i hate how commercialized christmas is. its a waste of time, effort, and money that we have all been brainwashed in to doing each year...
we decorate
and shop
we wrap
we become greedy and shelfish
i hate christmas
and how it has become something it shouldnt be
first off, why the fuck are we the one's getting gifts? i mean, arnt we celebrating jesus being born? shouldnt we b straight up like going to church and praying and doing stuff to show we are greatfull for his birth?
christmas has become and american thing, not a relgious thing
and where the hell did santa come from? okay, so some fat guy in a red suite flys around the whole friggin wrold on some magic deer sliding down chimneys, eating cookies, and drinking milk? how wld he even have the time and money and wat not
and yes, glitter and oatmeal is raindeer food, i bet they get sooooo much energy from that
sorry, i just always tend to get in this mood during christmas
i mean, idk
p.s
i hate unwraping gifts because it makes me feel awkward
thats y i enjoy my birthday
getting a few cards in the mail
and just slicing them open and collecting money
idk
maybe this thing called christmas cheer just hasnt got to me yet
maybe it will come back
like wen i was little
and will come back around
wen im older
maybe not
bah
this is my monthly rant x_x
12/25/10
so i tld this
really fucking sexy guy on myyearbook that he was really fucking hott
like
hes fucking sexy as....STEWIE GRIFFINS SEXY PARTIES
even tho, hes better
any who
now that im done being a creep
merry christmas :D
like
hes fucking sexy as....STEWIE GRIFFINS SEXY PARTIES
even tho, hes better
any who
now that im done being a creep
merry christmas :D
12/12/10
12/10/10
post secret
is next to guaranteed to have at least one secret that will make me tear up
but i have a tendency to cry alot
i really need to work on things
.......more than that though
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in other words
i am really digging the sound and feeling from typing
its just the way the light is shining on them
or the rappid heating and cooling of my fingers over the day
or if my ears are messed up
but im loving the way my fingers are striking the keys today
is that weird?
or normal?
or me?
or something i've said before?
because i know i was loving the way my pencil was writeing one day
and i just loved how that graphite looks on that lined paper
i think these are the best 'highs' in life :)
p.s.
today i realized that i have no clue why people robo trip
that shit is nasty
and i dont want to drink it to make me stop hacking and w.e, or to sleep
let alone to get high
GO BUT SOME FUCKING WEED BITCH!!!!
or some other mics. drug that would get you high
hell, acid would probably taste better
and personally, i wouldn't really want to ingest something called acid
you know, like battery acid
if burns if u touch it D:
or stomach acid, which still taste better than robotussin [or pepto bismol x_x]
but the acid in fruit is different
but still burns
but i have a tendency to cry alot
i really need to work on things
.......more than that though
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in other words
i am really digging the sound and feeling from typing
its just the way the light is shining on them
or the rappid heating and cooling of my fingers over the day
or if my ears are messed up
but im loving the way my fingers are striking the keys today
is that weird?
or normal?
or me?
or something i've said before?
because i know i was loving the way my pencil was writeing one day
and i just loved how that graphite looks on that lined paper
i think these are the best 'highs' in life :)
p.s.
today i realized that i have no clue why people robo trip
that shit is nasty
and i dont want to drink it to make me stop hacking and w.e, or to sleep
let alone to get high
GO BUT SOME FUCKING WEED BITCH!!!!
or some other mics. drug that would get you high
hell, acid would probably taste better
and personally, i wouldn't really want to ingest something called acid
you know, like battery acid
if burns if u touch it D:
or stomach acid, which still taste better than robotussin [or pepto bismol x_x]
but the acid in fruit is different
but still burns
12/7/10
tomorrow
well today
is my first official day of break
ill tell u how it goes
unless i forget
which i probably will
sick. bed.
is my first official day of break
ill tell u how it goes
unless i forget
which i probably will
sick. bed.
12/1/10
finials ptII
i got kicked out
because a teacher was helping the kid next to me on the test
she said "some kids had this in their notes"
and i said "well not all teachers teach consistently, which u wldnt notice because ur not a teacher that teachers a class"
which is true
even wen she did teach a class she did a piss poor job
i mean i even corrected her
ME! correcting a teacher
in a class i ended up failing
ps
she cant even grasp the simple concept that pediatricians ALWAYS have the right away
dumb fuck
my 5 year old cuzin probably knows that
ne who
i cnt wait to get the fuck outta here
because a teacher was helping the kid next to me on the test
she said "some kids had this in their notes"
and i said "well not all teachers teach consistently, which u wldnt notice because ur not a teacher that teachers a class"
which is true
even wen she did teach a class she did a piss poor job
i mean i even corrected her
ME! correcting a teacher
in a class i ended up failing
ps
she cant even grasp the simple concept that pediatricians ALWAYS have the right away
dumb fuck
my 5 year old cuzin probably knows that
ne who
i cnt wait to get the fuck outta here
11/24/10
11/23/10
11/22/10
damn laptop
does it really need to talk a bajillion years to open fire fox, just so you can freeze, in order for me to check facebook and myyearbook?
obviously yes
obviously yes
11/21/10
work schedual, for my refference, althought i wont check it
next week
monday: 5
tueday: off
wed: 5
thrusday: off
friday: 4:30
saturdy: off and 5
sunday: 11 and 330
week after
monday: 5
tueday: off
wed: 5
thrusday: 5
friday: 5
saturdy: off and 5
sunday: o/c and 330
or atleast i think thats right...
monday: 5
tueday: off
wed: 5
thrusday: off
friday: 4:30
saturdy: off and 5
sunday: 11 and 330
week after
monday: 5
tueday: off
wed: 5
thrusday: 5
friday: 5
saturdy: off and 5
sunday: o/c and 330
or atleast i think thats right...
11/19/10
COMAP
today is the second day
we bought a giant rice crispy
and are drinking tea
and maranda is a whore :)
we bought a giant rice crispy
and are drinking tea
and maranda is a whore :)
11/17/10
i managed to involve
columbine and escape the fate into my power point for grad project
jeeeeeyaaaaa! xD
but i got a picture of max green all drunk and drinking
and a picture of luvoz
witch is the anti depressant that dylan i belive was taking
and i got the pic from the columbine rpg :)
jeeeeeyaaaaa! xD
but i got a picture of max green all drunk and drinking
and a picture of luvoz
witch is the anti depressant that dylan i belive was taking
and i got the pic from the columbine rpg :)
11/16/10
11/15/10
locked away somewhere in my computer i found the first few paragraphs of a story i was attempting to write.
Standing on the edge of a ten foot building; do I jump, or get back down. I stand there contemplating my options and looking at my outcomes. To jump, that would be nice, just getting away from everything. Plus, the way I see it, I already made a scene, and I’m already here, so what’s the point of going back? Or I could step off this ledge and just go home and carve a few words into my body and call it a night. It’s a normal routine for me. I must have the alphabet scared throughout my skin at least eight times. Man it’s freezing and I think it’s starting to rain; I would love a cup of tea right about now. So I decided to step down and head down stairs while trying to hide my face so that no one would recognize the idiot that drawn a relatively decent crowd to form around the bottom of a parking garage. I took off my checked sweater with blood splatter and shoved it in my bag hoping that no one would notice me, then I just slip out the door and went to the nearest 7 11 in hunt of tea. All they had was overly sweetened cappuccinos and some strong, steal ass coffee. I figured that the coffee would calm me down more, so I grabbed a cup of decaffeinated and added a shit load of flavors so that it wouldn’t taste so nasty, it didn’t help and I felt obligated to buy it anyways just to throw it out as I walked out of the door.
The rain was pouring now. And it was cold as ever. I decided it would be okay to put my sweater back on, it felt so nice. The dry, fuzzy fabric against my cold wet skin was like a match made in heaven. It’s so cold that the tears streaming down my face feel like little ice cubed rolling off my cheek. I try to keep my head down so that people don’t see me, and don’t try to ask any questions, but it’s hard to do that when you need to keep looking up to see if your bus is at the stop yet.
It feels like I’ve been standing here for hours, but in reality it’s only been about five or ten minutes. The bus is sp warm and dry, not to mention there’s only me and two other people on the bus. The one man looks about eighty. His kind of short and skinny, and his skin is drooping in the most awkward places. And he’s carrying about five bags that I’m assuming are from a grocery store. The other person is just plain weird. She looks decently tall, maybe a few inches taller than me. But I can’t see anything else, she looks really big, but I’m assuming it’s just her puffy marshmallow like jackets she’s wearing. She’s wearing over sized glasses, and a really odd had that looks like it should be on a ninety year old woman in the middle of summer so that the sun doesn’t irritate their sensitive skin.
I walk in my door, and the stench hits me. It smells like a combination of stale cigarettes, weed, and foot odor. I hate this place, a shitty three roomed apartment in a shitty neighborhood, in a shitty town, in a shitty ass world. But hell, it’s all I really need, I mean, me and my friends practically only come here to get fucked up. Speaking of which, my buddy Kyle is supposed to bring some shit over. So tonight should be fun. I’ve got a few hours to do something because it’s only 5:30. But instead of cleaning I light up a bowl and pass out on my couch that is originally this blueish red color but now turned black from ashes and burn marks.
I wake up to an Escape the Fate song on my phone, its Kyle asking me to buzz him in to the apartment complex. Why can’t they make these buttons like those clapper lights, it would make life so much more convenient. So I pry myself off the couch, press the button, unlock my door then go into the kitchen and make some lemonade. I look at the clock and see that it’s only 8:30, I thought he wouldn’t come over until later than this.
“Why are you here so damn early?” I ask.
“Oh, sorry, I didn’t realize there was a set time I was allowed to be here”
“There’s not, I just thought you wouldn’t have come until like 10 or 11”
“I can leave and then come back then if you are busy”
“I’ m not”
“Okay”
There was an awkward pause as he set god knows what on the counter. He has two bags from Wine and Spirits and a packed book bag, I can only use my imagination to figure out what’s in there.
“I heard about what happened today” he said.
“What about it?” I snapped back
“You know damn well what I’m talking about!”
“But I really don’t”
“The roof”
“What about it?”
“You’re an idiot for that, you could have died”
“Yea, that was the point dumbass”
He just looked at me knowing that I was pissed.
“I thought you got rid of your blades” he questioned.
“I did”
“So that’s why they are on you coffee table?”
“I got new ones”
“Why?”
I ignored him as I looked thought the bags he brought, pretending not to listen to his lecture about how I don’t treat myself right and how I can do better for myself. “You do realize that you’re not helping the situation right?” I interrupted. He looked confused as shit, and kind of tilted his head. He was so adorable when he did that, and when he didn’t. He was just always adorable. “How are you going to tell me that I can doing so much better, but always come here to get fucked up? Your such a damn hypocrite sometimes.” He just turns the other way and pulls out some mix CD’s he made, or stole. He was babbling off some of the songs on them asking me which one I wanted to play and I just told him to surprise me because by the middle of the CD everything will sound the same. I sat down next to him an handed him a glass of lemonade and raspberry absolute vodka.
i added an assload more
because before i only had the first paragraph or two
but yea
idk
it's called im gonna finish this if it kills me
but i think i just put that to tell myself to actually finish something
The rain was pouring now. And it was cold as ever. I decided it would be okay to put my sweater back on, it felt so nice. The dry, fuzzy fabric against my cold wet skin was like a match made in heaven. It’s so cold that the tears streaming down my face feel like little ice cubed rolling off my cheek. I try to keep my head down so that people don’t see me, and don’t try to ask any questions, but it’s hard to do that when you need to keep looking up to see if your bus is at the stop yet.
