to their new cd
and i LOVE all of those songs
and SOOOOOOOOOOOOo many of their older songs
<3
meh, maybe it's a "phase"
story of my life much?
any who
im really tired
and just wanna pass out now
and get a shower in the morning
meh
well see wat happens...
idk
im really loosing interest in things i use to find entertainment in
its odd
but, i mean, its not like it hasnt happened before
and many times
haha
read/listen to this!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQaAqeLOG34&feature=sub
gah
i really just need some time to myself
i wanna make something worth while
imma look through my songs on here
http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/
tell me if u see one u think i sld work on
and imma make it good
and try to actually turn it into something
ill like find apps on the comp
and make it sound good
although i cant sing
i just wanna have a tangible product that i can be proud of
so, tell me if u like any, if u do
comment them actually
pic ur fav
thanks :D
3/26/10
cigarette in my hand, hope u all understand
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34inp6QnA3o
this song has just been on repeat for the past like 30mins
i like it better than second chance
and that other song i really like by them
i cnt remember its name
haha
i<3 this song
its one of those sadish ones tho
bah
im good at getting those stuck on re-peat
but yea, my stomach still hurts
=\
it better b better by tomorrow
which it should be
i hope..
haha
i gotta wake up at like 7 x_x
or 8 if i get all my shit together now
but im a procrastinator
haha
ill do it in a bit
maybe..
and i missed fnc
DAMN IT!!!
NOW I HAVE TO WAIT TILL LIKE, TUESDAY TO SEE IT!!!!
haha
i think i may have to take jangels over marandas
because i have a pet to feed!!1
lolz
but yea, i quit pretty much everything but petville
haha
cafe world was getting too boring
and farmville has always been pretty boring
i stopped that
then jenn got all addicted to it
so i started so i cld send her stuff and wat not
and wen i was playing all three of those i quit happy pets
and i stopped playing that fish game
and that other game that i never knew the name of but had it book marked
and that epic band game
haha
my band kick ass
gawd, i have a problem
x_x
and my stomach WILL be better tomorrow
because i dnt wanna b stuck in my house
x_x
haha
this song has just been on repeat for the past like 30mins
i like it better than second chance
and that other song i really like by them
i cnt remember its name
haha
i<3 this song
its one of those sadish ones tho
bah
im good at getting those stuck on re-peat
but yea, my stomach still hurts
=\
it better b better by tomorrow
which it should be
i hope..
haha
i gotta wake up at like 7 x_x
or 8 if i get all my shit together now
but im a procrastinator
haha
ill do it in a bit
maybe..
and i missed fnc
DAMN IT!!!
NOW I HAVE TO WAIT TILL LIKE, TUESDAY TO SEE IT!!!!
haha
i think i may have to take jangels over marandas
because i have a pet to feed!!1
lolz
but yea, i quit pretty much everything but petville
haha
cafe world was getting too boring
and farmville has always been pretty boring
i stopped that
then jenn got all addicted to it
so i started so i cld send her stuff and wat not
and wen i was playing all three of those i quit happy pets
and i stopped playing that fish game
and that other game that i never knew the name of but had it book marked
and that epic band game
haha
my band kick ass
gawd, i have a problem
x_x
and my stomach WILL be better tomorrow
because i dnt wanna b stuck in my house
x_x
haha
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
i've decided to put the video, or a link to it, of the song my titles are from
:)
unless i can't find one, then o well..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4JwHN66H0A
bah
well i guess there is really nothing to say
because no school
soooo...yea, im just glad today wasnt shit
like yesterday
oh yea, i re-dyed my hair
tomorrow im going to cmu to see zach [fence] with maranda
then im going over her house
and going to her sisters baby shower tomorrow
bah, now imma do some laundry so i have clothes tho! haha
peace!
[gawd, i feel and seem so, different, its odd, nice, but odd]
:)
unless i can't find one, then o well..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4JwHN66H0A
bah
well i guess there is really nothing to say
because no school
soooo...yea, im just glad today wasnt shit
like yesterday
oh yea, i re-dyed my hair
tomorrow im going to cmu to see zach [fence] with maranda
then im going over her house
and going to her sisters baby shower tomorrow
bah, now imma do some laundry so i have clothes tho! haha
peace!
[gawd, i feel and seem so, different, its odd, nice, but odd]
3/25/10
shit shit shit PURE SHIT
thats all today was
except for a part of drama
and if that was the highlight of my day you know it must of been shit
cuz every day i have drama i usually bitch about that
so instead of going into detail
im gonna lay in bed and do nothing productive
gah
i dnt wanna go to school tomorrow
x_x
but i guess i will
and kind of have too
lateness maybe?
idfc
w/e
i already established im not graduating with my class =\
and my mind set is there
and if i do, it will be some miricle
w/e
bye
except for a part of drama
and if that was the highlight of my day you know it must of been shit
cuz every day i have drama i usually bitch about that
so instead of going into detail
im gonna lay in bed and do nothing productive
gah
i dnt wanna go to school tomorrow
x_x
but i guess i will
and kind of have too
lateness maybe?
idfc
w/e
i already established im not graduating with my class =\
and my mind set is there
and if i do, it will be some miricle
w/e
bye
shit shit shit PURE SHIT
thats all today was
except for a part of drama
and if that was the highlight of my day you know it must of been shit
cuz every day i have drama i usually bitch about that
so instead of going into detail
im gonna lay in bed and do nothing productive
gah
i dnt wanna go to school tomorrow
x_x
but i guess i will
and kind of have too
lateness maybe?
idfc
w/e
i already established im not graduating with my class =\
and my mind set is there
and if i do, it will be some miricle
w/e
bye
except for a part of drama
and if that was the highlight of my day you know it must of been shit
cuz every day i have drama i usually bitch about that
so instead of going into detail
im gonna lay in bed and do nothing productive
gah
i dnt wanna go to school tomorrow
x_x
but i guess i will
and kind of have too
lateness maybe?
idfc
w/e
i already established im not graduating with my class =\
and my mind set is there
and if i do, it will be some miricle
w/e
bye
yesterday i posted 200 posts
thats about it
i stayed home today
cuz of my stomach
and its acting up again
but i guess i sld go any ways
bah
i pissed someone off
because i was in a bad mood
and blah blah blah
and i want to say im really sorry
and i feel like a horrible person
and even a worse friend..
idk, i guess i could do a better apology than that
but im really not in the greatest mood
bah
plus, he wont read it untill atleast tomorrow
or maybe next week
if even then
bah, im trying to make this quick
so i guess i should just end it here
nah
tomorrow is drama
and disceting a pig
and its my day with the sound guy
speaking of internship
i havnt done my stupid blog in a while
and speaking of things we NEED to graduate from this lame ass school
i still don't have a graduation topic
and im bout to do columbine for the piss of it
and because its the only thing that can keep my intrest for more than a week
idk
i am about to just do something easy as hell
like...
how to tie your shoe
or some shit
idk
fuck this that school
fuck that class
and fuck my life
i know im not graduating at that school
and still i cease to do anything so that i do
i mean, i want to because i wanna graduate with the people i've spent 4 years with
but im NOT gonna be stuck there 5 years
bah
so i guess sr year ill transfer to brasher x_x
where ill get my ass handed to me
bah, ill wait till the middle of 2nd trimester to do it tho
cuz then ill get a SUPPERRRRR long break
cuz i wld of already had my winter one
xD
but in the long run i wld b cheated
haha
idk, im failing all of my classes already
so w/e
im not gonna have enough elective credits
so imma fail
and then ill have to transpher
but i guess ill have to wait till the end of this year to find out
x_x
because if i do fail and need to make up the classes next year, bah, 1 ill b in hell
and 2 i wont have enough credits to pass
gah
but the reason i want to wait to 2nd trimester is because 1st trimester ill have my grad project
and if i fail that...
im transphering for sure
but god, hopefully we will have moved
and i can just go to the local school
x_x
or cyber school
haha
how epic wld it b if i keep shitty highs laptop wen i leave
then go get one from cyber school
and then get a new one for college
bahahahahahahaha
epicnessss!
but i doubt things wld go that smoothly
haha
idk wat im doing yet
gah
all i know is im fucked in school
and gonna b MEGA fuckin fucked in college
x_x
lets hope i can actually decided on something i WONT get tired/bored/annoyed with
well so much for short
night
i stayed home today
cuz of my stomach
and its acting up again
but i guess i sld go any ways
bah
i pissed someone off
because i was in a bad mood
and blah blah blah
and i want to say im really sorry
and i feel like a horrible person
and even a worse friend..
idk, i guess i could do a better apology than that
but im really not in the greatest mood
bah
plus, he wont read it untill atleast tomorrow
or maybe next week
if even then
bah, im trying to make this quick
so i guess i should just end it here
nah
tomorrow is drama
and disceting a pig
and its my day with the sound guy
speaking of internship
i havnt done my stupid blog in a while
and speaking of things we NEED to graduate from this lame ass school
i still don't have a graduation topic
and im bout to do columbine for the piss of it
and because its the only thing that can keep my intrest for more than a week
idk
i am about to just do something easy as hell
like...
