to be honest my life has been an abortion, or at least it should have been

thats from the heroin diaries btw

but sometimes i feel like that

any who

today:::
i went to a funereal
i felt guilty
because last year, i was pissed at this guy
i dnt kno him
but we had to go ti his suprise bday party on my 16th bday
so i was being pissy
but who wldnt b?
i just remember saying
"we r gonna yell suprise and hes gonna have a heart attack and die!!!!"
yea..

then i went to my grandmas house
my favorite cusin was there :)
and his brothers like 2 year old son
i wanted to cry
and i wanted to see my other cusin
i havent seen eiter of them for like 5 or 6 years
if not more
and hes going into the military
and im not gonna b able to see him for god knows who long
i think hes there for 5 years
we barley talked tho
we had a nice chat about music
and my school and wat im doing after and what not
thats about it
and i kept thinking of all the fun we had wen we were younger
and that made me sad
;\
it was hard not to cry
and wen i hugged him i didnt want to let go
lolz
hes just that amazing of a person :)

now im home
school tomorrow


oh yea
for a second i though that Stephen Jerzak was the lead singer of Owl City
gawd, i use to love Stephen Jerzak
and tlk to him in comments :D
i wld have felt sooo bad if he was
but hes not
so it doesnt matter
and his shit is still good :)



ps coll, my myspcae stalker is NOT cute x_x