It feels like I’ve been standing here for hours, but in reality it’s only been about five or ten minutes. The bus is sp warm and dry, not to mention there’s only me and two other people on the bus. The one man looks about eighty. His kind of short and skinny, and his skin is drooping in the most awkward places. And he’s carrying about five bags that I’m assuming are from a grocery store. The other person is just plain weird. She looks decently tall, maybe a few inches taller than me. But I can’t see anything else, she looks really big, but I’m assuming it’s just her puffy marshmallow like jackets she’s wearing. She’s wearing over sized glasses, and a really odd had that looks like it should be on a ninety year old woman in the middle of summer so that the sun doesn’t irritate their sensitive skin.
I walk in my door, and the stench hits me. It smells like a combination of stale cigarettes, weed, and foot odor. I hate this place, a shitty three roomed apartment in a shitty neighborhood, in a shitty town, in a shitty ass world. But hell, it’s all I really need, I mean, me and my friends practically only come here to get fucked up. Speaking of which, my buddy Kyle is supposed to bring some shit over. So tonight should be fun. I’ve got a few hours to do something because it’s only 5:30. But instead of cleaning I light up a bowl and pass out on my couch that is originally this blueish red color but now turned black from ashes and burn marks.
I wake up to an Escape the Fate song on my phone, its Kyle asking me to buzz him in to the apartment complex. Why can’t they make these buttons like those clapper lights, it would make life so much more convenient. So I pry myself off the couch, press the button, unlock my door then go into the kitchen and make some lemonade. I look at the clock and see that it’s only 8:30, I thought he wouldn’t come over until later than this.
“Why are you here so damn early?” I ask.
“Oh, sorry, I didn’t realize there was a set time I was allowed to be here”
“There’s not, I just thought you wouldn’t have come until like 10 or 11”
“I can leave and then come back then if you are busy”
“I’ m not”
“Okay”
There was an awkward pause as he set god knows what on the counter. He has two bags from Wine and Spirits and a packed book bag, I can only use my imagination to figure out what’s in there.
“I heard about what happened today” he said.
“What about it?” I snapped back
“You know damn well what I’m talking about!”
“But I really don’t”
“The roof”
“What about it?”
“You’re an idiot for that, you could have died”
“Yea, that was the point dumbass”
He just looked at me knowing that I was pissed.
“I thought you got rid of your blades” he questioned.
“I did”
“So that’s why they are on you coffee table?”
“I got new ones”
“Why?”
I ignored him as I looked thought the bags he brought, pretending not to listen to his lecture about how I don’t treat myself right and how I can do better for myself. “You do realize that you’re not helping the situation right?” I interrupted. He looked confused as shit, and kind of tilted his head. He was so adorable when he did that, and when he didn’t. He was just always adorable. “How are you going to tell me that I can doing so much better, but always come here to get fucked up? Your such a damn hypocrite sometimes.” He just turns the other way and pulls out some mix CD’s he made, or stole. He was babbling off some of the songs on them asking me which one I wanted to play and I just told him to surprise me because by the middle of the CD everything will sound the same. I sat down next to him an handed him a glass of lemonade and raspberry absolute vodka.
i added an assload more
because before i only had the first paragraph or two
but yea
idk
it's called im gonna finish this if it kills me
but i think i just put that to tell myself to actually finish something
11/10/10
11/9/10
11/8/10
pissed
i wanted to work on my action plan video
but thats not gonna happen
cuz we need to present out powerpoints
fake and gay
but thats not gonna happen
cuz we need to present out powerpoints
fake and gay
11/7/10
11/6/10
11/5/10
the summer circut
makes every cover seem depressing
like, down by jay sean seems depressing now D:
haha
like, down by jay sean seems depressing now D:
haha
11/2/10
11/1/10
i put foundation on today
and its really annoying and pissing me off
but my skin was all blotchy
so now it probably looks like shit
i itch my face alot
haha
im tired
and imma go home and sleep
and then im off thursday
so maybe ill do my action plan thing then
*cough**cough*maranda*cough*cough*
blah, imma b taking off work soon for a bit
cuz im kinda getting a cold
and yesterday i was all *cough**cough**cough**sneeze**cough**cough**cough**sneeze**sneeze**sneeze**cough**cough**sneeze**cough**sneeze**cough*
but my skin was all blotchy
so now it probably looks like shit
i itch my face alot
haha
im tired
and imma go home and sleep
and then im off thursday
so maybe ill do my action plan thing then
*cough**cough*maranda*cough*cough*
blah, imma b taking off work soon for a bit
cuz im kinda getting a cold
and yesterday i was all *cough**cough**cough**sneeze**cough**cough**cough**sneeze**sneeze**sneeze**cough**cough**sneeze**cough**sneeze**cough*
10/25/10
10/24/10
i must say...
today was a pretty epic day for having to rush into work in the am cuz someone quit
then being stuck there for like 12 hrs
haha
the one dude bought me a flower from this random creeper off the street
and then i was on the t
and this random dude
who i insist id from a local band (so shut up maranda)
and his random friend
were on the t
and his friend was just randomly like
"what are u listening to"
and i was like "avril lavinge"
and he was like freaking out
like "NO WAY!!!! I HEARD METALL!"
and i was like, "no, its avril laving, when she didnt suck, u wanna hear"
and he was like "wat were u listening to before that"
and i was like "rise against"
and he was like "aah! u like rise againt"
and i was like "yea, they r awesome"
and we got into this deep conversation about music
and how they were all like "LAMB OF GOD!!!!!!"
so i promised them id listen to them
and i still havent
and the friend showed me a pic of him and the dude from anthrax<3
but it wasnt scott ian
so bllllllah!!!
then they made fun of me for going to warped tour
but i was like "no no no no no, that casualties were there...AND alkaline trio"
and they were like "NOOO!"
and i was like
"BUT THE CASUALTIES WHERE THERE!!!!"
and then they started saying that i was into all these main stream bands
and i was trying to explain to them i like more scremo
but they were probably too drunk to comprehend any of it
and the cory looking dude told me his name was jerome
and i pointed out that name was really black for him
then he started laughing
and then i had to get off
and he was just like "LAMB OF GOD!!!!!!'
i was trying to wheasle in ways to figure out if it was him
i was unsucessfull
but i dnt think hed b in the composers and kinda like the i drive, if he was all LAMB OF GODDDDDDDDDD!!!!! haha
soooooo
maybe maranda is right
o wells,
ill see him again
maybe
possiably
and i just be like
"hey! its the kid that thinks his name is jerome!"
and probably get awkwardlt looked at
so imma listen to some lamb of god
actually
probably not
because i dont really like them
but if i see them again
ill tell them i did
haha
then being stuck there for like 12 hrs
haha
the one dude bought me a flower from this random creeper off the street
and then i was on the t
and this random dude
who i insist id from a local band (so shut up maranda)
and his random friend
were on the t
and his friend was just randomly like
"what are u listening to"
and i was like "avril lavinge"
and he was like freaking out
like "NO WAY!!!! I HEARD METALL!"
and i was like, "no, its avril laving, when she didnt suck, u wanna hear"
and he was like "wat were u listening to before that"
and i was like "rise against"
and he was like "aah! u like rise againt"
and i was like "yea, they r awesome"
and we got into this deep conversation about music
and how they were all like "LAMB OF GOD!!!!!!"
so i promised them id listen to them
and i still havent
and the friend showed me a pic of him and the dude from anthrax<3
but it wasnt scott ian
so bllllllah!!!
then they made fun of me for going to warped tour
but i was like "no no no no no, that casualties were there...AND alkaline trio"
and they were like "NOOO!"
and i was like
"BUT THE CASUALTIES WHERE THERE!!!!"
and then they started saying that i was into all these main stream bands
and i was trying to explain to them i like more scremo
but they were probably too drunk to comprehend any of it
and the cory looking dude told me his name was jerome
and i pointed out that name was really black for him
then he started laughing
and then i had to get off
and he was just like "LAMB OF GOD!!!!!!'
i was trying to wheasle in ways to figure out if it was him
i was unsucessfull
but i dnt think hed b in the composers and kinda like the i drive, if he was all LAMB OF GODDDDDDDDDD!!!!! haha
soooooo
maybe maranda is right
o wells,
ill see him again
maybe
possiably
and i just be like
"hey! its the kid that thinks his name is jerome!"
and probably get awkwardlt looked at
so imma listen to some lamb of god
actually
probably not
because i dont really like them
but if i see them again
ill tell them i did
haha
10/22/10
catch 22 becomes beauty in the eye of the beholder
damn lyrics all up in my head
math class is boring
we dont learn nething
i sit here in this class hearing "im hungry"
and "im always an annoying fucking ass hole"
and "yo im so hard"
like uggg
i hate people
not just these people
and not these people specificially
i just have grown into a state of hating everything
actually, i think i was born into that state
but it had developed in to a genuine i hate everyonve and everything in and around the universe
blah
i just like hate live in general
as emoish as that may seem
i tend to go on these reants, kind of frequently
more to my self than others
but still
i get pissed off
and get in a shitty mood
then stay in a shitty mood
a few people bring me out of the shitty mood while im around them
and sometimes now one can
i dnt wanna goto work today
cuz last time i was in a shitty mood
i was telling the servers to move the fuck outta my way
and saying "lets just stand in the way like assholes"
when im pissed
it shows
blah
i have a headache
imma steal some ib profin from my locker b4 lunch
at cafe 18
blah blah blah blah blah
i hate this school
la de dada dw da
oh yea
AND!!!
idk wat i was gonna say
i hace skillzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
w.e peaceee
math class is boring
we dont learn nething
i sit here in this class hearing "im hungry"
and "im always an annoying fucking ass hole"
and "yo im so hard"
like uggg
i hate people
not just these people
and not these people specificially
i just have grown into a state of hating everything
actually, i think i was born into that state
but it had developed in to a genuine i hate everyonve and everything in and around the universe
blah
i just like hate live in general
as emoish as that may seem
i tend to go on these reants, kind of frequently
more to my self than others
but still
i get pissed off
and get in a shitty mood
then stay in a shitty mood
a few people bring me out of the shitty mood while im around them
and sometimes now one can
i dnt wanna goto work today
cuz last time i was in a shitty mood
i was telling the servers to move the fuck outta my way
and saying "lets just stand in the way like assholes"
when im pissed
it shows
blah
i have a headache
imma steal some ib profin from my locker b4 lunch
at cafe 18
blah blah blah blah blah
i hate this school
la de dada dw da
oh yea
AND!!!