how to tie your shoe
or some shit
idk
fuck this that school
fuck that class
and fuck my life
i know im not graduating at that school
and still i cease to do anything so that i do
i mean, i want to because i wanna graduate with the people i've spent 4 years with
but im NOT gonna be stuck there 5 years
bah
so i guess sr year ill transfer to brasher x_x
where ill get my ass handed to me
bah, ill wait till the middle of 2nd trimester to do it tho
cuz then ill get a SUPPERRRRR long break
cuz i wld of already had my winter one
xD
but in the long run i wld b cheated
haha
idk, im failing all of my classes already
so w/e
im not gonna have enough elective credits
so imma fail
and then ill have to transpher
but i guess ill have to wait till the end of this year to find out
x_x
because if i do fail and need to make up the classes next year, bah, 1 ill b in hell
and 2 i wont have enough credits to pass
gah
but the reason i want to wait to 2nd trimester is because 1st trimester ill have my grad project
and if i fail that...
im transphering for sure
but god, hopefully we will have moved
and i can just go to the local school
x_x
or cyber school
haha
how epic wld it b if i keep shitty highs laptop wen i leave
then go get one from cyber school
and then get a new one for college
bahahahahahahaha
epicnessss!
but i doubt things wld go that smoothly
haha
idk wat im doing yet
gah
all i know is im fucked in school
and gonna b MEGA fuckin fucked in college
x_x
lets hope i can actually decided on something i WONT get tired/bored/annoyed with
well so much for short
night
3/23/10
nobodys home
-----new lyrics for my life----
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
i <3 [the old] avril lavinge
and if she didnt change maybe i could say i still had an idol
too many sell outs in this world
and fakes
so its near impossible to find an acceptable rule model
hence y im basically like "w/e fuck it. live fee die young"
i want her to put out a new cd, like her first two
because the pwned ass
and were good
and had that "punk rock" thing going on
like simple plan
probably y they were my 2 fave 'bands'
then one changed
then the other
and its like ewf
any who...
i saw someone crying on my bus
and i was trying to ignore it
but i kept looking up
and even though i only saw her eyes for a few breif moments
i could feel pain
and wanted to cry
then i got really awkward and antsy
i hate looking into peoples eyes
because it always changes how im feeling and what not
but seeing her cry on the bus reminded me of someone
well, a few people...
but mainly one& the rev
but thats just cuz hes been on my mind alot
bah
damn him<3
wen i was wlking home something i found cute happened
this dog has his face all in the fence then looked at me
then ran back to the door
and once i got near the fence he ran a bit short of it and started barking like crazy
haha, i found it funny
gah, i'v been eating alot today
x_x
probably cuz im not sleeping yet
and got home in time for dinner
then the thinking got me kinda eh, or meh
soooo,
thats probably y im a fatty, cuz i eat wen im upset
but refuse to cry
idk
at 9 imma get a shower
and try to be in bed by 10 or 1030
gawd, i cld talk about soooo much
but
this is the internet
and people actually read this
x_x
bah
i lied
its now 9:10
soooo, shower now i guesss
then noms
x_x
im oddly hungry
and i think its cuz there are those where i just dnt eat
soo, idk
bah
i feel like barfing
still have that headache
and stomach is bothering me
gah
still havent stayed home
=\
maybe tomorrow
well see
most likely not tho...
okay, okay
shower now
petville later
sleep
i hope
hmmm, lets see if i update this once i post it....
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
i <3 [the old] avril lavinge
and if she didnt change maybe i could say i still had an idol
too many sell outs in this world
and fakes
so its near impossible to find an acceptable rule model
hence y im basically like "w/e fuck it. live fee die young"
i want her to put out a new cd, like her first two
because the pwned ass
and were good
and had that "punk rock" thing going on
like simple plan
probably y they were my 2 fave 'bands'
then one changed
then the other
and its like ewf
any who...
i saw someone crying on my bus
and i was trying to ignore it
but i kept looking up
and even though i only saw her eyes for a few breif moments
i could feel pain
and wanted to cry
then i got really awkward and antsy
i hate looking into peoples eyes
because it always changes how im feeling and what not
but seeing her cry on the bus reminded me of someone
well, a few people...
but mainly one& the rev
but thats just cuz hes been on my mind alot
bah
damn him<3
wen i was wlking home something i found cute happened
this dog has his face all in the fence then looked at me
then ran back to the door
and once i got near the fence he ran a bit short of it and started barking like crazy
haha, i found it funny
gah, i'v been eating alot today
x_x
probably cuz im not sleeping yet
and got home in time for dinner
then the thinking got me kinda eh, or meh
soooo,
thats probably y im a fatty, cuz i eat wen im upset
but refuse to cry
idk
at 9 imma get a shower
and try to be in bed by 10 or 1030
gawd, i cld talk about soooo much
but
this is the internet
and people actually read this
x_x
bah
i lied
its now 9:10
soooo, shower now i guesss
then noms
x_x
im oddly hungry
and i think its cuz there are those where i just dnt eat
soo, idk
bah
i feel like barfing
still have that headache
and stomach is bothering me
gah
still havent stayed home
=\
maybe tomorrow
well see
most likely not tho...
okay, okay
shower now
petville later
sleep
i hope
hmmm, lets see if i update this once i post it....
3/22/10
we all die in the end
i sit here waiting for you to inturupt my conversation
waiting for you to inturrupt my life
and my thought process
everytime you do that
every time you just speak
you fill me with rage
go ahead and fire me up
i'll just use it to burn you down
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idk if that was gonna be lyrics or not
but it's there
haha
i've had a headache all day
and now i have an upset stomach
i guess thats what i get from not eating for a while
and having pizza so many times in a row
=\
bah
damn friends
thats all i really have to say
because i promised myself that i would sign off the computer at 11
sooooo, i gotta go
in 5 mins
but ill just leave like, now
so that it wont end up being like 12:07 by the time i do
nighty night
<3
waiting for you to inturrupt my life
and my thought process
everytime you do that
every time you just speak
you fill me with rage
go ahead and fire me up
i'll just use it to burn you down
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idk if that was gonna be lyrics or not
but it's there
haha
i've had a headache all day
and now i have an upset stomach
i guess thats what i get from not eating for a while
and having pizza so many times in a row
=\
bah
damn friends
thats all i really have to say
because i promised myself that i would sign off the computer at 11
sooooo, i gotta go
in 5 mins
but ill just leave like, now
so that it wont end up being like 12:07 by the time i do
nighty night
<3
3/21/10
Drugs are good, they let you do things that you know you not should.
ugggg, i had next to everyone tlk to me about my last post
and by that, i mean 4 or 5
ive been listening to NOFX for a while
once i run out of their songs im gonna listen to the casualties
then some jonny cash
sooo, yea
nex stuff i dwn loaded
cuz i only had like one or two songs form each of them
bah
i've been at krystals
and now im home
i got lost of shit i need to get done
fucking school
i hate you
go die, and get a fucking bomb threat called on you!!
but i love her mom!!!!
she bought me stuff, then gave me money to go but more stuff
xD
and now i haz a new hoddie cuz krystal gave me one she didnt really wear/like
it's kinda big, but it doesnt have a hole
i dnt really feel like talking much
kinda just sleeping
and having a nice cry
as odd as that sounds
like, i dnt really have a reason to
it just feels like i havent had one in a while
idk, i cry really easily
x_x
but i got better at holding it in
then there are sometimes wen i just cnt ne more
ugggg, i hate crying in front of people
=\
like, i dnt even like doing infront of jenn after i get in a huge argument withmy mom the bitch
ignoring the robotics compition day where i got freaked someone jacked my hat
i've only cried infront of 7-12 people
and that was cuz my grad project, my mp3 player getting stole..twice, and guy junk, and me just knowing i've done it infront of people
bah, i cried over grad project x_x
but that was more out of frustration
bah
thats alot of people
and there's probably more
cuz i did it at sas too
x_x
but not when i fucked up my ankle
i laughed then
well, i laughed untill i was in tears
i do that alot
more people prob see that
idk
7
bah, its 11:03
i guess ill go get a shower and try and sleep
idk
i dnt wanna
i didnt do ne h/w this weekend
x_x
whoops, i ODed
my dad may take me driving tomorrow
cuz i can get my license in 3 days =D
but i've only been driving like 3 or 4 times
x_x
bah, i have so much going around in my head
that i dnt wanna put
because i still have to remember that people actually read this
and that it is the WORLD wide web
so ANYONE can stumble upon it...
gah, y cnt there be a private one
where you need to like, approve who reads it?
id feel alot more secure then :)
i want...nvm
im contemplating going to bamboozle/warped tour/mayhem/crue fest/any concerts for that matter so i can save up for my tattoo
althought i only need half!
xD
i dnt want krystals mom to have to pay $75 for MY tattoo
soooo, im gonna try to get atleas $110
so that y i can give the ryan dude a tip
cuz he was like "FUCK ID DO THAT FOR FREE!!!!"
