gawd, im so emotionally stressed

and i't driving me fucking crazy!
and i really can't stand it
goddamn it
blah
loss of sleep
more argumentative
easily pissed/frustrated
and of course
my extremely negative attitude
mixed with the random thoughts i think
uggg
i hate life
not even mine
just life in general
i really don't see a point to it
well i guess i do, but it's really illogical
that reminds me of
god, the fucking admin thinks in the most illogical ways ever
i mean i didn't even think it was possiable to be so fucking retarded
speaking of the admin..
they are really been pissing me off more than normal
except inserra
he is now my favorite teacher
along with luft
uggg,
speaking of school
my grades are epicly slipping, but i really don't care
sooo, i guess that was pointless to say
but i did anyways

i really am in the mood for a slushy or slurpee
i really don't know why
but i like them
^_^
it will make me remember winter
i like the winter
and the fall
and i hate the summer
and especially the spring
ugg, hate it hate it hate it
i hate the colors and the smells
i hate how alive everything it
and how happy everyone is
it makes me sick
especially the heat, that physically make me sick
im gonna save my money and buy some fans
and stick them all around my room on high all the time
so for once it can be a little refuge
in stead of suck a hell hole

god, no one is gonna read this
so i should just quit while im ahead i guess

wait! one more thing
in case a certain person reads this...
even though i highly doubt he will.

im always here for you
and im sorry that im not right now
i don't want to ask whats wrong because i know i won't be able to help
and some how make it about me
i hate that i do that, and i know that i do a lot
and i know that you have gone through total hell
especially during the last month
and im sorry
but i just wish i could help you with what ever is wrong
because i like helping you, and it makes me smile
and please don't change, because i like you just how you are now