idk wat i was gonna say
i hace skillzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
w.e peaceee
10/21/10
im updating this just because i can
blah
i might be going to the black veil brides concert
mainly because i like motionless in white
and i was sad i didnt see them at warped tour
speaking of which
the day i kno when warped tour comes here, im taking off
my stomach is rumbly
and its annoying me
yesterday i threw up bright ass pink
it scared me
ummmmmm
yea
maybe my stomach was telling me it supported bresh cancer awareness
i might be going to the black veil brides concert
mainly because i like motionless in white
and i was sad i didnt see them at warped tour
speaking of which
the day i kno when warped tour comes here, im taking off
my stomach is rumbly
and its annoying me
yesterday i threw up bright ass pink
it scared me
ummmmmm
yea
maybe my stomach was telling me it supported bresh cancer awareness
10/20/10
i guess its just one of those days
i dnt wanna goto school
so imma b late
and by late i mean catch a bus that will get me there late to school but not class
even tho now that i think about it, they changed that rule
anywho
idk
iv just been all blah since last night
sooo
i guess ill go like straighten my hair, and eat a bagel
and have some tea
and maybe catch the bust after the bus i plan on catching
blah
idk
and
idc
i dnt wanna goto school today
period
so imma b late
and by late i mean catch a bus that will get me there late to school but not class
even tho now that i think about it, they changed that rule
anywho
idk
iv just been all blah since last night
sooo
i guess ill go like straighten my hair, and eat a bagel
and have some tea
and maybe catch the bust after the bus i plan on catching
blah
idk
and
idc
i dnt wanna goto school today
period
10/18/10
technicially
ronnie radke is part of my grad project
because escape the fate was on tour with hawthorne heights when casey calvert died
and turns out mick mars from motley crue is supposed to co-write a song with etf
im not sure if i like that
but as long as nikki and craig dnt associate
its all good
i love how my life is one big awkward circle :)
because escape the fate was on tour with hawthorne heights when casey calvert died
and turns out mick mars from motley crue is supposed to co-write a song with etf
im not sure if i like that
but as long as nikki and craig dnt associate
its all good
i love how my life is one big awkward circle :)
grad project
i changed my essential question from
"what early intervention should be taken before self harm becomes suicide"
to
"what untraditional ways can self harm and suicide be prevented"
i believe it is much more fitting
and it is approved
:)<3
ps the :)<3 is gonna b my signature on my phone
once i figure out how to put one
but i dnt think i can
haha
or atleast i think that if i can i wld have foud it out on accident by now
"what early intervention should be taken before self harm becomes suicide"
to
"what untraditional ways can self harm and suicide be prevented"
i believe it is much more fitting
and it is approved
:)<3
ps the :)<3 is gonna b my signature on my phone
once i figure out how to put one
but i dnt think i can
haha
or atleast i think that if i can i wld have foud it out on accident by now
10/14/10
i am sooooooooooo happpppy :DDDDDDDDD
go to ask.com
type in ronnie radke
click on the images
and look on the 4th page :DDDD
hehe
my picture comes up
:DDDDD
<3<3<3<3<3<3
im oddly happy :D
type in ronnie radke
click on the images
and look on the 4th page :DDDD
hehe
my picture comes up
:DDDDD
<3<3<3<3<3<3
im oddly happy :D
10/7/10
no effort
damn, 3-2 flyers....packing then shower, then bed, then school, then camping, then camping, then camping, then camping, then camping, then partent teacher confrences, then school, then work, then school, then work, then school, then work, then school, then maybe a haunted house or fright night :p then work, then work, then school...there is my next week, exciting eh?
[its called no effort because i just coppied it from my fb status]
ps if i have service at camp, ill be happy
if i have wifi at camp, i will jizz
im taking my laptop
[expensive] camera
and cell phone
key things u sld never take camping
haha, good thing its not a tent :DD
[its called no effort because i just coppied it from my fb status]
ps if i have service at camp, ill be happy
if i have wifi at camp, i will jizz
im taking my laptop
[expensive] camera
and cell phone
key things u sld never take camping
haha, good thing its not a tent :DD
10/6/10
imma start a band
and we are gonna be called "Organic brain disease"
and we are going to do foreigner cover songs
muhahaha
and we are going to do foreigner cover songs
muhahaha
10/5/10
dead tired
and 3 question things got deleted from my laptop wen i restarted it
fml
i hate the h drive
x_x
fml
i hate the h drive
x_x
10/4/10
every time..
i look at or think about one of the colleges i want to go to but can't
i die a little inside
but then i die alittle inside every time i come to school
and alot in grad project
yay
i die a little inside
but then i die alittle inside every time i come to school
and alot in grad project
yay
10/1/10
9/30/10
the awesomest
famous people die
why the hell cant like solja boi
or larry king
or brittney speard die!!!
i want the rev
and michael jackson
and billy mayes
and lenord skinner back!!!!
even tho i didnt really have a preference for mj, and i just miss seeing billy mayes, and lenord skinner inspired lynard skynyner and i guess technicially wants famous
but still
i cant spell
and colleen made my day this this:::
ROTFLOLASHTINCBISAGOWOTTARUTDIAIOA!!!
it means - Rolling on the floor laughin out loud and so hard that i nearly choke but i see a glass of water on the table and reach up to drink it and im ok again.
why the hell cant like solja boi
or larry king
or brittney speard die!!!
i want the rev
and michael jackson
and billy mayes
and lenord skinner back!!!!
even tho i didnt really have a preference for mj, and i just miss seeing billy mayes, and lenord skinner inspired lynard skynyner and i guess technicially wants famous
but still
i cant spell
and colleen made my day this this:::
ROTFLOLASHTINCBISAGOWOTTARUTDIAIOA!!!
it means - Rolling on the floor laughin out loud and so hard that i nearly choke but i see a glass of water on the table and reach up to drink it and im ok again.
9/28/10
soooooooooooo, i thought i saw nasty
from FIR
walking dwn twn
it wasnt D:
it was an old asian lady that had a random patch of black on the side of her head and gray over the rest
i think i insulted nasty
im sorry D:
walking dwn twn
it wasnt D:
it was an old asian lady that had a random patch of black on the side of her head and gray over the rest
i think i insulted nasty
im sorry D:
9/24/10
why cant
the teachers at this school learn to let kids fail or pass on their own
i just don't understand how a school that claims to get us ready for the 'real world' and college has teachers that totally go against its own morals
that all really
uggggg
in college theachers arnt gonna proof all of our work
and arnt gonna give us deadlines for every little single piece
unless its like an english class or something
this is y i liked careers class
they gave us all of the stuff
and it had ONE due date
not a due date for each thing
and of course the assignments are spaced out but still
i think classes like this should give u all the shit at the begining
and get it at the end of the project
its gay that my cuzin passes if she presented
and that at brentwood all they need is hrs and a power point
well at every school they just need a power point
this schoool is so fucking gay
i just don't understand how a school that claims to get us ready for the 'real world' and college has teachers that totally go against its own morals
that all really
uggggg
in college theachers arnt gonna proof all of our work
and arnt gonna give us deadlines for every little single piece
unless its like an english class or something
this is y i liked careers class
they gave us all of the stuff
and it had ONE due date
not a due date for each thing
and of course the assignments are spaced out but still
i think classes like this should give u all the shit at the begining
and get it at the end of the project
its gay that my cuzin passes if she presented
and that at brentwood all they need is hrs and a power point
well at every school they just need a power point
this schoool is so fucking gay
9/23/10
woooooohoooo!
haha
i love that i ask maranda questions in my blog
and then she answeres them xD
haha
i get paint friday :D
and if im right i get like
148
blah
soooo not worth it
but i gots tips
so it is
haha
i think i have work today
and didnt yesterday
well i kinda did
but i said i cldnt work
cuz i was "on call"
and then i found out someone that was supposed to work got called off
so i dnt feel bad
blah
my powers been out since i got home yesterday
and my mom said it may b a few days till it gets turned on
i have a flashlight in my pocket
and i wisht i signed up for cafe 18
im kinda hungry
and i was gonna get breakfast
but then i felt sick
then i felt better and was gonna get someting at cafe 717
but i didnt want a bagel cuz i didnt want to put cream cheese on
so i bought a juice and a pencial
cuz i needed an new one
for math
maranda better b here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ummmm
yea
i charged my phone in the school bathtoom while i straightened my hair
and like all of brooklines power is out D:
its creepy
and i used a flashlight to get to my busstop
cuz it was creepy
blah
i hope the power is on wen i get home
but just incase im charging my phone at work!
hopefull i wont have work
in which case i wont really need it to be charged
and i cld stay for study club
blah
i dnt wanna goto work
lolz
mainly cuz i haz blisters
blaaaaah
i could just go to the nursed
and this is probably really long
and i kno its really pointless
o wells
peace
i love that i ask maranda questions in my blog
and then she answeres them xD
haha
i get paint friday :D
and if im right i get like
148
blah
soooo not worth it
but i gots tips
so it is
haha
i think i have work today
and didnt yesterday
well i kinda did
but i said i cldnt work
cuz i was "on call"
and then i found out someone that was supposed to work got called off
so i dnt feel bad
blah
my powers been out since i got home yesterday
and my mom said it may b a few days till it gets turned on
i have a flashlight in my pocket
and i wisht i signed up for cafe 18
im kinda hungry
and i was gonna get breakfast
but then i felt sick
then i felt better and was gonna get someting at cafe 717
but i didnt want a bagel cuz i didnt want to put cream cheese on
so i bought a juice and a pencial
cuz i needed an new one
for math
maranda better b here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ummmm
yea
i charged my phone in the school bathtoom while i straightened my hair
and like all of brooklines power is out D:
its creepy
and i used a flashlight to get to my busstop
cuz it was creepy
blah
i hope the power is on wen i get home
but just incase im charging my phone at work!
hopefull i wont have work
in which case i wont really need it to be charged
and i cld stay for study club
blah
i dnt wanna goto work
lolz
mainly cuz i haz blisters
blaaaaah
i could just go to the nursed
and this is probably really long
and i kno its really pointless
o wells
peace
9/22/10
debating
if poped or un poped blisters hurt more
my feet are fucking killing me from work
so im not going
idc wat she says
im not
and if she has a problem wit it shell have to take it up with my parents cuz they need me to clean cuz we r having a realator
ugggg...im bout to chug ib profin
i cnt wlk normally
and i like limp
and i feel lazy wen i say my feet hurt and i cnt wlk
but because im not lazy they really do
uggggg
shoot me please x_x
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9/21/10
is it normal...
to feel like ur not in controll of ur life
to stop believing in something that was almost shoved down ur throat for who knows how longs
to feel as if ur trapped in an hour glass and time is just depleating and theres nothing to do no matter how much you try, and no matter how hard you try to stop that sand it just starts to flow more and more
to feel like your broken
to fall in love with complete strangers
to want to just completely distance youself from life untill you can finially make sense out of the simplest things
to be a drone
to fine beauty in pain
and love in misery
to want to re-wind life and do it all over again, just to think that you afraid to change your life cuz u dnt want to lose the good things that u have
to cry wen u think about the good things in the past instead of the bad
to be normal
to be different
to be me
to be you
to be someone that conforms to the stumpiest little rules in order to please people in spite of how they feel
to go and tell one person your fine then vent the hell out of another
ugggg, in other words im broken
as i told some one repetivley
and i dont think they get it
blah
w/e
i just have sooo much on my mind
yet nothing at all
and i have a feeling that tomorrow if they tell me to come in, ill try to explain y i cant
then i probably wont
i have atleast 3 blisters on my feet
and i only poped 2 of them cuz the other was too painfull
i should probably attmept this wonderfull little thing called sleep
night
to stop believing in something that was almost shoved down ur throat for who knows how longs
to feel as if ur trapped in an hour glass and time is just depleating and theres nothing to do no matter how much you try, and no matter how hard you try to stop that sand it just starts to flow more and more
to feel like your broken
to fall in love with complete strangers
to want to just completely distance youself from life untill you can finially make sense out of the simplest things
to be a drone
to fine beauty in pain
and love in misery
to want to re-wind life and do it all over again, just to think that you afraid to change your life cuz u dnt want to lose the good things that u have
to cry wen u think about the good things in the past instead of the bad
to be normal
to be different
to be me
to be you
to be someone that conforms to the stumpiest little rules in order to please people in spite of how they feel
to go and tell one person your fine then vent the hell out of another
ugggg, in other words im broken
as i told some one repetivley
and i dont think they get it
blah
w/e
i just have sooo much on my mind
yet nothing at all
and i have a feeling that tomorrow if they tell me to come in, ill try to explain y i cant
then i probably wont
i have atleast 3 blisters on my feet
and i only poped 2 of them cuz the other was too painfull
i should probably attmept this wonderfull little thing called sleep
night
ANBERLIN HAS A NEW CD TODAY!!!
im really happy
even tho im not gonna buy it
maybe wen i get my pay check
ill have like maranda take me
and then i can get new shoes too
:p
ps, maranda, this is a question from me to u!
i just dnt kno wen ill ever b off x_x haha
even tho im not gonna buy it
maybe wen i get my pay check
ill have like maranda take me
and then i can get new shoes too
:p
ps, maranda, this is a question from me to u!
i just dnt kno wen ill ever b off x_x haha
robo trippin
haha, im pretty sure a was a little high from it yesterday wen i went to work
but hell, i stopped coughing
and today i keep coughing, but only wen im doing school work
i have my meeting with "the dream killers" and im kinda excited cuz i brought my iar stuff :D
and i got my yearbook today
and im only in like one picture
and that one picture is my posed picture
i really like it
and colleen looks really emo/punk in hers
and i really like it
:D
well, i guess ill do my work now....
but hell, i stopped coughing
and today i keep coughing, but only wen im doing school work
i have my meeting with "the dream killers" and im kinda excited cuz i brought my iar stuff :D
and i got my yearbook today
and im only in like one picture
and that one picture is my posed picture
i really like it
and colleen looks really emo/punk in hers
and i really like it
:D
well, i guess ill do my work now....