"wen u want to get it???!?! it will take me a few days to do it! and ill make the the wire look more 3D!"
haha, that mad was the SHIT!
haha, he flipped shit
gah, y do i reject compliments?
well, dnt answer that
i kno
i reject alot of "good" things
or things i 'should' accept
meh
i dnt really wanna go into detail about it
at least not here..
gah!
im so fricking pissed i realized that i cant blab my mouth bout fucking everything on here
x_x
grrrrrrrrrr
w/e
im out
and by that, i mean 4 or 5
ive been listening to NOFX for a while
once i run out of their songs im gonna listen to the casualties
then some jonny cash
sooo, yea
nex stuff i dwn loaded
cuz i only had like one or two songs form each of them
bah
i've been at krystals
and now im home
i got lost of shit i need to get done
fucking school
i hate you
go die, and get a fucking bomb threat called on you!!
but i love her mom!!!!
she bought me stuff, then gave me money to go but more stuff
xD
and now i haz a new hoddie cuz krystal gave me one she didnt really wear/like
it's kinda big, but it doesnt have a hole
i dnt really feel like talking much
kinda just sleeping
and having a nice cry
as odd as that sounds
like, i dnt really have a reason to
it just feels like i havent had one in a while
idk, i cry really easily
x_x
but i got better at holding it in
then there are sometimes wen i just cnt ne more
ugggg, i hate crying in front of people
=\
like, i dnt even like doing infront of jenn after i get in a huge argument with
ignoring the robotics compition day where i got freaked someone jacked my hat
i've only cried infront of 7-12 people
and that was cuz my grad project, my mp3 player getting stole..twice, and guy junk, and me just knowing i've done it infront of people
bah, i cried over grad project x_x
but that was more out of frustration
bah
thats alot of people
and there's probably more
cuz i did it at sas too
x_x
but not when i fucked up my ankle
i laughed then
well, i laughed untill i was in tears
i do that alot
more people prob see that
idk
7
bah, its 11:03
i guess ill go get a shower and try and sleep
idk
i dnt wanna
i didnt do ne h/w this weekend
x_x
whoops, i ODed
my dad may take me driving tomorrow
cuz i can get my license in 3 days =D
but i've only been driving like 3 or 4 times
x_x
bah, i have so much going around in my head
that i dnt wanna put
because i still have to remember that people actually read this
and that it is the WORLD wide web
so ANYONE can stumble upon it...
gah, y cnt there be a private one
where you need to like, approve who reads it?
id feel alot more secure then :)
i want...nvm
im contemplating going to bamboozle/warped tour/mayhem/crue fest/any concerts for that matter so i can save up for my tattoo
althought i only need half!
xD
i dnt want krystals mom to have to pay $75 for MY tattoo
soooo, im gonna try to get atleas $110
so that y i can give the ryan dude a tip
cuz he was like "FUCK ID DO THAT FOR FREE!!!!"
"wen u want to get it???!?! it will take me a few days to do it! and ill make the the wire look more 3D!"
haha, that mad was the SHIT!
haha, he flipped shit
gah, y do i reject compliments?
well, dnt answer that
i kno
i reject alot of "good" things
or things i 'should' accept
meh
i dnt really wanna go into detail about it
at least not here..
gah!
im so fricking pissed i realized that i cant blab my mouth bout fucking everything on here
x_x
grrrrrrrrrr
w/e
im out
3/19/10
how come all my science class tlks about is smoking..?
i am now convinced that weed is bad for u...
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_bad_is_marijuana_for_you
i also found out soooo much more shit
and now im convinced im gonna die
thanks friends in science class
x_x
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_bad_is_marijuana_for_you
i also found out soooo much more shit
and now im convinced im gonna die
thanks friends in science class
x_x
3/18/10
right now we're just looking for the answer...
Ignorance is bliss
happiness is ambition
desolation is knowledge
pain is acceptance
despair is anger
denial is helpless
martyrism is hope for others
advantages taken are causes of martyrism
revenge is sorrow
death is a reprieve
life is a punishment
others' achievements are tormentations
people are alike
i am different- Holli<3
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idk i had this big long thing typed up
then deleted it because, idk
i guess i didnt wanna make it public
ill give u a prize if u can tell me who wrote that poem...
i looked it up to see if other people could do it
and i found out that NIN originally did it
and someone else 'coppied' it from them
btw, phone turns off on friday or saturday
but im supposed to be getting a new one [and number =\] on sunday
fuck you jump mobile...
happiness is ambition
desolation is knowledge
pain is acceptance
despair is anger
denial is helpless
martyrism is hope for others
advantages taken are causes of martyrism
revenge is sorrow
death is a reprieve
life is a punishment
others' achievements are tormentations
people are alike
i am different- Holli<3
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idk i had this big long thing typed up
then deleted it because, idk
i guess i didnt wanna make it public
i looked it up to see if other people could do it
and i found out that NIN originally did it
and someone else 'coppied' it from them
btw, phone turns off on friday or saturday
but im supposed to be getting a new one [and number =\] on sunday
fuck you jump mobile...
3/16/10
..and the bizarre shit that works..
flash forward is on at 10
:)
another little ray of sunshine has made it through my cold heart
it's only a recap of the first 10 episodes
but it's been off air for like 4 or 5 months
so i may need a recap
today was average
got yelled at by all 3 cult lit teachers for sleeping
although i only was once
and i was about to go ape shit on bossert
cuz she did that stupid "good morning sunshine" thing
and i was like i wasnt sleeping..!??!
and shes like then put ur head up
and i was like its up enough that u cld see my eyes were open
bah
i hate that school
i hate the dress code
i hate the rules
i hate most the teachers
i hate that its not a real school
and in its petty attempts of becoming one it never will be able too
but i do in fact enjoy the bus passes, down town aspect, and at least half the people there.
i have a big chunk of homework
x_x
but i i do it ill pass out
and i got a bunch of you tube videos i need to watch
because last week i didnt watch any
and i need to get a shower at 9 or 930
so i can watch flash forward at 10 then pass out at 11
and i have something under my f key
thats making it really fucking hard to press
and i need to keep hitting it multiple times to work
fixed it
and im glad that this key board isnt a shitty one
because there are the good ones [that allow you to pop keys off then back on]
and the shitty ones [once a key comes off, its not going back on]
and i think it all has to do with which way the plastic holder goes on the key
because i took a key off my one good keyboard
and dumb ass ringold broke it and threw it away
so i took a key off the shitty one i had that TNT let me keep it [hence y it is pretty awesome at times, i have so much tech shit because of him :D] and so that the shitty one would go one my good key board, i had to flip the key upside down, and cut it until it could type with out interfering with the other keys.
gawd
im sooooo fucking tired
x_x
im bout to nap for an hr 45mins
and wake up for flash foward
get a shower
and sleeeeep
but knowing my parents
i wont get woken up
maybe i can move the tv into my room tonight
ugggg fuckkkkk
i need to fold soooooo much laundry
x_x
dnt sleep
stay awake
right foot up, left hand on nose
left foot up, right hand on nose
much better
xD
haha
well just a little
see, math DOES teach me something useful!!!
btw, i still don't have a grad topic
and i still need to tlk to the sound guy at my internship about something
colleges to be exact
because im thinking he may have a better idea than me looking it up
although, he does more live shit than recording
and i want to do recording and mixing
but i learned how to use a sound board
xD
soooo, thats a plus
xD
i am the greatest man that ever lived
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i fell asleep
and forgot to post this
but i feel sooooo loved<3 because people were arguing over me
haha
it was funny
yet weird
cuz random people kept grabbing me
well, not random
but it was funny
idk tho
today was an odd day
not like a bad one
but a different one
and interesting one
idk
its odd to explain...
i share the wallet xD
*sigh of relief*
i <3 candy hole
and do u kno who else i hear!?
yes, simple plan
xD
so i need $175 by june 23
damn my birthday for being AFTER that
and im gonna say fuck warped tour
and goto bamboozle!
and get the VIP package
and be like FUCK YEA!
and actually, i need that money waaaaaay before june 23
because there are only 201 VIP tickets! D=
[i think]
hmmmm, i wonder how much my parents love me...
i know its gonna b a no, even if i say it cld b my b-day present
damn
imma try
im gonna go watch the flash forward re-cap
because i died last night b4 it started
and im gonna listen to the nipple erectors
because my friend was named after some one in that band
and he tld me about it
haha
:)
another little ray of sunshine has made it through my cold heart
it's only a recap of the first 10 episodes
but it's been off air for like 4 or 5 months
so i may need a recap
today was average
got yelled at by all 3 cult lit teachers for sleeping
although i only was once
and i was about to go ape shit on bossert
cuz she did that stupid "good morning sunshine" thing
and i was like i wasnt sleeping..!??!
and shes like then put ur head up
and i was like its up enough that u cld see my eyes were open
bah
i hate that school
i hate the dress code
i hate the rules
i hate most the teachers
i hate that its not a real school
and in its petty attempts of becoming one it never will be able too
but i do in fact enjoy the bus passes, down town aspect, and at least half the people there.
i have a big chunk of homework
x_x
but i i do it ill pass out
and i got a bunch of you tube videos i need to watch
because last week i didnt watch any
and i need to get a shower at 9 or 930
so i can watch flash forward at 10 then pass out at 11
and i have something under my f key
thats making it really fucking hard to press
and i need to keep hitting it multiple times to work
fixed it
and im glad that this key board isnt a shitty one
because there are the good ones [that allow you to pop keys off then back on]
and the shitty ones [once a key comes off, its not going back on]
and i think it all has to do with which way the plastic holder goes on the key
because i took a key off my one good keyboard
and dumb ass ringold broke it and threw it away
so i took a key off the shitty one i had that TNT let me keep it [hence y it is pretty awesome at times, i have so much tech shit because of him :D] and so that the shitty one would go one my good key board, i had to flip the key upside down, and cut it until it could type with out interfering with the other keys.
gawd
im sooooo fucking tired
x_x
im bout to nap for an hr 45mins
and wake up for flash foward
get a shower
and sleeeeep
but knowing my parents
i wont get woken up
maybe i can move the tv into my room tonight
ugggg fuckkkkk
i need to fold soooooo much laundry
x_x
dnt sleep
stay awake
right foot up, left hand on nose
left foot up, right hand on nose
much better
xD
haha
well just a little
see, math DOES teach me something useful!!!
