killing my voice

in teaching myself how to scream
its improving
to the point i can bare listening to it recorded

im killing the voice i never had
some of my screams are really bitching
but thats like 1 out of 354983259073245093274

so that will consume my night
listening to a song
and singing/screaming it
critiquing it
trying it a few more times
and finding a new song
and so on

my inward screams are mainly the bitching ones
but atleast i got them low enough
so they dnt sound like shitty pig squeals
haha

but i had fun
and need to listen to my last tries
its like 20mins long
so im gonna clear all my mucus out of my throat
and i hope that i dnt wake up with a sore ass throat
haha

so, i guess thats all
for now...
brb
not like ud b able to tell wen and if i left and came back
haha

so yea
i decided thats all i really feel like tlking about
even though a decent amount of other stuff happened

"live
free
die
young"
the funny thing is, you wont ever understand that...