9/16/10
maybe its mean
but i couldnt stop laughing at this
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-564611/Girl-13-hangs-obsessed-Emo-suicide-cult-rock-band.html
its mean because she died
but its funny because evidently cutting is and initiation to being emo
and emos believe that wen u die u go to the black parade
and people wonder y i hate the news, but love watching it
haha
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-564611/Girl-13-hangs-obsessed-Emo-suicide-cult-rock-band.html
its mean because she died
but its funny because evidently cutting is and initiation to being emo
and emos believe that wen u die u go to the black parade
and people wonder y i hate the news, but love watching it
haha
i thought i saw some one jump of the bridge into the water, but it was just a bird
surprisingly
i was not the one that said this
but when i heard it, i thought of me
because thats something i would say
i realized im only home for like 8hrs a day
haha, thats how much sleep ur supposed to get
and now they ppl like next to me/behind me are talking about porn
and how just because u watch it doesnt mean u masturbate
because there is funny porn
like a skinny ass white guy
and a reallly fat black chick
and he was holding on to her fat
and then i got offered to make a porno
haha, sometimes i love this shcool xDD
well, no
just the people
now they are talking about justin beiber
and how the one wants to b his little brother
so i said hes have to be like -5 years old to do that
then the other one was like i wanna b justin beiber best friend
then the one was like
holli we sld have babies
and i was like yeeee, no
and hes like not together, but we sld have babies
and i was like no
and hes like y
and i was like i hate kids
then he started talking about finger painting
i guess i gotta do some work
blahhhhhhhhhhhhh x_x
i was not the one that said this
but when i heard it, i thought of me
because thats something i would say
i realized im only home for like 8hrs a day
haha, thats how much sleep ur supposed to get
and now they ppl like next to me/behind me are talking about porn
and how just because u watch it doesnt mean u masturbate
because there is funny porn
like a skinny ass white guy
and a reallly fat black chick
and he was holding on to her fat
and then i got offered to make a porno
haha, sometimes i love this shcool xDD
well, no
just the people
now they are talking about justin beiber
and how the one wants to b his little brother
so i said hes have to be like -5 years old to do that
then the other one was like i wanna b justin beiber best friend
then the one was like
holli we sld have babies
and i was like yeeee, no
and hes like not together, but we sld have babies
and i was like no
and hes like y
and i was like i hate kids
then he started talking about finger painting
i guess i gotta do some work
blahhhhhhhhhhhhh x_x
Anti Nowhere League
isnt that great
or what i expected
or maybe im just not in the mood to listen to them
but i like there 'metal' stuff better than their 'punk' stuff
because there 'metal' is more like more modern not as heavy punk, kinda like nofx with out the ska, kinda...maybe grungeish
and their 'punk' stuff is more like dark and gothic sounding...kinda like rob zombie, but not as heavy
u probably dont kno wat i mean by heavy
and its hard to explain
so i wont
or what i expected
or maybe im just not in the mood to listen to them
but i like there 'metal' stuff better than their 'punk' stuff
because there 'metal' is more like more modern not as heavy punk, kinda like nofx with out the ska, kinda...maybe grungeish
and their 'punk' stuff is more like dark and gothic sounding...kinda like rob zombie, but not as heavy
u probably dont kno wat i mean by heavy
and its hard to explain
so i wont
9/15/10
research
lead me to find a band
that i think i may like
haha
idk, i think they are gonna sound like a combination of the casualties and system of a down
even tho i dnt think i mean soad
i think i mean korn
yes i meant korn
cuz they sing kid nap sandy claws
i hate soad
and i think that there abriviation is really like syo
but that makes no sense
ewf, system of a down
heres there one song
which idk y im posting it
cuz there are better ones
but i found it ironic that its like a prayer
Give me bread and water, give me blood and pain
Give me toxic air to breathe, give me acid rain
I never wanted much from life, just to have some fun
To play a little music, does that hurt anyone
Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
Then you point your finger and say that I'm to blame
Lord God have mercy on this sinners soul
He gave it all for rock n roll and this is what he's done
Teach me to be normal, teach me to be good
To look up to my elders the way I always should
Don't lead me to temptation, keep me safe from harm
Blessed are the peacemakers who didn't stand a chance
Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
I stick my fingers up at you 'cause you're to fucking blame
No I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You've raped this fucking planet so there's nothing left to do
So fuck the system, fuck the law, and fuck the lot of you
so far i really liked their song self harm
its also the one i found first
haha
Went up on a journey, where the animals were small,
I took with me a hammer, just to prove that I was tall.
And I came across a preacher, who just looked at me - With eyes that cannot see.
And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”.
Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
You are believing, your life is better, without me.
Hey brother Razor Blade, I need you, once again,
I run my fingers down your edge to see, if I still feel pain.
Pretty pictures are on my arms, pictures of the days when I was young,
But these pictures are just scars, the only thing that’s ever real!
Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
Just like the others, you think you’re better without me.
(This is for you, are you watching me, I’m Self Harmed)
Now I am cutting, I feel the ripping in my flesh.
Now I’m bleeding, I’m satisfied I’m now content.
So I go to sleep - I go to sleep. (Go to sleep)
that song
i think i just like it for the first few lines
especially the "And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”." one
ummmm yea
so i hope they dont suckkkkkk!
two fingers and im outtt!
[yea, im hxc like that :)]
im back
after just posting this
because now i sense a hint of steel panther
because of this song
called so what
and matellica wanted them to sing it
So fucking what!
Well I've been to Hastings
And I've been to Brighton
I've been to Eastbourne too
So what, so what
Well I've been here
And I've been there
And I've been every fucking where
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you
Well I've sucked sweets
And I've sucked rock
And I've even sucked an old man's cock
So what, so what
Well I've fucked a sheep
And I've fucked a goat
I've had my cock right down its throat
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you
Well I've drunk that
And I've drunk this
And I've spewed up on a pint of piss
So what, so what
And I've had scag
I've had speed
I've jacked up until I bleed
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you
Well I've had crabs
And I've had lice
And I've had the pox and that ain't nice
So what, so what
Well I've fucked this
And I've fucked that
And I've even fucked a schoolgirl's crack
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Who cares, who cares about you
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you....
but they went from punk to metal
haha
i also wonder if an undercut is against dress code...hmmmm
that i think i may like
haha
idk, i think they are gonna sound like a combination of the casualties and system of a down
even tho i dnt think i mean soad
i think i mean korn
yes i meant korn
cuz they sing kid nap sandy claws
i hate soad
and i think that there abriviation is really like syo
but that makes no sense
ewf, system of a down
heres there one song
which idk y im posting it
cuz there are better ones
but i found it ironic that its like a prayer
Give me bread and water, give me blood and pain
Give me toxic air to breathe, give me acid rain
I never wanted much from life, just to have some fun
To play a little music, does that hurt anyone
Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
Then you point your finger and say that I'm to blame
Lord God have mercy on this sinners soul
He gave it all for rock n roll and this is what he's done
Teach me to be normal, teach me to be good
To look up to my elders the way I always should
Don't lead me to temptation, keep me safe from harm
Blessed are the peacemakers who didn't stand a chance
Now I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You screwed up all this planet for your greed and your gain
I stick my fingers up at you 'cause you're to fucking blame
No I don't believe in anything you dirty bastards say
Just look around at what you've done you've had your fucking day
You've raped this fucking planet so there's nothing left to do
So fuck the system, fuck the law, and fuck the lot of you
so far i really liked their song self harm
its also the one i found first
haha
Went up on a journey, where the animals were small,
I took with me a hammer, just to prove that I was tall.
And I came across a preacher, who just looked at me - With eyes that cannot see.
And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”.
Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
You are believing, your life is better, without me.
Hey brother Razor Blade, I need you, once again,
I run my fingers down your edge to see, if I still feel pain.
Pretty pictures are on my arms, pictures of the days when I was young,
But these pictures are just scars, the only thing that’s ever real!
Now you are leaving, now you are walking out on me.
Just like the others, you think you’re better without me.
(This is for you, are you watching me, I’m Self Harmed)
Now I am cutting, I feel the ripping in my flesh.
Now I’m bleeding, I’m satisfied I’m now content.
So I go to sleep - I go to sleep. (Go to sleep)
that song
i think i just like it for the first few lines
especially the "And In his dying breath, he spat at me, he called me “anarchy”." one
ummmm yea
so i hope they dont suckkkkkk!
two fingers and im outtt!
[yea, im hxc like that :)]
im back
after just posting this
because now i sense a hint of steel panther
because of this song
called so what
and matellica wanted them to sing it
So fucking what!
Well I've been to Hastings
And I've been to Brighton
I've been to Eastbourne too
So what, so what
Well I've been here
And I've been there
And I've been every fucking where
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you
Well I've sucked sweets
And I've sucked rock
And I've even sucked an old man's cock
So what, so what
Well I've fucked a sheep
And I've fucked a goat
I've had my cock right down its throat
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you
Well I've drunk that
And I've drunk this
And I've spewed up on a pint of piss
So what, so what
And I've had scag
I've had speed
I've jacked up until I bleed
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Well who cares, who cares what you do
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you
Well I've had crabs
And I've had lice
And I've had the pox and that ain't nice
So what, so what
Well I've fucked this
And I've fucked that
And I've even fucked a schoolgirl's crack
So what, so what
So what, so what you boring little cunt
Who cares, who cares about you
Who cares, who cares about you
You, you, you, you....
but they went from punk to metal
haha
i also wonder if an undercut is against dress code...hmmmm
9/14/10
even tho...
its alot of work
and im constantly running around
and its kinda nasty
and i need balence and have to lift heavy trays
i love the heticness of it
kinda y i like drama
something attracts me to heticness
its kinda fun
and i love that i dnt have to ask my parents for money
and i love that there is screamo in the kitchen playing
its a nice change from the classical music in the dinning room
haha
so even tho my feet r killing me
i liked it
surprisingly
lolz
ummmmmm
i was gonna say someother stuff
but idr
haha
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9/13/10
blah
i feel shakey
and cant type right
blah
lah,
w.e
im just gonna shut up and attempt to do this shit
or atleast make it look like i am
i would have loved to not come to school today
blah, idc
i lied my face off by alkaline trio was all ive been listening to
and now its stuck in my head
blah
things just all like to crash and burn at the same time dont they?
and althought nothings wrong, for some reason it feels like everything is
blah
and cant type right
blah
lah,
w.e
im just gonna shut up and attempt to do this shit
or atleast make it look like i am
i would have loved to not come to school today
blah, idc
i lied my face off by alkaline trio was all ive been listening to
and now its stuck in my head
blah
things just all like to crash and burn at the same time dont they?
and althought nothings wrong, for some reason it feels like everything is
blah
9/12/10
how come...
whenever i thought i was depressed people told me i wasnt
and when i dont feel depressed people tell me i am?