btw, i still don't have a grad topic
and i still need to tlk to the sound guy at my internship about something
colleges to be exact
because im thinking he may have a better idea than me looking it up
although, he does more live shit than recording
and i want to do recording and mixing
but i learned how to use a sound board
xD
soooo, thats a plus
xD
i am the greatest man that ever lived
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i fell asleep
and forgot to post this
but i feel sooooo loved<3 because people were arguing over me
haha
it was funny
yet weird
cuz random people kept grabbing me
well, not random
but it was funny
idk tho
today was an odd day
not like a bad one
but a different one
and interesting one
idk
its odd to explain...
i share the wallet xD
*sigh of relief*
i <3 candy hole
and do u kno who else i hear!?
yes, simple plan
xD
so i need $175 by june 23
damn my birthday for being AFTER that
and im gonna say fuck warped tour
and goto bamboozle!
and get the VIP package
and be like FUCK YEA!
and actually, i need that money waaaaaay before june 23
because there are only 201 VIP tickets! D=
[i think]
hmmmm, i wonder how much my parents love me...
i know its gonna b a no, even if i say it cld b my b-day present
damn
imma try
im gonna go watch the flash forward re-cap
because i died last night b4 it started
and im gonna listen to the nipple erectors
because my friend was named after some one in that band
and he tld me about it
haha
3/15/10
and i swear this may sound so incredably cheesey, but who cares?
new attempt at a song:
this sickness i have
in my brain, and in my head
poisning myself untill i take my finial breath
this life wont let me leave
i will no longer be able to take the lead
and kill this voice that tells me im not insane
i know that im gone
so far out of this earth
please take me away and save me
please dont let me return to this mess
i walk and i run
and ill skip with no song
trying to avoivd everything i have forgotten
i cant stand this pain
i can't take this missery
every day i live is a day closer untill i die
as i walk alone in the woods that i fear
i never expected to meet you there
you saw me alone with cuts scabs and bruises
to bad it was too late and you couln't save me
so as our eyes locked
my heart just stoped
not one beat was left, i have met my defeat
all alone i have left you
with just this memory
now your trying to fight the pain of me
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listening to too many sad brokecyde songs did this too me
im falling behind on most of my homework
and other shit
and i really dnt feel like wasting my time with that waste of space and time
im really planning on just not going because i dont want to
so if my mom decides to not wake me up
ill decide to not go to school
and thats how it will start
bah im sick of her
and i cnt wait to leave this house
and get the fuck away from that bitch
and get as far away as possible from fucking shitty highs rules
gawd, i hate everything
and im so whiny
its annoying
bah
idk ne more...
this sickness i have
in my brain, and in my head
poisning myself untill i take my finial breath
this life wont let me leave
i will no longer be able to take the lead
and kill this voice that tells me im not insane
i know that im gone
so far out of this earth
please take me away and save me
please dont let me return to this mess
i walk and i run
and ill skip with no song
trying to avoivd everything i have forgotten
i cant stand this pain
i can't take this missery
every day i live is a day closer untill i die
as i walk alone in the woods that i fear
i never expected to meet you there
you saw me alone with cuts scabs and bruises
to bad it was too late and you couln't save me
so as our eyes locked
my heart just stoped
not one beat was left, i have met my defeat
all alone i have left you
with just this memory
now your trying to fight the pain of me
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listening to too many sad brokecyde songs did this too me
im falling behind on most of my homework
and other shit
and i really dnt feel like wasting my time with that waste of space and time
im really planning on just not going because i dont want to
so if my mom decides to not wake me up
ill decide to not go to school
and thats how it will start
bah im sick of her
and i cnt wait to leave this house
and get the fuck away from that bitch
and get as far away as possible from fucking shitty highs rules
gawd, i hate everything
and im so whiny
its annoying
bah
idk ne more...
this is what i do when im bored xD
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: will you be my lover?
Stranger: depends.
You: we can have sex
You: ALOT
You: or not alot
Stranger: are u male or female
You: it depends
You: both! haha, jk
You: guess!
Stranger: ....female
You: yesssir!
Stranger: are u a lesbian...or...
You: or what?
Stranger: bi or straight
You: bi :p
Stranger: same
You: sweet!
You: soooo, we are lovers?
Stranger: yes
You: and shall have mad sex?
Stranger: yes
You: ORGIES!
Stranger: YES
You: with guys and girls oh my!
Stranger: OH MY
You: HARDER!
Stranger: HARDER
You: DEEPER!
Stranger: DEEPER
You: MORE PPL FOR OUR ORGY!!!! MORE MORE MORE MORE PENINS MORE PUSSY!!!! MORE MORE MORE
You: penis*
Stranger: MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
You: YES!
Stranger: YESSSS
You: haha, so now that we are done cybering, whats ur name?
Stranger: alexa
Stranger: you
You: jessica
Stranger: thats hot
You: not as hot as ur name
Stranger: ;)
You: ;D
You: sooo, wanna fuck for real?
Stranger: yes please
You: asl?
Stranger: you firstttt
You: nooo :p i asked u!
Stranger: 21
Stranger: u
You: boo, 17 D=
Stranger: its okaaay
You: kay
You: im from PA
You: u?
Stranger: NY
You: hmmm, kinda far
You: but we can make it work!!!
Stranger: yess we can
You: soo, u sld add my face book
You: and we cld tlk more and stuff ;D
Stranger: yeahh whats ur link
You: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000711526993&ref=ts
You: btw, i lied, im a zombie
You: and i cannot love
Your conversational partner has disconnected.
You: will you be my lover?
Stranger: depends.
You: we can have sex
You: ALOT
You: or not alot
Stranger: are u male or female
You: it depends
You: both! haha, jk
You: guess!
Stranger: ....female
You: yesssir!
Stranger: are u a lesbian...or...
You: or what?
Stranger: bi or straight
You: bi :p
Stranger: same
You: sweet!
You: soooo, we are lovers?
Stranger: yes
You: and shall have mad sex?
Stranger: yes
You: ORGIES!
Stranger: YES
You: with guys and girls oh my!
Stranger: OH MY
You: HARDER!
Stranger: HARDER
You: DEEPER!
Stranger: DEEPER
You: MORE PPL FOR OUR ORGY!!!! MORE MORE MORE MORE PENINS MORE PUSSY!!!! MORE MORE MORE
You: penis*
Stranger: MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
You: YES!
Stranger: YESSSS
You: haha, so now that we are done cybering, whats ur name?
Stranger: alexa
Stranger: you
You: jessica
Stranger: thats hot
You: not as hot as ur name
Stranger: ;)
You: ;D
You: sooo, wanna fuck for real?
Stranger: yes please
You: asl?
Stranger: you firstttt
You: nooo :p i asked u!
Stranger: 21
Stranger: u
You: boo, 17 D=
Stranger: its okaaay
You: kay
You: im from PA
You: u?
Stranger: NY
You: hmmm, kinda far
You: but we can make it work!!!
Stranger: yess we can
You: soo, u sld add my face book
You: and we cld tlk more and stuff ;D
Stranger: yeahh whats ur link
You: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000711526993&ref=ts
You: btw, i lied, im a zombie
You: and i cannot love
Your conversational partner has disconnected.
3/13/10
I don't want to live my life inside of this fantasy...
ive been injecting music into my veins like its heroin
uggg, stupid baby shower or some shit tomorrow
im gonna try and get out of it
cuz i need to do a shit load of h/w
and just straight up dnt want to go
i sld ask my parents how it feels to know that they raised a monster
thats all i feel like typing now..
uggg, stupid baby shower or some shit tomorrow
im gonna try and get out of it
cuz i need to do a shit load of h/w
and just straight up dnt want to go
i sld ask my parents how it feels to know that they raised a monster
thats all i feel like typing now..
3/12/10
3/11/10
school thingggggg...and more [dah]
Your Philosophy of Life:
Live free, die young
Why is it your philosophy of life?
It’s kind of like the quote “Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways”. Because I think that you should live life just trying to have fun and not wasting your time sweating things or trying to be the most, well, anything. Just have fun, and go with the flow and make the best of it.
And I also don’t think that you should sit there and contemplate what you should do and try to make the “better” choice, because we can’t live forever, so don’t try to make it to the next day, because life is short, and we never know when we are going to die.
It also means not to care what other people say or think, and to do your own thing and be your own person, because you are. And don’t try to impress other people or be like them, because that’s just stupid, you’re you, not someone else, so don’t waste your time “following in someone else’s footsteps.” And I know that this probably seems cliché, but then again, what isn’t?
If you make a mistake don’t try to figure out how to fix it, because what’s done is done. You had your chance, and although you may have ‘blew’ it, that’s what’s meant to be, because everything happens for a reason. Live in the present, not the past, and don’t bother thinking about the future, because things are bound to change.
Plus, who doesn’t want to be free? And who doesn’t want to be young?
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anyways
for the most part my day was ass
becides my internship
marandas
and not giving a fuck about being an hr or w/e late to school
bah
i had a headache almost all day
and as i go on with drama
i constantly realize how much i hate it
idk, maybe its the people
or maybe its ringold
but whenever hes around im always more miserable
i kno last year i said i wldnt do it this year
but for the most part its funn
idk, i just hate how the practices are
bah
robotics tomorrow
then hanging out with i dnt even kno who ne more
and doing i dnt even kno wat ne more
because my original plan turned into a big thing
soooo, yea
but the after school aspect of the week has been awesome
bescause [excluding sleep] ive only been home for about 10hrs
if even that
sooo, that could explain the no blogs
not home
then once i am i die
bah
idk
i guess im gonna goto sleep
and either wake up super early to get a shower
or get one now
idk
im really tired
and dnt wanna b awake then not able to sleep
so i guess ill get my shit together
then pass out
and my arm/wrist/pinky hurt
uggg
i hate wen random things on u hurt...
or maybe i will get my shower tonight
bah, i really dnt kno..
someone pick for me...
