i wanna do something

thats not in my house

i hate when my cuzings get a bf/gf
because i usually hate them wen i meet them
except for this time

i like my cuzigs gf
she was nice
:)
and didnt appear to be a skankey bitch
like one of my other cuzins

hmmm, i wonder if they are still together
w/e i probably wont see him till god knows wen

i dnt even think i want to have my grad party
because
idk
i just dnt


and im listening to finch
and i havent listened to them since sas
it was wen i was like first inlove with simple plan
i went to the library
and looked up bands like simple plan
made a power point
and checked out their cds and listened to them
offspring was another one of the bands
and i guess i wont remember the others untill i hear of them again

btw, i saved my powerpoint of a floppy disk
haha


today i went to my baby cuzins bday
it wasnt as bad as i thouhgt it was
i saw my uncle that lives in canada
i havent seen him since my aunt funnereal
actually, idr if he was there
but i think my mom said he asked if he cld b a pole bearer
idk, other than that
i havent seen him in like 10 years
i just smiled and walked past him not thinking he remembered me
then like 2 mins later he was like
"are u hollianne?"
he accent is aborable
its so faint, but its there :)

idk y
but today is a day for remembering things of the past
and how they use to b
and wat not
its just...awkward

i kinda wish i had an old life and old friends worth remembering
even tho i do
but not in the same sense
like the kind that i have to remember
because i moved far away from it all
instead of it slowly moving away from me

meh

iv always wanted to like, magicially re-find some of these ppl i use to be really good friends with
just like b working at the same place
and then start tlking

idk y i never thought to look them up on facebook
i think ill do that

bah
trust me, ill b back