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9/11/10
9/8/10
blahe
i forgot about the picture thing yesterday D:
so imma take one today during the ccacness
but i get sent to the counsoler person
ugggg
all i did was agree
it was sooooo annoying
but hell, i got out of research
blahhh
i also said i hate this school
and i dnt care about research
and then she brough up college
and i went to say how the guy at iar is dumb and wont tell me how to apply
which was more thatn i intended to say
but blah
she went on this rant bout how i sldnt keep things bottled inside
and im like i dont?
i talk to my friends..and bitch to them sometime
and then she went on to say that depressed people sleep
and i was just like
so do ppl that wake up at 530 and have to b in school for 8 hours
blaaah
i wanna go back
because i hate this class
and it gets me out of it
haha
so imma take one today during the ccacness
but i get sent to the counsoler person
ugggg
all i did was agree
it was sooooo annoying
but hell, i got out of research
blahhh
i also said i hate this school
and i dnt care about research
and then she brough up college
and i went to say how the guy at iar is dumb and wont tell me how to apply
which was more thatn i intended to say
but blah
she went on this rant bout how i sldnt keep things bottled inside
and im like i dont?
i talk to my friends..and bitch to them sometime
and then she went on to say that depressed people sleep
and i was just like
so do ppl that wake up at 530 and have to b in school for 8 hours
blaaah
i wanna go back
because i hate this class
and it gets me out of it
haha
9/5/10
@colleeeeeeen!
thats right!
i just went twitter on ur ass!!!
haha
but i saw alice, and it was a movie
but i think it was like, a bunh of episiodes from a tv show put together
and if we r tlking bout that same thing
HE IS SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SEXY!!!!
i just went twitter on ur ass!!!
haha
but i saw alice, and it was a movie
but i think it was like, a bunh of episiodes from a tv show put together
and if we r tlking bout that same thing
HE IS SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SEXY!!!!
9/4/10
cramps
are a bitch
so today i caught up on my blog reading
and on each persons blog i clicked the next blog button
2 ppls blogs took me to their other blogs
and 1 persons took me someone elses blog from my school
now i follow him
and one persons took me to this blog
i think it was called happy snappy
or something like that
and that gave me the idea to take a picture of one thing each day of my sr year
idk if i sld do weekends yet
so, yea, ull have lots of pictures
ummm, yea, thats about it
and ummmmm, off with her head!
and your name is umm
and what did she do to my dear jabawokki
and shes the wrong alice
and what do a raven and a writing desk have in common
and it needs to b purified by someone with evaporating skills
and ive been accused of being the alice and the wrong alice all day
and u called it wonderland the last time u were here
and my father said he somethimes thought about 6 impossiable withng before breakfast
and 1. there is a drink that can make u shrink 2.and a cake that can make ur grow 3. animails can talk
and ive been thinking about things that start with an m
and i cnt think or ne quotes
but i was waching that earlier
ugggg, cramps x_x
so today i caught up on my blog reading
and on each persons blog i clicked the next blog button
2 ppls blogs took me to their other blogs
and 1 persons took me someone elses blog from my school
now i follow him
and one persons took me to this blog
i think it was called happy snappy
or something like that
and that gave me the idea to take a picture of one thing each day of my sr year
idk if i sld do weekends yet
so, yea, ull have lots of pictures
ummm, yea, thats about it
and ummmmm, off with her head!
and your name is umm
and what did she do to my dear jabawokki
and shes the wrong alice
and what do a raven and a writing desk have in common
and it needs to b purified by someone with evaporating skills
and ive been accused of being the alice and the wrong alice all day
and u called it wonderland the last time u were here
and my father said he somethimes thought about 6 impossiable withng before breakfast
and 1. there is a drink that can make u shrink 2.and a cake that can make ur grow 3. animails can talk
and ive been thinking about things that start with an m
and i cnt think or ne quotes
but i was waching that earlier
ugggg, cramps x_x
9/3/10
awkward smiles
and totally non related to that...
i feel nausish
and i cnt spell
my bookbag weight more than me today
x_x
its partially my fault
oh how i love ye columbine
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8/31/10
my arm hurts
like shit
i hate this school
and especially this class
research
x_x
so get ready for constant bitching
and yesterday i was stuck in an elevator for 40mins
with like 15 ppl
kill me jesus
x_x
i hate this school
and especially this class
research
x_x
so get ready for constant bitching
and yesterday i was stuck in an elevator for 40mins
with like 15 ppl
kill me jesus
x_x
8/27/10
sometimes...
i honestly wanna isolate myself from the world
and like, waste all my money on drugs
and then die with someone i can say i love
that's just as hopeless and worthless as me
yes, my standards are high
but why set the bar high if you know that you'll just miss?
and like, waste all my money on drugs
and then die with someone i can say i love
that's just as hopeless and worthless as me
yes, my standards are high
but why set the bar high if you know that you'll just miss?
yet once again
im attemping to write a song
and im having one of those days
where im fine then pissed then fine then pissed then fine then pissed then really happy and content then sad that decent then sad then decent
blah
welcome to my life x_x
my computers being gay
and its just pissing me off so w.e
im at one of those points where i just stop caring
im just gonna shut up now
so w.e
gah, blah
and im having one of those days
where im fine then pissed then fine then pissed then fine then pissed then really happy and content then sad that decent then sad then decent
blah
welcome to my life x_x
my computers being gay
and its just pissing me off so w.e
im at one of those points where i just stop caring
im just gonna shut up now
so w.e
gah, blah
8/22/10
*hiccup*
my
arm
is
fucking
killing
me
and unless it is stationary, it hurts like a fucking bitch
uggggg
and tomorrow is my first day at ccac for physiology
and kennywood
with my arm
it may be hell
but ill probably be having too much fun to care
umm, yea
FUCKING HICCUPS!!!!
im hoping that i can get an editing system on my laptop
and then i can start making videos
ummm, yea
but yea,
a reality check time
life is moving too fast for me to take it in
and somethimes it stresses and freaks me out
i never thought id actually end up graduating high school
and i never really wanted to go to college
but city high made me change my thought
and idk, but i really dont want to
okay like,
i want to experience the "college life"
but i dnt want to goto any normal colleges
and the 3 i really wanted to go to
well
full sail maked u pay 200 dollars to reserve ur seat
plus all the other shit i said about it
IAR doesnt have an 'apply here' button
and neither dose IBC
and all the 'big' colleges applications that i kinda wanted to goto pose too much effort because i got to create an account
i gotta love my laziness
but its too much effort to like, not get accepted
idk
and even tho it would be the smartest choice, i dont want to goto ccac for 2 years
i mean, its not that its a community college
but it is
and i havent even officially attended a class there and i fucking hate it
its gay and pisses me off
just like city high
idk
and yes, here i am pondering if i should just drop out and get my ged
but i will wait till graduation project
and once i fail i will tell my parents i dont want to graduate at some random school and im not staying at city high for another year
gotta love how possitive i am
gah
i applied for a job at cvs
yay x_x
but i rather work there than mcdonalds
actually, i promised my self id never work at mcdonalds
wendys, yes
idk, i need to go back to the mall and get more applications
i would love to work at hot topic
or jurneys
because, i love those stored, dah
surprising typing does irratate my arm too badly
and i wanna like, do my laundry, but its too heavy and hurts
so ill probably take some more ib profin and then fold clean clothes
and wake up at 8 to do my laundry
and get a shower
and then ill b ready like way early for no reason
but my clothes will b clean
blah
actually, i might b able to find something clean
in matter of fact, i kno ill b able to
haha
ummm, yea
and i need to show maranda the curgeres den
because it seems pretty chill
and theres a pool table there
haha, win xDD
ugggggg, i need to clean my gauges
which reminds me...
i took them out one day wen i was getting a shower because the tapers kinda annoy me when im getting a shower
yea, a few hrs later i remembered
it kinda hurt a bit
but it felt good becuase they didnt feel really loose like they normally do
okay
no ones gonns read this
and if they do they do
but imma sleeeeeep
or something
night
arm
is
fucking
killing
me
and unless it is stationary, it hurts like a fucking bitch
uggggg
and tomorrow is my first day at ccac for physiology
and kennywood
with my arm
it may be hell
but ill probably be having too much fun to care
umm, yea
FUCKING HICCUPS!!!!
im hoping that i can get an editing system on my laptop
and then i can start making videos
ummm, yea
but yea,
a reality check time
life is moving too fast for me to take it in
and somethimes it stresses and freaks me out
i never thought id actually end up graduating high school
and i never really wanted to go to college
but city high made me change my thought
and idk, but i really dont want to
okay like,
i want to experience the "college life"
but i dnt want to goto any normal colleges
and the 3 i really wanted to go to
well
full sail maked u pay 200 dollars to reserve ur seat
plus all the other shit i said about it
IAR doesnt have an 'apply here' button
and neither dose IBC
and all the 'big' colleges applications that i kinda wanted to goto pose too much effort because i got to create an account
i gotta love my laziness
but its too much effort to like, not get accepted
idk
and even tho it would be the smartest choice, i dont want to goto ccac for 2 years
i mean, its not that its a community college
but it is
and i havent even officially attended a class there and i fucking hate it
its gay and pisses me off
just like city high
idk
and yes, here i am pondering if i should just drop out and get my ged
but i will wait till graduation project
and once i fail i will tell my parents i dont want to graduate at some random school and im not staying at city high for another year
gotta love how possitive i am
gah
i applied for a job at cvs
yay x_x
but i rather work there than mcdonalds
actually, i promised my self id never work at mcdonalds
wendys, yes
idk, i need to go back to the mall and get more applications
i would love to work at hot topic
or jurneys
because, i love those stored, dah
surprising typing does irratate my arm too badly
and i wanna like, do my laundry, but its too heavy and hurts
so ill probably take some more ib profin and then fold clean clothes
and wake up at 8 to do my laundry
and get a shower
and then ill b ready like way early for no reason
but my clothes will b clean
blah
actually, i might b able to find something clean
in matter of fact, i kno ill b able to
haha
ummm, yea
and i need to show maranda the curgeres den
because it seems pretty chill
and theres a pool table there
haha, win xDD
ugggggg, i need to clean my gauges
which reminds me...
i took them out one day wen i was getting a shower because the tapers kinda annoy me when im getting a shower
yea, a few hrs later i remembered
it kinda hurt a bit
but it felt good becuase they didnt feel really loose like they normally do
okay
no ones gonns read this
and if they do they do
but imma sleeeeeep
or something
night
8/19/10
i looked
up the meaning of my dream
and now i feel better
and its true and makes perfect sense
its still freaky as shit
but im better
or at least im telling myself that
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fml
i goto sleep for like. 10mins
and now im flippin shit
y arnt ppl awake
uggg wake up
wake up
wake up
wake up
this is not a drill
and those 4 lines werent lyrics
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thinking...
ugggg...how r u gonna fall alseep/ignore me in the middle of a deep conversation
and how come i cnt b pissed at u
gay
i have issues
because...i just do
and guys r lame
especially wen they fall asleep like this
grrrrrr
or hes ignoring me
gah
grrrrrr
howwi angre/anxious/upset and tired
blah
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8/18/10
chat roulette with out penises! :D [coll, ur in this! :D]
in: yo
out: hi
out: wats up
in: you dont have a penis showing
in: nothing realy bak from bowling you
out: haha, neither do u :D
out: and bored
in: i know amazing
out: haha
in: we all are
in: so hows life over there
in: in the internet
out: boring, lolz
out: the internet if a very boring plcae
out: plcae*
in: well aint that a bitch
out: place, i cnt spell x_x
in: but its got so much porn
in: and even bunny ninjas
out: lmfao
out: bunny ninjas r the shit!