Live free, die young
Why is it your philosophy of life?
It’s kind of like the quote “Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways”. Because I think that you should live life just trying to have fun and not wasting your time sweating things or trying to be the most, well, anything. Just have fun, and go with the flow and make the best of it.
And I also don’t think that you should sit there and contemplate what you should do and try to make the “better” choice, because we can’t live forever, so don’t try to make it to the next day, because life is short, and we never know when we are going to die.
It also means not to care what other people say or think, and to do your own thing and be your own person, because you are. And don’t try to impress other people or be like them, because that’s just stupid, you’re you, not someone else, so don’t waste your time “following in someone else’s footsteps.” And I know that this probably seems cliché, but then again, what isn’t?
If you make a mistake don’t try to figure out how to fix it, because what’s done is done. You had your chance, and although you may have ‘blew’ it, that’s what’s meant to be, because everything happens for a reason. Live in the present, not the past, and don’t bother thinking about the future, because things are bound to change.
Plus, who doesn’t want to be free? And who doesn’t want to be young?
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anyways
for the most part my day was ass
becides my internship
marandas
and not giving a fuck about being an hr or w/e late to school
bah
i had a headache almost all day
and as i go on with drama
i constantly realize how much i hate it
idk, maybe its the people
or maybe its ringold
but whenever hes around im always more miserable
i kno last year i said i wldnt do it this year
but for the most part its funn
idk, i just hate how the practices are
bah
robotics tomorrow
then hanging out with i dnt even kno who ne more
and doing i dnt even kno wat ne more
because my original plan turned into a big thing
soooo, yea
but the after school aspect of the week has been awesome
bescause [excluding sleep] ive only been home for about 10hrs
if even that
sooo, that could explain the no blogs
not home
then once i am i die
bah
idk
i guess im gonna goto sleep
and either wake up super early to get a shower
or get one now
idk
im really tired
and dnt wanna b awake then not able to sleep
so i guess ill get my shit together
then pass out
and my arm/wrist/pinky hurt
uggg
i hate wen random things on u hurt...
or maybe i will get my shower tonight
bah, i really dnt kno..
someone pick for me...
3/9/10
a kiss you cant forget, like a wedding on a rainy day
today was a good day
:D
tomorrow sld b good too :D
any who
music
music
music
sleep soon
h/w
and more music
idk, im in a rather bubbly mood
but tired
so i really dont know what to write about..
OH YEA!!!!
i bought a razor comb
and fucked with my hair
idk how good it looks
cuz my hair is too damn staticy x_x
but it was waaaaaaay easier to get rid of my slip ends with this!!!
i was reading someones blog that i follow
and they were tlking about someone else, blog wise
and idk y, but i think its me
maybe im just being an artard
but if it is fuck off
please and thank you :)
but yea
im way effin tired
and need to do a shit load of shit
x_x
:D
tomorrow sld b good too :D
any who
music
music
music
sleep soon
h/w
and more music
idk, im in a rather bubbly mood
but tired
so i really dont know what to write about..
OH YEA!!!!
i bought a razor comb
and fucked with my hair
idk how good it looks
cuz my hair is too damn staticy x_x
but it was waaaaaaay easier to get rid of my slip ends with this!!!
i was reading someones blog that i follow
and they were tlking about someone else, blog wise
and idk y, but i think its me
maybe im just being an artard
but if it is fuck off
please and thank you :)
but yea
im way effin tired
and need to do a shit load of shit
x_x
3/8/10
something sticking in my eye...
once you trust someone they are dangerous
i have only met one person in which i can tell them every aspect of my life and not fear them and i know they wont fear me
sometimes you need to re-evaluate your life
and its nice to have someone to support you not matter what you go through
its nice to find someone you can never piss off
its nice to find someone that you can never get mad at
if perfection is in this existence, iv'e met the perfect person
someone so pure
someone so untouched by the world
someone that will take the time to listen to what i have to say and not criticize it
some one that will take my hand and run with me
run away from it all
and take the greatest escape
have you ever seen this man?
http://www.thisman.org/
because a lot of people have seen him in their dreams
i think thats sweet
but seeing as how a next to never remember my dreams i cannot say i have
i have seen people in my dreams, before ive seen them in real life
i can go into this big in depth-ish story
that will relate to columbine
all because of a dream i had
about someone
before i met them
and how as we walked past each other it was as if we could reach into eachothers souls
[that was real]
in my dream we just walked past each other
at the same place we did in real life
and who would of guessed that that same person would turn on to bring so much sense into my mind
resembling someone else i saw at my house
ironically the day i was reading and what not about columbine
only to later see that picture of that person a hr later
its weird and freaky
and as i am typing this my door is opening
and now it stopped
its about 4inches open at the bottom
and about a foot open at the top
and as i typed that it opened more
and im not gonna waste my time closing it
just so that it will open again
my door likes to play that game with me
especially at night, and when im home alone
or maybe it just seems like thats wen it happenes
or maybe cuz im in my room more often during those times than randomly through the day
idk
i swear my house is haunted
but not like a "boo!im a ghost fear me mother fucker!" kind of way
but in a "im here, notice me" kind of way
i find it cute
idk y
i find weird things cute
and this is reminding me of that story i bring up alot
bury your head i think
idk, im like madly in love with that story
and its based on someone
like, its about them
but that situation never happened!
idk, its weird
and me and that person have really random, really short ass convos
that are usually about a band we like
and consists of a high five, or me laughing and walking away
and i think i just described 20% of the people i talk to...
haha
ummmm, trying to think
trying to think
im thirsty
arg
damn door did it again
as soon as i put my laptop back on my lap
x_x
w/e
it will stop once i turn my lights off
because it always does
or maybe im just crazy
some times i like to go with that
uggg, im having an internal battle with myself
mainly because i cant just ask someone something
and i cant do that because i want a straight up answer
in which i know i will not receive
sooo, i guess im on my own...
hmmmm
im really tied
and have been feeling sickish =\
bah
i have about 5 mins to kill b4 i decide to goto sleep
soooooo
imma go read a poem someone told me to read...
meh
i really didnt get it
and i dnt think that it really applied to what said person though it would be
but maybe im just not that intelligent
meh, maybe both
so i was about to go to bed and post this
when i got an IM
so ill be on the inter webs for a bit
but this is goodbye
to you my friends
i have only met one person in which i can tell them every aspect of my life and not fear them and i know they wont fear me
sometimes you need to re-evaluate your life
and its nice to have someone to support you not matter what you go through
its nice to find someone you can never piss off
its nice to find someone that you can never get mad at
if perfection is in this existence, iv'e met the perfect person
someone so pure
someone so untouched by the world
someone that will take the time to listen to what i have to say and not criticize it
some one that will take my hand and run with me
run away from it all
and take the greatest escape
have you ever seen this man?
http://www.thisman.org/
because a lot of people have seen him in their dreams
i think thats sweet
but seeing as how a next to never remember my dreams i cannot say i have
i have seen people in my dreams, before ive seen them in real life
i can go into this big in depth-ish story
that will relate to columbine
all because of a dream i had
about someone
before i met them
and how as we walked past each other it was as if we could reach into eachothers souls
[that was real]
in my dream we just walked past each other
at the same place we did in real life
and who would of guessed that that same person would turn on to bring so much sense into my mind
resembling someone else i saw at my house
ironically the day i was reading and what not about columbine
only to later see that picture of that person a hr later
its weird and freaky
and as i am typing this my door is opening
and now it stopped
its about 4inches open at the bottom
and about a foot open at the top
and as i typed that it opened more
and im not gonna waste my time closing it
just so that it will open again
my door likes to play that game with me
especially at night, and when im home alone
or maybe it just seems like thats wen it happenes
or maybe cuz im in my room more often during those times than randomly through the day
idk
i swear my house is haunted
but not like a "boo!im a ghost fear me mother fucker!" kind of way
but in a "im here, notice me" kind of way
i find it cute
idk y
i find weird things cute
and this is reminding me of that story i bring up alot
bury your head i think
idk, im like madly in love with that story
and its based on someone
like, its about them
but that situation never happened!
idk, its weird
and me and that person have really random, really short ass convos
that are usually about a band we like
and consists of a high five, or me laughing and walking away
and i think i just described 20% of the people i talk to...
haha
ummmm, trying to think
trying to think
im thirsty
arg
damn door did it again
as soon as i put my laptop back on my lap
x_x
w/e
it will stop once i turn my lights off
because it always does
or maybe im just crazy
some times i like to go with that
uggg, im having an internal battle with myself
mainly because i cant just ask someone something
and i cant do that because i want a straight up answer
in which i know i will not receive
sooo, i guess im on my own...
hmmmm
im really tied
and have been feeling sickish =\
bah
i have about 5 mins to kill b4 i decide to goto sleep
soooooo
imma go read a poem someone told me to read...
meh
i really didnt get it
and i dnt think that it really applied to what said person though it would be
but maybe im just not that intelligent
meh, maybe both
so i was about to go to bed and post this
when i got an IM
so ill be on the inter webs for a bit
but this is goodbye
to you my friends
3/7/10
why do people want to be famous?
