uggg, i know what i want to say

but i'm going to do my best to keep it in
i realized that i can keep spilling my guts on here
because i still and will forever have the fear of letting anyone get to know me too much
and loosing people once i think they are at that danger level

thats all i really can say, because if i say more id be saying to much

i even have the fear of mentioning my little baggie
but i shall
i slept with the contents in my hand
and i probably will again tonight
its nice


so ill stop it there

idk, i feel like being closed off to the world and people at the moment
its just one of those things

just like those days u wake up and are like "oh shit, something bad is gonna happen"
so you dnt turn ur music up too high
u watch where you step
constantly check ur surroundings
and make sure nothing happens
but in return it does
well, at least for me

idk, its odd i guess
and i guess ill stop here, so i dnt fuck my plan

because i've already fucked over myself enough..

shit, i think that was too much..