I feel eyelashes on my cheek, and they lacerate my flesh

so tired
but have to urge to sleep

if i dont sleep now
ill be up till 2
and barely get any sleep
and completely die at school

my plan is to get a shower soon
so that i can fall asleep

ill b relaxed and not have to worry bout getting up early in the am
or having to get one then not being tired

maybe this will generally help me sleep earlier

im sooooo glad my mom said she didnt wanna go to gs
i hate going
blah

drama tomorrow till 7
x_x
oh joy

im gonna bring my charger
for my laptop
incase i get bored

even tho the group my student director has is pretty awesome
and i <3 my director
haha, taravella is awesome :)
unlike last time
the people were funn, for the most part
but my director was a fucking dick
and i still want him to die a horrible painful death
because he deserves it
ass hole
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i swear that there are some people out there that just try to sabotage u

they'll purposely give u bad advice
or theyll convince u to do something different than them just so that they can be better off, and thell make it seem like its the smart thing to do, the right thing, and u wont end up like them, but once you turn down that road your fucked, and all you have are the memories that you had with that person that fucked u for their own benefit, so fuck them, and fuck the benefit of the doubt, because they are wrong, just doubt and know that you will never benefit from that shit called words comming out of their mouth

look back and realize, that every one around you has made you who you are today.
the liars, the friends, the haters, the hated, the cheaters, the users, the abusers, the nice, the loving
they have shaped your whole life
and made you you

you cant change it
or take it back
its set in stone
just like everything else

so go ahead, start a riot in order to change peoples opinions
because cuz there is nothing is this hell-forsaken place that shall let you over come the odds that stand up so high above you
higher than you can see, higher than you could ever imagine

and you think you imagination is big
but its not
and some one somewhere can and will take that away too!

some one can and will take EVERYTHING about you untill you are NOTHING more than a figment of ones memory

they will strip you down till all that remains and a drop of blood, and a single tear

weather that tear is of joy; for you no longer have to reside here
or sorrow; because you enemy has devoured you
its the end
and there is no turning back
no matter how hard you try