i told you, crazy mood swings

irony much? or is it destiny? in my opinion its fml-ity, but its all good when you flying above the trees with an imagination like a llama....distracting thoughts so i don't die? or random moments? am i forgetting something? your contradictions are the consequences i have to pay? something here is wrong, untill the immaturity peaks! so shove this in your brain and tell me if you explode, ill pick up the remains and dispose of the properly

not exactly sure what that was about
i just kinda wrote what i was thinking,
whitout telling people what i am thinking

slightly like a demented image of jesus if you think about it
but nobody probably understands what i mean by that
or do they, well, you?

iv always wondered if people could understand the mess of thoughts fluttering in my head
i usually dont write them as i call them
but i felt like it
so you can learn alittle bit about me
or so it would seem

my mind if full of random thoughts
contradictions contradicting contradictions
pointless compearisons to the meek of mind
or the stupid
or smart
depends on the out look of one i assume

my minds full of figuring out your lies
deciphering the truth out of fiction books
admiring the tragedy of water
the faces of the unborn
and hearts of the unloved
the feelings of the ones pushed aside
the male chicks in the blenders
the lives thrown away
and the faint at heart

and people reading this probably think im as bad as some rappers
trying to be poetic
but not achieving it the smallest bit

i write it as i think it
sometimes

but those feelings and emotions are all just faint figments of strangled emotions that have been kept bottled up all these years
and now they are free
i have power i've never had before
i feel so in control
its amazing
fantastic
its like im on top of the world
possessing these near godly powers making people bow down to me
but now, i must watch thinking that
or should i say thinking that
because if you look at the other people that have said that, i should be locked up in jail for a long time, because why glorify ones actions that the main stream morons find wrong?
arnt they just stereotyping?
but its right when they do it
and not matter what others do, they are always wrong.

and i fell so horrible for any one that even attempts to read this
i dont what you to hurt yourself by thinking im crazy
and processing all of this in your mind

and i sure as hell dont want any of you adapting to my thought process, because if you do ill be FORCED to talk to you.
isolated
in quarantine
together
with out thoughts just escaping our minds
together
all the things i should fear at once?
or just a horrible combination
well, that will remained unsolved my friend
till the end of eternity

there won't be a second, just a third

now that i think about it, i fell bad for myself because ill read over this one day
this entry could kill me
too many thoughts
emotions
memories
just too much
overload
explode
KABOOOOOM!
bye bye holli
<3