because i can only find songs about how much they hate it
who actually wants to be a role model?
who wants their every move logged?
who wants to fear leaving their house?
who wants to loose their freedom?
sure, usa is called the land of the free
but we all know its not
if it were truley the land of they free we would have anarchy
and i mean
yea
we are better than like mexico or where ever
we can speak up against our government
and we have choices that they dont
but the only way we could truely be "the land of the free" is with anarchy
but hell
with anarchy, we should just be called "that land that once was"
back to the famous thing
i have one goal in life
and for me it doesnt seem to complex
i want to have a wikipedia article
call it a shitty goal
but i want want
that is all i ask of
because if i have one
that means ill be known
for whatever it is
now, there are different famouses
ones like writers, where you are there, people care about u, but want try and fuck your life
actors/actress and musicians, more genre related [in my opinion] but your known, your can do almost w/e and no one cares because its expected, but in some cases, people are there, kiniving and trying to fuck u up
then there are people in government, you can get away with some stuff, but not anything to big, and some people with love/adore you, and other will hate you like all hell
then we have those random mis. people that just do something incredibly stupid/funny and they have there 5 mins of fame and there gone, but still remembered by a few
then, there are the bad, the hitlers and mansons of the world, the ones people tend to remembered the most, the ones that next to no one spends a sec of their time to find the good. or to relaize that they are the smart ones, they are the ones that should be running the goddamn fucking world if you actually want something productive done! the ones that plan, and kinive, and back stab until they reach their goal. the most remembered and most intelligent people are always remembered, but not for anything positive because over three fourths of the fuck headed ass lickers in the goddamn world can see or comprehend common sense
this shit isnt in a book
fuck the history books, they lie
and history is a myth, unless u witnessed it first hand you dont kno
nor should you beleive in it
i can put it into terms that people could understand
lets use rumors
the [semi] intelligent people are the ones that start them, so that they benefit themselves, then the three fourths of the world that listen and believe come into play and do their little part giving that person that started the power they wanted, and now deserve and the [semi] intelligent people do everything in their power to bring down the person that started it.
the reasoning for the [semi] is because either the person that starts it, or the person that brings them down is intelligent or semi intelligent
if the person that started it falls down, they were semi intelligent, and were brought down by and intelligent person
and if the person that starts it doesnt fall they were the intelligent person that defeated the semi intelligent person
and none of that made sense to you i bet
ugg, i with i could meet someone that would completley understand the twisted and demented thoughts in my head
but, im not sure if, in return, would scare me
i mean, it would be so nice to connect with an individual on such a deep level or thought
i mean, i kind of did
but only to notice that we forgot to build a real bond
and after a bit we faded away to nearly nothing more that "hey!" "hi" *hug* "wats up?" "nm, u?" "bored" "that sucks" "yea" "kay, well bye" *hug* "bye"
which i guess i have worse bonds with other people
but maybe its the level of thought
that we have no need to communicate because we know what we r thinking
now i fell like im making myself sound like i think im the fucking lord
which isnt wat im getting at....
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idk, buts it seems like it has been harder for me to smile
well, yea
ill leave it at that
i cant thing about something and smile
but then again i never could
and i dnt understand how people can
nor do i grasp the concept of y the cry while remembering the past
well, yes i do, because their are certain things, like deaths, that can change, yet, depending on your relationship it makes sense
i cry when i think about happy things
because i may never experience them again
the way i see it, bed things are bound to happen, and the good may never be able to outweigh the bad
because i have had bad things happen, that i cannot find all the good things i can think of to wight it out
because its there
bound to float around in my head
untill something shuts it up
the only way i see fit
it to poison it
its the best way besides killing them
forgetting never helps..
idk
i could go on some more rants
or actually talk about something happening in my life
but i may just play some music
or txt ppl
or paint my nails
or not do hw so i can fail
idk
and right now i really dnt care
im way beyond the point in caring and every day, and every assignment i just keep getting farther and farther away from caring...
w/e
its not too late to go back to my old plan...
who actually wants to be a role model?
who wants their every move logged?
who wants to fear leaving their house?
who wants to loose their freedom?
sure, usa is called the land of the free
but we all know its not
if it were truley the land of they free we would have anarchy
and i mean
yea
we are better than like mexico or where ever
we can speak up against our government
and we have choices that they dont
but the only way we could truely be "the land of the free" is with anarchy
but hell
with anarchy, we should just be called "that land that once was"
back to the famous thing
i have one goal in life
and for me it doesnt seem to complex
i want to have a wikipedia article
call it a shitty goal
but i want want
that is all i ask of
because if i have one
that means ill be known
for whatever it is
now, there are different famouses
ones like writers, where you are there, people care about u, but want try and fuck your life
actors/actress and musicians, more genre related [in my opinion] but your known, your can do almost w/e and no one cares because its expected, but in some cases, people are there, kiniving and trying to fuck u up
then there are people in government, you can get away with some stuff, but not anything to big, and some people with love/adore you, and other will hate you like all hell
then we have those random mis. people that just do something incredibly stupid/funny and they have there 5 mins of fame and there gone, but still remembered by a few
then, there are the bad, the hitlers and mansons of the world, the ones people tend to remembered the most, the ones that next to no one spends a sec of their time to find the good. or to relaize that they are the smart ones, they are the ones that should be running the goddamn fucking world if you actually want something productive done! the ones that plan, and kinive, and back stab until they reach their goal. the most remembered and most intelligent people are always remembered, but not for anything positive because over three fourths of the fuck headed ass lickers in the goddamn world can see or comprehend common sense
this shit isnt in a book
fuck the history books, they lie
and history is a myth, unless u witnessed it first hand you dont kno
nor should you beleive in it
i can put it into terms that people could understand
lets use rumors
the [semi] intelligent people are the ones that start them, so that they benefit themselves, then the three fourths of the world that listen and believe come into play and do their little part giving that person that started the power they wanted, and now deserve and the [semi] intelligent people do everything in their power to bring down the person that started it.
the reasoning for the [semi] is because either the person that starts it, or the person that brings them down is intelligent or semi intelligent
if the person that started it falls down, they were semi intelligent, and were brought down by and intelligent person
and if the person that starts it doesnt fall they were the intelligent person that defeated the semi intelligent person
and none of that made sense to you i bet
ugg, i with i could meet someone that would completley understand the twisted and demented thoughts in my head
but, im not sure if, in return, would scare me
i mean, it would be so nice to connect with an individual on such a deep level or thought
i mean, i kind of did
but only to notice that we forgot to build a real bond
and after a bit we faded away to nearly nothing more that "hey!" "hi" *hug* "wats up?" "nm, u?" "bored" "that sucks" "yea" "kay, well bye" *hug* "bye"
which i guess i have worse bonds with other people
but maybe its the level of thought
that we have no need to communicate because we know what we r thinking
now i fell like im making myself sound like i think im the fucking lord
which isnt wat im getting at....
---=---=---=---=---=---=---=---
===-===-===-===-===-===-===-===
idk, buts it seems like it has been harder for me to smile
well, yea
ill leave it at that
i cant thing about something and smile
but then again i never could
and i dnt understand how people can
nor do i grasp the concept of y the cry while remembering the past
well, yes i do, because their are certain things, like deaths, that can change, yet, depending on your relationship it makes sense
i cry when i think about happy things
because i may never experience them again
the way i see it, bed things are bound to happen, and the good may never be able to outweigh the bad
because i have had bad things happen, that i cannot find all the good things i can think of to wight it out
because its there
bound to float around in my head
untill something shuts it up
the only way i see fit
it to poison it
its the best way besides killing them
forgetting never helps..
idk
i could go on some more rants
or actually talk about something happening in my life
but i may just play some music
or txt ppl
or paint my nails
or not do hw so i can fail
idk
and right now i really dnt care
im way beyond the point in caring and every day, and every assignment i just keep getting farther and farther away from caring...
w/e
its not too late to go back to my old plan...
3/6/10
you give me puppies in my heart sad puppies as long as were apart
when ever you type that it sounds really gay
but wen jbigga<3 width="425" height="344">
i made that btw
it sucks xD
but today has been a rather emo day
musicly wise
alot of hawthorne heights, dashboard confessionals, and taking back sunday have been playing
well, taking back sunday isnt all that emo
or r thay?
hmmm, idk
im waiting for my hair to dry
debating what to wear
but i think im gonna wear a scene-ish shirt
and white or black pants
and tease my hair
and then wear my grover hat
xD
or ill just wear an afi shirt
with grey or black pants
and keep my hair normal
and wear my army type hate thing
and probably just my black chucks
and with the other outfit i may wear my old low tops
because the colours wld match better
hmmmm
gawd
i hate having so much on my mind i cant even decide on an outfit
x_x
"even if i say it will be all right, i still hear you say you want to end your life"
oh yea
and alot of three days grace has been playing
meh, ill go see if my laundry is done then do my hair
then come back if its not done
so i guess ill have to decide soon...
i may go the scene rout..
i think i will get more
"haha, shes retarded" looks
so that shall make things more funn xD
i may not tease my hair then
cuz it will b fucked up cuz of the hat
hmmm, i have to choose one!!!
or i can wear my taking back sunday hat
BLAH!!! fucking hats!!
ill just put them all in a pile and pick one
haha
blindfolded
and i blame my mom for my hat addiction
cuz wen we were looking thru my old baby shit
there were like 9352985724897e9071409123 bonnets
haha
soooo, its all her fault!!!!