in: no worries i cant also
in: rightt!!!!
out: but not as awesome as ninja clouds
in: youve seen ninja clouds??/
in: thats fuckin amazing
out: duh! haha, havent u?
in: i havent!!!
out: lolz fail
in: i wanna see two clouds do battle now
in: place bets on it
out: haha
out: the one on the right will win!
in: it always does
out: it must b fixed!!! eek!
in: whats in ur ears
out: headphones
in: ohh
out: yupp
in: and what are theys playing into your ear cavaties
out: the ding of ur ims, haha
in: sounds sexy
out: lmfao, so very sexy
in: i wanna ding some ims
out: lmfao, then doooo eeet!!! xDD
in: actually i think ive gone ims dinging before
in: it was erotic
out: haha, so ive heard :p
in: you hear a lot of things 0.o
out: definatley! haha
in: i need those headphones
out: y? haha
in: cuase u heard all that with them in your ear
in: must be magic headphones
out: i do! and they are!'
out: i stole them from the devil! muhahaha
in: did you use a fiddle?
out: haha, no
in: NO WAYY
in: then how did you do it?
out: i robert pattinsons hair, it will kill nething
out: hes the twilight dude btw
in: death by pattinson
out: lolz
out: yes, yes indeed
in: man what a horriable way to go
out: iknorite>
in: omg u know things to
in: not only hear them
out: yes, i am all hearing and all knowing :D
in: your all herowing
out: haha, what?
in: man thats badass
in: i combined hearing and knowning
out: haha, i try
out: and ooooooh! i see ur logic :D
in: wahahah!!! exactly
out: brb, i need to get my friend something
in: alright
out: backkkk
in: i gained powers
out: ouch my eyes D:
in: sories i cant control it
out: its okay, my devil headphones shall help xD
in: they protect you fromthe ligthtt
out: yes :D
out: hi
out: wats up
in: you dont have a penis showing
in: nothing realy bak from bowling you
out: haha, neither do u :D
out: and bored
in: i know amazing
out: haha
in: we all are
in: so hows life over there
in: in the internet
out: boring, lolz
out: the internet if a very boring plcae
out: plcae*
in: well aint that a bitch
out: place, i cnt spell x_x
in: but its got so much porn
in: and even bunny ninjas
out: lmfao
out: bunny ninjas r the shit!
in: no worries i cant also
in: rightt!!!!
out: but not as awesome as ninja clouds
in: youve seen ninja clouds??/
in: thats fuckin amazing
out: duh! haha, havent u?
in: i havent!!!
out: lolz fail
in: i wanna see two clouds do battle now
in: place bets on it
out: haha
out: the one on the right will win!
in: it always does
out: it must b fixed!!! eek!
in: whats in ur ears
out: headphones
in: ohh
out: yupp
in: and what are theys playing into your ear cavaties
out: the ding of ur ims, haha
in: sounds sexy
out: lmfao, so very sexy
in: i wanna ding some ims
out: lmfao, then doooo eeet!!! xDD
in: actually i think ive gone ims dinging before
in: it was erotic
out: haha, so ive heard :p
in: you hear a lot of things 0.o
out: definatley! haha
in: i need those headphones
out: y? haha
in: cuase u heard all that with them in your ear
in: must be magic headphones
out: i do! and they are!'
out: i stole them from the devil! muhahaha
in: did you use a fiddle?
out: haha, no
in: NO WAYY
in: then how did you do it?
out: i robert pattinsons hair, it will kill nething
out: hes the twilight dude btw
in: death by pattinson
out: lolz
out: yes, yes indeed
in: man what a horriable way to go
out: iknorite>
in: omg u know things to
in: not only hear them
out: yes, i am all hearing and all knowing :D
in: your all herowing
out: haha, what?
in: man thats badass
in: i combined hearing and knowning
out: haha, i try
out: and ooooooh! i see ur logic :D
in: wahahah!!! exactly
out: brb, i need to get my friend something
in: alright
out: backkkk
in: i gained powers
out: ouch my eyes D:
in: sories i cant control it
out: its okay, my devil headphones shall help xD
in: they protect you fromthe ligthtt
out: yes :D
8/16/10
i established
that if i get shot i wanna keep the bullet in me
unless it wld kill me if it wasnt taken out
in which case i just wanna keep it
and if i die from getting shot i wanna keep the bullet in me
and wen i die i wanna b burried with it
even tho i wanna b creamated and thrown in a river/ocean
i sld pick which one i want to b thrown in
hmmmmmmmmm
research timeeeee!!!!
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8/12/10
omg...no blog in forever
my bad
haha
well no school so i have nothing to bitch about really
i went to a seconshand serande concert
with white tie affair
and runner runner and the camera cant lie
ss lead singer got jumped in boston
so he was wearing glasses like a gay douchebag
and i love that me and maranda go to concerts to just see one specific band and rip on all the others about being gay and sucking...excpet for wen there r other good ones...haha
idk wat im saying
so ill tlk about pizza
and by that i mean im quoteing some guy at fories with a hat that said satan
"dont waste good pizza like that"
hehe
ps i saw johnny from the i drive at the concert
just saying
hehe
ummmm
grl ur driving me so crazy
craig sucks
i wanna go to one concert with blessthefall escape the fate and of course falling in reverse
and its funny cuz btf and fir wld hate etf...bahahahahaha
it wld b amazing
especially if ronnie wld steal the mic from craig and start singing not good enough for cliche
then marry me
not that i had a dream like that
but with out the marrage
and yea...haha
dnt judge me
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8/1/10
awe
sue could recall seeing dylan cry only once. he came home from school upset, and went up to his room. he pulled a box of stuffed animails out of the closet, dunped them out, burrowed under, and fell asleep surrounded.
[pg 209]
it reminds me of my fort
and iv found my self comparing my self to them
mainly dylan
is that bad?
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"brian and the petrones hauled the crosses away, hacked them into little pices, and then tossed the rubble into a dumpster"
[page 194 in columbine by dave cullen]
ive been staring at that line for the past 10 mins
trying to not cry
and im not gonna rant about it for ever
im just going to say one thing to sum up how i feel about that line
imma kill that mother fucker....pinkey promise
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7/31/10
i kinda
forgot this app was on my phone
but i just wanted to let u kno that im not dead
and that i was randomly thinking about the only solid goal i ever really had
its kinda stupid
and for a day or so it was semi acheived
but i want to get a wikipedia article
i want someone to acknowledge me and i want many many many people to read it
and actually be interested in me
weather it was an amazing acomplishment
something horriable happend to me or i did something utterly repulsive
or idk
i just want one
and dnt really give two shits how i get one
thats all
goodbye
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7/25/10
my phone
has been spazzing out for bo fucking reason
and i wanna bith
but i dnt feel like typing it
w.e
night
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7/22/10
this is the last
post that im going to have
at least on a computer
untill aug 20
blahhhhh
i may not b able to read every ones tho
D:
at least on a computer
untill aug 20
blahhhhh
i may not b able to read every ones tho
D:
7/21/10
awe, ms moye!!!
she leaving
and she was like one of my fav teachers
me who
i was reading old blogs
and i searched hate to find my i hate posts
but cldnt
and i found a line saying that i wasnted to "slit my fucking throat"
then i looked up slit
and there were alot
and i noticed that i say that line alot
blah
thats all
for now
ps
i saw the guy on my bus that i stalk yesterday
:)
but he was walking
wearing the same different pants
idk
hes smexxxxxi!
and she was like one of my fav teachers
me who
i was reading old blogs
and i searched hate to find my i hate posts
but cldnt
and i found a line saying that i wasnted to "slit my fucking throat"
then i looked up slit
and there were alot
and i noticed that i say that line alot
blah
thats all
for now
ps
i saw the guy on my bus that i stalk yesterday
:)
but he was walking
wearing the same different pants
idk
hes smexxxxxi!
3 more days....
i woke up at 1am
barfed...twice
then went back to sleep around 3
and i still taste it in my mouth x_x
i wish i had enough time to brush my teeth b4 i left too
any who
between me falling asleep and waking up for school
i had a dream
and it was like scary as all shit
and emo
so i woke up and couldnt really move
like it took alot of effort
and i looked up at my arm
and it had all these really deep wounds that were all scared over
and i had no idea wat was going on so i walked dwn stairs and saw my parents crying
and i was trying to tlk to them but they couldnt see or hear me
it was freaky shit
and idk...just like
idk
im wearing my saosin shirt
and im wearing my warped tour shirt to the i drive concert
so dnt think about it maranda
i hax dibs xDD
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7/20/10
blaaaah
my stomach wldnt shut up
so i ate some life
and after like 5 bites i felt bloated
now i feel sick x_x
nap time for meeee
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im thinking
in my head
of course
about people
and stuff
and yesterday
it was fun
i hung out with someone
who i think i may like
haha
i didnt get home till
almost 11
and i was dwn twn since 7
thats a long time
also, i didnt eat since the peice of pizza i had sunday at like, 7
im mean to my body like that, but im just not that hungry
i might buy lunch cuz i want something to drink, or ill just buy a tea
i need to put money on my card
ne who...
yesterday
i tld him wed only be able to hang out for an hr or so
but it was longer than that
i txted my dad telling him i was hanging out with ppl from my school that graduated, but turns out i never sent it
any who
it was raining
and we went to the library
and that has no point whatsoever becides we both hated being quite
haha
and we went by the river
and i got sand in my mouth
and they were playing epic music at the game
and some random homless guy came and sat like right next to us
and started eating a bag of chips
it was funny
and some how he convinced me to trade him my checkered wristband for some silly bands
but there are two guns
really child friendly
he also convinced me to give him one of my necklaces
haha
he picked my razor with the skulls
because my brass knuckles were really long
and my razor looked less awkward with his necklace
then i was going to catch my bus that came at 930
and we ran into zach
and we went to the river
then i caught the t
and went home
and tuned my dad out as he bitched at me
zach was trying to keep me dwn twn because he wanted to no b alone till 1130 cuz he was waiting for someone
and erik might b there
but i figured not getting bitched at wld b better
and now i think the two of them are going to start tlking
because one will sell weed to the other
its odd
and the whole time there were tlking about random drugs
and i was sooooo lost
haha
now im just going on about nothing
because this class is ass
blahhhhhhh
the i drive concert is friday :DDD
and i think i was invivted to elanas or daynas with krystal that day
the evacuation is today x_x
i swear if its raining, im leaving
fuck that
haha
is the day over yett?
of course
about people
and stuff
and yesterday
it was fun
i hung out with someone
who i think i may like
haha
i didnt get home till
almost 11
and i was dwn twn since 7
thats a long time
also, i didnt eat since the peice of pizza i had sunday at like, 7
im mean to my body like that, but im just not that hungry
i might buy lunch cuz i want something to drink, or ill just buy a tea
i need to put money on my card
ne who...
yesterday
i tld him wed only be able to hang out for an hr or so
but it was longer than that
i txted my dad telling him i was hanging out with ppl from my school that graduated, but turns out i never sent it
any who
it was raining
and we went to the library
and that has no point whatsoever becides we both hated being quite
haha
and we went by the river
and i got sand in my mouth
and they were playing epic music at the game
and some random homless guy came and sat like right next to us
and started eating a bag of chips
it was funny
and some how he convinced me to trade him my checkered wristband for some silly bands
but there are two guns
really child friendly
he also convinced me to give him one of my necklaces
haha
he picked my razor with the skulls
because my brass knuckles were really long
and my razor looked less awkward with his necklace
then i was going to catch my bus that came at 930
and we ran into zach
and we went to the river
then i caught the t
and went home
and tuned my dad out as he bitched at me
zach was trying to keep me dwn twn because he wanted to no b alone till 1130 cuz he was waiting for someone
and erik might b there
but i figured not getting bitched at wld b better
and now i think the two of them are going to start tlking
because one will sell weed to the other
its odd
and the whole time there were tlking about random drugs
and i was sooooo lost
haha
now im just going on about nothing
because this class is ass
blahhhhhhh
the i drive concert is friday :DDD
and i think i was invivted to elanas or daynas with krystal that day
the evacuation is today x_x
i swear if its raining, im leaving
fuck that
haha
is the day over yett?