okay, now i shall go get ready...
alice and wonderland was ah-fucking-mazing
rocky horror picture show was hilarious
but had no plot
haha
tomorrow im hanging out with pplz
sooo
fuck my hw
imma fail
woop de fucking doo...
i guess thats all i really have to say...
ummmm
yea
i guess ill goto sleep in like..and hr..
bye?
but wen jbigga<3 width="425" height="344">
i made that btw
it sucks xD
but today has been a rather emo day
musicly wise
alot of hawthorne heights, dashboard confessionals, and taking back sunday have been playing
well, taking back sunday isnt all that emo
or r thay?
hmmm, idk
im waiting for my hair to dry
debating what to wear
but i think im gonna wear a scene-ish shirt
and white or black pants
and tease my hair
and then wear my grover hat
xD
or ill just wear an afi shirt
with grey or black pants
and keep my hair normal
and wear my army type hate thing
and probably just my black chucks
and with the other outfit i may wear my old low tops
because the colours wld match better
hmmmm
gawd
i hate having so much on my mind i cant even decide on an outfit
x_x
"even if i say it will be all right, i still hear you say you want to end your life"
oh yea
and alot of three days grace has been playing
meh, ill go see if my laundry is done then do my hair
then come back if its not done
so i guess ill have to decide soon...
i may go the scene rout..
i think i will get more
"haha, shes retarded" looks
so that shall make things more funn xD
i may not tease my hair then
cuz it will b fucked up cuz of the hat
hmmm, i have to choose one!!!
or i can wear my taking back sunday hat
BLAH!!! fucking hats!!
ill just put them all in a pile and pick one
haha
blindfolded
and i blame my mom for my hat addiction
cuz wen we were looking thru my old baby shit
there were like 9352985724897e9071409123 bonnets
haha
soooo, its all her fault!!!!
okay, now i shall go get ready...
alice and wonderland was ah-fucking-mazing
rocky horror picture show was hilarious
but had no plot
haha
tomorrow im hanging out with pplz
sooo
fuck my hw
imma fail
woop de fucking doo...
i guess thats all i really have to say...
ummmm
yea
i guess ill goto sleep in like..and hr..
bye?
3/5/10
like a boss!
me and jj were just playing footsies xD
it was funny
then he managed to put hit foot on my knee
and i stole his shoe
and then we were kicking each other
twas funny
you dumb twat
ummm, i was gonna say something
but i forgot
sooooo
yea
ummm
w/e
uggg, replaying an incident in my head
trying to play off what happend was good
even tho i know thet level of suckyness it is
blah
still not 100% sure on wat im doin this weekend
"should i stay of should i go"
uuuuuggggggggg
i was planning on going home during cult lit
but then i was like..meh w/e
its funny how over time things change slowly
then one day what u have become accustom to
dies off
tomorrow im going to see the rocky horror picture show with maranda
and maybe alice in wonderland
xD
and sunday, idk wat im doing yet
uggggg, i have soooo much hw to do!!!!
D=
o wellllz
jkdndsivmcxsdidksip
i want sleep!!!!
so i shall, when i get homeeee
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i forgot to post this yesterday D=
haha
it was funny
then he managed to put hit foot on my knee
and i stole his shoe
and then we were kicking each other
twas funny
you dumb twat
ummm, i was gonna say something
but i forgot
sooooo
yea
ummm
w/e
uggg, replaying an incident in my head
trying to play off what happend was good
even tho i know thet level of suckyness it is
blah
still not 100% sure on wat im doin this weekend
"should i stay of should i go"
uuuuuggggggggg
i was planning on going home during cult lit
but then i was like..meh w/e
its funny how over time things change slowly
then one day what u have become accustom to
dies off
tomorrow im going to see the rocky horror picture show with maranda
and maybe alice in wonderland
xD
and sunday, idk wat im doing yet
uggggg, i have soooo much hw to do!!!!
D=
o wellllz
jkdndsivmcxsdidksip
i want sleep!!!!
so i shall, when i get homeeee
-----------------------------------
-----------------------------------
i forgot to post this yesterday D=
haha
bah
I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You tried to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Want to know who you are
Want to know where to start
I want to know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
Then I looked back at you
You tried to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Want to know who you are
Want to know where to start
I want to know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
3/4/10
3/3/10
this is my post
and this is a 44calbert love letter, straight from my heart
imma make this quick
so i dnt bore the full 3 that i know read this
-school, nothing too interesting happened
-internship:: i got called a "tough bitch" and am not quite sure if its a compliment or insult
-once i got home i passes out, only to wake up like 4 times but i just answered txts and died again
-im listening to alexisonfire, because zach told me about them having a concert in may, and they are awesome xD
-im gonna b at my internship from 9am to 4pm
-i have drama to 7
-i have ass loads of hw to do still x_x
-i get to wear people clothes tomorrow :) so that should be funn! ill be all like "WOOO HOOO!!! PEOPLE CLOTHES AND YOU BITCHES CANT SAY SHIT ABOUT IT!!!!
-i need to sew my purse strap
-this is getting alot longer than expected
soooooooo
is being called a tough bitch an insult of compliment?
do my thing on the side for social vibe, please and thank you
and if you not busy or bored or w/e, check out my other blog thing thing dip dip http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/
imma make this quick
so i dnt bore the full 3 that i know read this
-school, nothing too interesting happened
-internship:: i got called a "tough bitch" and am not quite sure if its a compliment or insult
-once i got home i passes out, only to wake up like 4 times but i just answered txts and died again
-im listening to alexisonfire, because zach told me about them having a concert in may, and they are awesome xD
-im gonna b at my internship from 9am to 4pm
-i have drama to 7
-i have ass loads of hw to do still x_x
-i get to wear people clothes tomorrow :) so that should be funn! ill be all like "WOOO HOOO!!! PEOPLE CLOTHES AND YOU BITCHES CANT SAY SHIT ABOUT IT!!!!
-i need to sew my purse strap
-this is getting alot longer than expected
soooooooo
is being called a tough bitch an insult of compliment?
do my thing on the side for social vibe, please and thank you
and if you not busy or bored or w/e, check out my other blog thing thing dip dip http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/
3/2/10
killing my voice
in teaching myself how to scream
its improving
to the point i can bare listening to it recorded
im killing the voice i never had
some of my screams are really bitching
but thats like 1 out of 354983259073245093274
so that will consume my night
listening to a song
and singing/screaming it
critiquing it
trying it a few more times
and finding a new song
and so on
my inward screams are mainly the bitching ones
but atleast i got them low enough
so they dnt sound like shitty pig squeals
haha
but i had fun
and need to listen to my last tries
its like 20mins long
so im gonna clear all my mucus out of my throat
and i hope that i dnt wake up with a sore ass throat
haha
so, i guess thats all
for now...
brb
not like ud b able to tell wen and if i left and came back
haha
so yea
i decided thats all i really feel like tlking about
even though a decent amount of other stuff happened
"live
free
die
young"
the funny thing is, you wont ever understand that...
its improving
to the point i can bare listening to it recorded
im killing the voice i never had
some of my screams are really bitching
but thats like 1 out of 354983259073245093274
so that will consume my night
listening to a song
and singing/screaming it
critiquing it
trying it a few more times
and finding a new song
and so on
my inward screams are mainly the bitching ones
but atleast i got them low enough
so they dnt sound like shitty pig squeals
haha
but i had fun
and need to listen to my last tries
its like 20mins long
so im gonna clear all my mucus out of my throat
and i hope that i dnt wake up with a sore ass throat
haha
so, i guess thats all
for now...
brb
not like ud b able to tell wen and if i left and came back
haha
so yea
i decided thats all i really feel like tlking about
even though a decent amount of other stuff happened
"live
free
die
young"
the funny thing is, you wont ever understand that...
blah, more lyrics..
I eat innocent meat
The housewife I will beat
The prolife I will kill
What you won't do I will
I bash myself to sleep
What you sow I will reap
I scar myself you see
I wish I wasn't me
I am the little stick
You stir me into shit
I hate therefore I am
Goddamn your righteous hand
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
I throw a little fit
I slit my teenage wrist
Most I can learn
Is records that you burn
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
I am the VHS
Record me with your fist
Want me to save the world
I'm just a little girl
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
The housewife I will beat
The prolife I will kill
What you won't do I will
I bash myself to sleep
What you sow I will reap
I scar myself you see
I wish I wasn't me
I am the little stick
You stir me into shit
I hate therefore I am
Goddamn your righteous hand
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
God damn (Hoo, Lord)
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
I throw a little fit
I slit my teenage wrist
Most I can learn
Is records that you burn
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
I am the VHS
Record me with your fist
Want me to save the world
I'm just a little girl
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Pseudo-morals work real well
On the talk shows for the weak
Selective judgement, good-guy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
Get your gun
3/1/10
uggg, this song again...
on the plus i just got done making something for someone
it took me at least 4 days
i hope they like it
:)
if not, ill shove it dwn his throat!
haha, nah
im not that mean...
broken hearts like promises
for all the people that didnt believe me that there is a song called piss soaked wrench
here is the video
btw, i didnt wanna post this on my facebook because i believe that this site is a pron site
once you u, ull probably know y i say that...
but hell, out for blood is worth it..
just putting that out there...
here is their myspace
http://www.myspace.com/outforblooduk
they are considered metal
but i wld call them grindcore
but they really arnt grindcore
and there not screamo
idk what to call them
but they are good
and im gonna get shit for liking them
because, well, i kno ass hole people
ie my brokencyde post on facebook
2 of those 3 people can suck my imaginary dick untill they choke on it and die
just saying..
if found another link
Piss Soaked Wrench
Out For Blood | MySpace Music Videos
anywho
done with out for blood
on to...