7/19/10
slurpeeeeeeee
i had a slurpe this morning
thanks dani
and i keep trying to call her nikki
x_x
uggggg
i want another one
maybe after school, or tomorrow
i guess i better do work
because i dont want to fail
well, i dont really care
except for math
and science
because im good in mcas or mos or w/e its called
and careers isnt a core class
so we are the seniors
yay?
blah
i went on this rant about how i want to go to a 4 year college not near home
so i might check out that school that "the dream killers" told me about
because its really my only option
because its like the only 4 year becides point park that has what i want to do
idk
maybe ill decide for sure after ccac
i cant fail that
cuz my parents will b pissed that they have to pay for it
not like they should care
blah
im pissed i cnt go with colleen to coneaut
i need to go camping with my family
i tld them i wasnt going
i hope it conflics with cedar point
blah
and i forget exactly wen that is
and idk if im going with maranda to nc or not
maybe she sld leave a comment saying if i am or not
hehe
ummmm, idk wat to say on this topic
its hot
and sticky
blah, i just wanted to be alone
i got off at my early stop
and walked to eyeball
and sat there
then ppl came
i wanted to goto the river to be alone
but i didnt want to sit there
blah
i feel better now
by that i mean
i dnt WANT to be alone
but i wldnt mind it
i also wldnt mind being with ppl
i need to do something for a scholarship
blah
my stomach hurts
and the slupee helped
i was going to eat a bagel
but the sight of it was nauseation
i think im dying x_x
i was going to sleep in my fort last night
but i cldnt manage to stay comfortable
so i cleared off my bed
and slept there
careers class makes me just want to live under a rock
it makes me not want to goto college
and not try to get a job
because i dont want to loose all this money
and im thinking about getting a more basic degree thing
because i dnt wanna waste alot of money
and not do nothing
but something has me conviced that i will
thats a mistake
im gonna go
and go look for colleges
or play games
blahh
w/e
thanks dani
and i keep trying to call her nikki
x_x
uggggg
i want another one
maybe after school, or tomorrow
i guess i better do work
because i dont want to fail
well, i dont really care
except for math
and science
because im good in mcas or mos or w/e its called
and careers isnt a core class
so we are the seniors
yay?
blah
i went on this rant about how i want to go to a 4 year college not near home
so i might check out that school that "the dream killers" told me about
because its really my only option
because its like the only 4 year becides point park that has what i want to do
idk
maybe ill decide for sure after ccac
i cant fail that
cuz my parents will b pissed that they have to pay for it
not like they should care
blah
im pissed i cnt go with colleen to coneaut
i need to go camping with my family
i tld them i wasnt going
i hope it conflics with cedar point
blah
and i forget exactly wen that is
and idk if im going with maranda to nc or not
maybe she sld leave a comment saying if i am or not
hehe
ummmm, idk wat to say on this topic
its hot
and sticky
blah, i just wanted to be alone
i got off at my early stop
and walked to eyeball
and sat there
then ppl came
i wanted to goto the river to be alone
but i didnt want to sit there
blah
i feel better now
by that i mean
i dnt WANT to be alone
but i wldnt mind it
i also wldnt mind being with ppl
i need to do something for a scholarship
blah
my stomach hurts
and the slupee helped
i was going to eat a bagel
but the sight of it was nauseation
i think im dying x_x
i was going to sleep in my fort last night
but i cldnt manage to stay comfortable
so i cleared off my bed
and slept there
careers class makes me just want to live under a rock
it makes me not want to goto college
and not try to get a job
because i dont want to loose all this money
and im thinking about getting a more basic degree thing
because i dnt wanna waste alot of money
and not do nothing
but something has me conviced that i will
thats a mistake
im gonna go
and go look for colleges
or play games
blahh
w/e
7/18/10
didnt do ne homework
and sitting in my corner
probably gonna spend the night here
bye
ps im fucked and gonna fail
pss i drive concert on friday :))
probably gonna spend the night here
bye
ps im fucked and gonna fail
pss i drive concert on friday :))
7/17/10
i wanna do something
thats not in my house
i hate when my cuzings get a bf/gf
because i usually hate them wen i meet them
except for this time
i like my cuzigs gf
she was nice
:)
and didnt appear to be a skankey bitch
like one of my other cuzins
hmmm, i wonder if they are still together
w/e i probably wont see him till god knows wen
i dnt even think i want to have my grad party
because
idk
i just dnt
and im listening to finch
and i havent listened to them since sas
it was wen i was like first inlove with simple plan
i went to the library
and looked up bands like simple plan
made a power point
and checked out their cds and listened to them
offspring was another one of the bands
and i guess i wont remember the others untill i hear of them again
btw, i saved my powerpoint of a floppy disk
haha
today i went to my baby cuzins bday
it wasnt as bad as i thouhgt it was
i saw my uncle that lives in canada
i havent seen him since my aunt funnereal
actually, idr if he was there
but i think my mom said he asked if he cld b a pole bearer
idk, other than that
i havent seen him in like 10 years
i just smiled and walked past him not thinking he remembered me
then like 2 mins later he was like
"are u hollianne?"
he accent is aborable
its so faint, but its there :)
idk y
but today is a day for remembering things of the past
and how they use to b
and wat not
its just...awkward
i kinda wish i had an old life and old friends worth remembering
even tho i do
but not in the same sense
like the kind that i have to remember
because i moved far away from it all
instead of it slowly moving away from me
meh
iv always wanted to like, magicially re-find some of these ppl i use to be really good friends with
just like b working at the same place
and then start tlking
idk y i never thought to look them up on facebook
i think ill do that
bah
trust me, ill b back
i hate when my cuzings get a bf/gf
because i usually hate them wen i meet them
except for this time
i like my cuzigs gf
she was nice
:)
and didnt appear to be a skankey bitch
like one of my other cuzins
hmmm, i wonder if they are still together
w/e i probably wont see him till god knows wen
i dnt even think i want to have my grad party
because
idk
i just dnt
and im listening to finch
and i havent listened to them since sas
it was wen i was like first inlove with simple plan
i went to the library
and looked up bands like simple plan
made a power point
and checked out their cds and listened to them
offspring was another one of the bands
and i guess i wont remember the others untill i hear of them again
btw, i saved my powerpoint of a floppy disk
haha
today i went to my baby cuzins bday
it wasnt as bad as i thouhgt it was
i saw my uncle that lives in canada
i havent seen him since my aunt funnereal
actually, idr if he was there
but i think my mom said he asked if he cld b a pole bearer
idk, other than that
i havent seen him in like 10 years
i just smiled and walked past him not thinking he remembered me
then like 2 mins later he was like
"are u hollianne?"
he accent is aborable
its so faint, but its there :)
idk y
but today is a day for remembering things of the past
and how they use to b
and wat not
its just...awkward
i kinda wish i had an old life and old friends worth remembering
even tho i do
but not in the same sense
like the kind that i have to remember
because i moved far away from it all
instead of it slowly moving away from me
meh
iv always wanted to like, magicially re-find some of these ppl i use to be really good friends with
just like b working at the same place
and then start tlking
idk y i never thought to look them up on facebook
i think ill do that
bah
trust me, ill b back
this is just to say
that i didnt blog
and didnt read ne blogs
even tho because of this i did blog
bah w/e u get the pointtt!
and didnt read ne blogs
even tho because of this i did blog
bah w/e u get the pointtt!
7/15/10
i just remembered...
the creeper gym teacher from sas
he wore the same thing every day
except one day
we were so excited
we were all like wooo hooo mr. smith
it was funny
we like threw a mini party on the plaza
he also drove a creeper van
and we wld always he slept in it
but we were right
IT WAS ALWAYS PARKED IN THE SAME SPOT AND WAS NEVER NOT THERE!!!!!
haha
there was also a rumor that he creeped on the grls in the bathrrom
cuz there was a hole in the wall
sometimes i actually miss st annes
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yet another boring bus ride
pictures r today
soooo i need to make sure i look as close to perfect as i can
i havent been sitting right in the front like i normally do
mainly cuz the other city high and capa ppl arnt here
and the other dude that goes to some other random school
and thats not stalkerish because i kno him
well...i kno him in the sense that we awkwardly wave at each other in the mornings id wlk from the first stop to eyeball and pass his other stop
haha...ne ways
speaking of stalking...
theres a hot guy on my bus...
i think i sld start sitting next to him
and start a conversation about something
he wears the same pants each day
probably not the same pair
but they are all exactly the same
haha
im a stalker
i need to not pass out till after my pics
i dnt wanna fuck up my foundation
which may i say
i did a good job with
i finially figured out how to do it with out making it look powdery
sooooooooo
yea
im gonna post this b4 the tunnel
toodles! :}
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7/14/10
tired
pictures tomorrow
that means i get to sweat all night in order to have more perfect hair
blah
im gonna put on foundation in the am
and its gonna probably looks like shit by noon
x_x
i hope it looks fine
im just getting the mandatory school year book picture
and my moms friends husband are going to take my senior pics
because i told my mom not to waste her money once she brought up that option
and this guys good
he took the most adorable picture of his daughter, it looked to perfect
it was of her blowing a dandi lion
absolutely gorgeous!
the only thing is when my mom called she said that her friend said that hed be excited for having a real person that wants to be photographed and can listen to him
but she said it in alot less words
so im gonna go when it gets nice
because he wanted to take pictures outside
and at this point idc
i mean, it wld have been nice to have one of me in a cap and gown
o wellz
this will be more funn
i hope
haha
good bye summer, you just keep dwindling away
uggg
that means i get to sweat all night in order to have more perfect hair
blah
im gonna put on foundation in the am
and its gonna probably looks like shit by noon
x_x
i hope it looks fine
im just getting the mandatory school year book picture
and my moms friends husband are going to take my senior pics
because i told my mom not to waste her money once she brought up that option
and this guys good
he took the most adorable picture of his daughter, it looked to perfect
it was of her blowing a dandi lion
absolutely gorgeous!
the only thing is when my mom called she said that her friend said that hed be excited for having a real person that wants to be photographed and can listen to him
but she said it in alot less words
so im gonna go when it gets nice
because he wanted to take pictures outside
and at this point idc
i mean, it wld have been nice to have one of me in a cap and gown
o wellz
this will be more funn
i hope
haha
good bye summer, you just keep dwindling away
uggg
i love Jedward!
and they have team jedward shirts
i checked after having the idea for them
BUT!!!
i found out depressing news!!!!
EDWARD RIPED A TENDON IN IS LEG AND MAY NEVER B ABLE TO DANCE AGAIN!!!!
o well
haha
i<3Jedward
and apartment red
and the x factor
and john grime
and edward grime
and jedward
i checked after having the idea for them
BUT!!!
i found out depressing news!!!!