"so holli, how was your day?"
fuck you bitch!
actually, it was pretty good
better than most
yet really average
mr. o'connor is now my fav teacher
haha
him: hows it going
me: horriable
him: are you having trouble finding the answers
me: no, i just have an EXTREMELY important question
him: okay
me: how old r u?
him: 26 [or was it 25..idr]
me: cool, so i think for youe next birthday im gonna get u a barbie doll [cuz i always play him ther german barbie grl song, cuz he hates it/ thinks its weird]
him: oh..
me: so whens ur birthday?
him: im not telling
me: WHY?!!?
him: cuz i might actually get a barbie
me: FINE!!! JUST WAIT TILL NEXT CHRISTMAS THEN!!!!
haha
then me and maranda were tlking about bombs, from across the room, as lufty walks between us
haha
i awkwardly smiled and said hi
so its like it never happened!
:)
and at my internship i got free condoms
because i was labeling and organizing shit
and there was randomly a box there
and i asked my internship sound dude where i sld put them
and he told me to take them
sooo, yea
thats random
but funny
AND
maranda thinks im always on everyones dick
because she is a cunted cunt
AND
ben thinks that sara palin is worse than hilliary clinton
and stfu alex, cuz i already kno wat ur gonna say!!!!!!
and if anyone brings this up, i will stab them in the eye with my pocket knife
:D
i seriously need new friends
in a good way
yet bad way
haha
damn pot head friends!
yea, u know who you are!!
and now someone else joined in my status update convo
i still only hate the 2
and i curled my hair
it looked alright
but in the pic it looked like straight up shit
i may have my mom do it tomorrow for me
which means ill have to get up WAY early
or shell have to get ready earlier
sooo, idk yet
ill have to ask her...
uggg, i've been trying to stop thinking too deeply and much a bout stuff
its not working
but i refuse to go on my rants about it
about the people
memories
things done and said that cant be taken back and undone and unseen
just, little things
that have a huge impact on ones life for no reason
it seemes like i cant stay happy for long anymore
and i always find myself in this emotionless mood around this time
each and every day
well, that im alone that is
and at a point it seems as if there is almost no way i can make my self NOT sound emo
and that the best think i can do is keep talking and keep it all in check
uggggg
i need to go get lunch money from my mom...
bah
im shivering
so i put on a blanket
then i was too hot
so i turned of the fan
and got back under my blanket
then i was too cold
so i took off my blanket
and got distracted
and now im fine
you are silver and cold...
oddly
im really in the mood to hold someones hand
its weid
idk how u can b in the mood to do that
but i am...
im wearing a hoddie
basket ball shorts
my red hi tops
and a hat
i dnt think i could feel like more of a retard
blue, gret, red, pink, orange, brown, white, tan, navy. green
oh yea, i match
i keep having the feeling that im about to barf
but its not happening
ugggggg
you changed my heart
you made a spade
dkjfhsdjkfhskdfhskf
i freaked today
cuz i got my AP
and was skimming it
and say a famous dude
ans was like, hes hot
wait
is that a grl
EWWW WORSE!!! ITS CRAIG MABBIT
then i screamed and started flipping at
and yelled at my cat
then called someone and tld them
and she tld me im goning to the deepest pit of hell
where they only play bless the fall demos
and shitty brittney spears
so im gonna pray to ronnie
so that i dnt have to go there!!!
so that was my little heart attack of the day...
grrrr, my moms not gonna curl my hair tomorrow
=\
and i just stuffed a handfull of m&ms in my mouth
now my tooth hurts
but not the one with the cavity
that one NEVER FUCKING hurts
uggg, i hate dentists
because they are retarded
and are like
"well thats not the side the cavity is on
its the same exact tooth on the other side
we dnt kno y the good ones hurting"
hmmm, maybe its cur YOUR FUCKING RETARDS!!
fdlkdhfgflfsdfsdifguhsikghskgjlsd
gsdfkjfghasklghsdk;fg'fsudh'slkylh
fslgds
"g
rg'
eargkj;
gherhuj]er;
arg! u just wanna rip all the fucking keys off my keyboard!
fkhdfjkdshfkjhfsdk
ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
arrrrr
RARRRRRRR!!!!!
[those were aggravated screams]
im gonna go now
because i just remember that there r people that read these waste of times...
here is the video
btw, i didnt wanna post this on my facebook because i believe that this site is a pron site
once you u, ull probably know y i say that...
but hell, out for blood is worth it..
just putting that out there...
here is their myspace
http://www.myspace.com/outforblooduk
they are considered metal
but i wld call them grindcore
but they really arnt grindcore
and there not screamo
idk what to call them
but they are good
and im gonna get shit for liking them
because, well, i kno ass hole people
ie my brokencyde post on facebook
2 of those 3 people can suck my imaginary dick untill they choke on it and die
just saying..
if found another link
Piss Soaked Wrench
Out For Blood | MySpace Music Videos
anywho
done with out for blood
on to...
"so holli, how was your day?"
fuck you bitch!
actually, it was pretty good
better than most
yet really average
mr. o'connor is now my fav teacher
haha
him: hows it going
me: horriable
him: are you having trouble finding the answers
me: no, i just have an EXTREMELY important question
him: okay
me: how old r u?
him: 26 [or was it 25..idr]
me: cool, so i think for youe next birthday im gonna get u a barbie doll [cuz i always play him ther german barbie grl song, cuz he hates it/ thinks its weird]
him: oh..
me: so whens ur birthday?
him: im not telling
me: WHY?!!?
him: cuz i might actually get a barbie
me: FINE!!! JUST WAIT TILL NEXT CHRISTMAS THEN!!!!
haha
then me and maranda were tlking about bombs, from across the room, as lufty walks between us
haha
i awkwardly smiled and said hi
so its like it never happened!
:)
and at my internship i got free condoms
because i was labeling and organizing shit
and there was randomly a box there
and i asked my internship sound dude where i sld put them
and he told me to take them
sooo, yea
thats random
but funny
AND
maranda thinks im always on everyones dick
because she is a cunted cunt
AND
ben thinks that sara palin is worse than hilliary clinton
and stfu alex, cuz i already kno wat ur gonna say!!!!!!
and if anyone brings this up, i will stab them in the eye with my pocket knife
:D
i seriously need new friends
in a good way
yet bad way
haha
damn pot head friends!
yea, u know who you are!!
and now someone else joined in my status update convo
i still only hate the 2
and i curled my hair
it looked alright
but in the pic it looked like straight up shit
i may have my mom do it tomorrow for me
which means ill have to get up WAY early
or shell have to get ready earlier
sooo, idk yet
ill have to ask her...
uggg, i've been trying to stop thinking too deeply and much a bout stuff
its not working
but i refuse to go on my rants about it
about the people
memories
things done and said that cant be taken back and undone and unseen
just, little things
that have a huge impact on ones life for no reason
it seemes like i cant stay happy for long anymore
and i always find myself in this emotionless mood around this time
each and every day
well, that im alone that is
and at a point it seems as if there is almost no way i can make my self NOT sound emo
and that the best think i can do is keep talking and keep it all in check
uggggg
i need to go get lunch money from my mom...
bah
im shivering
so i put on a blanket
then i was too hot
so i turned of the fan
and got back under my blanket
then i was too cold
so i took off my blanket
and got distracted
and now im fine
you are silver and cold...
oddly
im really in the mood to hold someones hand
its weid
idk how u can b in the mood to do that
but i am...
im wearing a hoddie
basket ball shorts
my red hi tops
and a hat
i dnt think i could feel like more of a retard
blue, gret, red, pink, orange, brown, white, tan, navy. green
oh yea, i match
i keep having the feeling that im about to barf
but its not happening
ugggggg
you changed my heart
you made a spade
dkjfhsdjkfhskdfhskf
i freaked today
cuz i got my AP
and was skimming it
and say a famous dude
ans was like, hes hot
wait
is that a grl
EWWW WORSE!!! ITS CRAIG MABBIT
then i screamed and started flipping at
and yelled at my cat
then called someone and tld them
and she tld me im goning to the deepest pit of hell
where they only play bless the fall demos
and shitty brittney spears
so im gonna pray to ronnie
so that i dnt have to go there!!!
so that was my little heart attack of the day...
grrrr, my moms not gonna curl my hair tomorrow
=\
and i just stuffed a handfull of m&ms in my mouth
now my tooth hurts
but not the one with the cavity
that one NEVER FUCKING hurts
uggg, i hate dentists
because they are retarded
and are like
"well thats not the side the cavity is on
its the same exact tooth on the other side
we dnt kno y the good ones hurting"
hmmm, maybe its cur YOUR FUCKING RETARDS!!
fdlkdhfgflfsdfsdifguhsikghskgjlsd
gsdfkjfghasklghsdk;fg'fsudh'slkylh
fslgds
"g
rg'
eargkj;
gherhuj]er;
arg! u just wanna rip all the fucking keys off my keyboard!
fkhdfjkdshfkjhfsdk
ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
arrrrr
RARRRRRRR!!!!!
[those were aggravated screams]
im gonna go now
because i just remember that there r people that read these waste of times...
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