EDWARD RIPED A TENDON IN IS LEG AND MAY NEVER B ABLE TO DANCE AGAIN!!!!
o well
haha
i<3Jedward
and apartment red
and the x factor
and john grime
and edward grime
and jedward
7/13/10
why does it always feel like..
i havent blogged in forever
and today especially
its only been a day
idk but my time judgment has be fucked up like no other
and today my time was just awkward
but yea
i feel bad because my thoughts on going to someones grad party really simply depended on who else rsvp-ed
thats y i like face book
i mean, i want to go
but someone that hates me for no real reason at all rsvp-ed
so i dont plan to go
it wld just make my life simplier
anywho...
i really need to start tlking to ppl untill i jump into texting them
x_x
haha, because i got this dudes number from myyearbook
and then like 3 msgs later hes all like "why does everyone hate me?"
and "well when bobby hangs out with people that all hate me" or something like that
and my thoughts where "omfg, am i talking to an 8 year old girl?!??!"
and "damn, i hope he doesnt txt back"
i still cant get over what someone said it me
"i almost cut myself last night, i had the knife, then my mom called me for dinner"
maybe those wernt the exact words
but i cried
maybe it was just for the simple fact of the person it was
someone that seems invincible, almost did something so weak
i mean other people have told me that
and its not that i didnt care, its just that this time i cried
it was awkward
and kind of scary
but i guess we all have moments of weakness
and we all wear a mask to hide out emotions, and to make us into something we arnt
so, i guess that also means that we are fake?
speaking of fake..
how can u define someone as fake
because i always assumed it was acting like something ur not
in which case, i guess u could say im fake at times
along with a shit load of people in the world
unless u are 100% open about everything to everyone and never lie, you are fake
so basically, liars are fake
speaking of fake
this doesnt relate at all
but im giving up on someone
simply because, my heart and head dont ever agree
so i think i need to think with my head more than my heart before i try jumping in a relation ship
because my heart falls for people easily
and my head just sits their and convinces me otherwise
blah blah blah
i over complicate my life
w.e i should be use to it by now
and if im not
its my own dumb fault
w/e at night its so hot i just have been getting showers in the morning, so i really need to go back to sleep
and pictures are on thursday
and i fell like this is one of my more "heart-felt" posts that i've done in a while
i also think its more than me just updating because i feel as if it has become my bastard child
and i dont think i used that in the right contex
bah
night world, have a better tomorrow
and today especially
its only been a day
idk but my time judgment has be fucked up like no other
and today my time was just awkward
but yea
i feel bad because my thoughts on going to someones grad party really simply depended on who else rsvp-ed
thats y i like face book
i mean, i want to go
but someone that hates me for no real reason at all rsvp-ed
so i dont plan to go
it wld just make my life simplier
anywho...
i really need to start tlking to ppl untill i jump into texting them
x_x
haha, because i got this dudes number from myyearbook
and then like 3 msgs later hes all like "why does everyone hate me?"
and "well when bobby hangs out with people that all hate me" or something like that
and my thoughts where "omfg, am i talking to an 8 year old girl?!??!"
and "damn, i hope he doesnt txt back"
i still cant get over what someone said it me
"i almost cut myself last night, i had the knife, then my mom called me for dinner"
maybe those wernt the exact words
but i cried
maybe it was just for the simple fact of the person it was
someone that seems invincible, almost did something so weak
i mean other people have told me that
and its not that i didnt care, its just that this time i cried
it was awkward
and kind of scary
but i guess we all have moments of weakness
and we all wear a mask to hide out emotions, and to make us into something we arnt
so, i guess that also means that we are fake?
speaking of fake..
how can u define someone as fake
because i always assumed it was acting like something ur not
in which case, i guess u could say im fake at times
along with a shit load of people in the world
unless u are 100% open about everything to everyone and never lie, you are fake
so basically, liars are fake
speaking of fake
this doesnt relate at all
but im giving up on someone
simply because, my heart and head dont ever agree
so i think i need to think with my head more than my heart before i try jumping in a relation ship
because my heart falls for people easily
and my head just sits their and convinces me otherwise
blah blah blah
i over complicate my life
w.e i should be use to it by now
and if im not
its my own dumb fault
w/e at night its so hot i just have been getting showers in the morning, so i really need to go back to sleep
and pictures are on thursday
and i fell like this is one of my more "heart-felt" posts that i've done in a while
i also think its more than me just updating because i feel as if it has become my bastard child
and i dont think i used that in the right contex
bah
night world, have a better tomorrow
7/12/10
i feel like sounding emo...
i wish my skin were like paper
easy to cut
hard to repair
every crumple and rip and scratch will show
that way you will know
you will be able to see my pain
like a magnifier into my soul
see my every pain and ache is from
look into my soul
see what i have been through
see how i really feel
and see who i really am
they say that life is surreal
but all i can see is agony amidst the darkness
if only you could jump into reality
a reality that's not sugar coated
if only you could see what life really consists of
you are a poor sheltered spoiled soul
and the day you are free, you will crash
and my one and only instinct will be to laugh
because my pain now, will bring ecstasy
and you joy now, shall bring sorrow
so in the end
when you look back
comparing out lives
you will see that my survival lead me to success
and you greed led you to misery
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the first few lines just appeared in my head
so i decided to make it something
and since my songs are mostly ass
i was like, ill just "blog" it
bah
w/e
this class is boring as piss and i have nothing to do at the fuck all
blah blah blah blah blah blah
ohhhh la la la
radda radda
oh nice car
idk, its bad romance
but not
easy to cut
hard to repair
every crumple and rip and scratch will show
that way you will know
you will be able to see my pain
like a magnifier into my soul
see my every pain and ache is from
look into my soul
see what i have been through
see how i really feel
and see who i really am
they say that life is surreal
but all i can see is agony amidst the darkness
if only you could jump into reality
a reality that's not sugar coated
if only you could see what life really consists of
you are a poor sheltered spoiled soul
and the day you are free, you will crash
and my one and only instinct will be to laugh
because my pain now, will bring ecstasy
and you joy now, shall bring sorrow
so in the end
when you look back
comparing out lives
you will see that my survival lead me to success
and you greed led you to misery
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the first few lines just appeared in my head
so i decided to make it something
and since my songs are mostly ass
i was like, ill just "blog" it
bah
w/e
this class is boring as piss and i have nothing to do at the fuck all
blah blah blah blah blah blah
ohhhh la la la
radda radda
oh nice car
idk, its bad romance
but not
7/11/10
faqk!!!
that mean fuck
i cut the bottom of my foot
on my unfinished hard wood floor
i fucking hate this house and everything in it
thats all im going to say about that
i finially got pissed enough at the front of my phone case that i took it off for good
but now i cant get use to it not being there
i wish i had a job so that i had money to spend on my phone
i dont want to deant or scratch it
i really just want to leave it sitting on my bed at all times
its so, dare i say, perfect and beautiful
and i dediced on its name being revy
after the rev
because, well i just did
now i have to get use to calling it that
because im still stuck on the generic name of phoney
w/e im gonna watch some u tube and call it a night
peaceee
i cut the bottom of my foot
on my unfinished hard wood floor
i fucking hate this house and everything in it
thats all im going to say about that
i finially got pissed enough at the front of my phone case that i took it off for good
but now i cant get use to it not being there
i wish i had a job so that i had money to spend on my phone
i dont want to deant or scratch it
i really just want to leave it sitting on my bed at all times
its so, dare i say, perfect and beautiful
and i dediced on its name being revy
after the rev
because, well i just did
now i have to get use to calling it that
because im still stuck on the generic name of phoney
w/e im gonna watch some u tube and call it a night
peaceee
wow
there is really a button on u tube videos that add a vuvuzulla sound
haha
btw, i love them :DDDDD
and i have an app for that
and i want some
bahahahaha
thats the video i first found with it
and its my new bc13 addiction
is soooo easy to get addicted to their songs
like i think their songs are the only ones i ever post on here...
haha
btw, i love them :DDDDD
and i have an app for that
and i want some
bahahahaha
thats the video i first found with it
and its my new bc13 addiction
is soooo easy to get addicted to their songs
like i think their songs are the only ones i ever post on here...
7/10/10
this addiction
im making a video from warped tour
but since windows movie maker is retarted and didnt wanna work...
im using adobe premire pro
which doesnt work right on my laptop...
idk
i hope it doesnt like shit
and this addiction is the one i put there
because i wanted to
and i was gonna do it for person
but i cldnt remember the name of ne songs the casualties did becided blitzking bop
and i cld only find that by the ramones
and since this addiction was downladed before that...i used it
haha
but since windows movie maker is retarted and didnt wanna work...
im using adobe premire pro
which doesnt work right on my laptop...
idk
i hope it doesnt like shit
and this addiction is the one i put there
because i wanted to
and i was gonna do it for person
but i cldnt remember the name of ne songs the casualties did becided blitzking bop
and i cld only find that by the ramones
and since this addiction was downladed before that...i used it
haha
7/9/10
hes singing in spanish...how didnt u kno he was mexican!!!
tehehe
good times caused by warped tour
but i dnt feel like sharing them here
cuz its too much effort
and my last one posted not all of it
blah
but i just listened to alkaline trios song my addiction
they are better live
ummm...yea im dwn twn on the buss
and my stops like next
byezzzzzzz
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7/8/10
warped tour
was amazing im still in disbeleif that i was there and im going next year and im not gonna go on
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7/5/10
you gonna fuck on me??!?!
no, no, no ones gonna fuck on u!!!
i hate godzilla too!
he destroys citys!
bahaha
i fucking love the hangover!!! :DDDD
2days till warped tourrr!! :D
i hate godzilla too!
he destroys citys!
bahaha
i fucking love the hangover!!! :DDDD
2days till warped tourrr!! :D
7/4/10
it just slipped out
something i only trusted with about 2 or 4 people
now some one else knows
and more than knows
and now i fell like telling every one
telling them what i regret
and having to act like it doesnt phase me
and have it restrict me
an now i think someone else know
gawd, i hate wat i put myself thru
i hate wat i have become
i just hate...everything sometimes
i hate wen i stand out
and i hate when i fit in
i love being home
and i hate it too
idk, im not gonna make this a rant about my contradicting life
but maybe ill have enough balls to ell the world my little secret
and flaunt it like i dnt give to shits
but if i do
it will kill me
at least inside
on a side note...
im super geeked about wed!!!!
aka
warped
fucking
tour!!
muhahaha
txt messages that say "i wanna b home with my blades...i want to fucking die" are not nice
now some one else knows
and more than knows
and now i fell like telling every one
telling them what i regret
and having to act like it doesnt phase me
and have it restrict me
an now i think someone else know
gawd, i hate wat i put myself thru
i hate wat i have become
i just hate...everything sometimes
i hate wen i stand out
and i hate when i fit in
i love being home
and i hate it too
idk, im not gonna make this a rant about my contradicting life
but maybe ill have enough balls to ell the world my little secret
and flaunt it like i dnt give to shits
but if i do
it will kill me
at least inside
on a side note...
im super geeked about wed!!!!
aka
warped
fucking
tour!!
muhahaha
txt messages that say "i wanna b home with my blades...i want to fucking die" are not nice
7/3/10
My birthday forcast..
If You Were Born Today, June 27: Famous people born today: Tobey Maguire, Julia Duffy, Lionel Richie, Helen Keller.
Your Birthday Year Forecast: A Full Moon in your Solar Return chart marks this as a year of great personal significance, when major new beginnings, endings, and activities occur. This period is the culmination of a stage of personal growth and development. Events occurring this year may bring various developments in your emotional, psychological, or spiritual life over the past several years to a head. Relationships are especially important. There can be increased activity in your professional and public life, causing a conflict with your domestic and personal goals. There is little moderation in your life this year. Connections are made or ended; or your job focus may change as one focus fades to make way for a new direction. The year ahead is certain to be a very busy, dynamic, and significant period in your life.
This Full Moon is a Lunar Eclipse, and the need to turn over a new leaf is very strong this year. It's a year of change and transformation for you. Your relationships are in strong focus and are the catalysts for these personal changes.
In September, Saturn transits square your Sun, and while this influence can bring some added responsibilities, it is designed for you to learn to become more realistic about your capabilities, more self-reliant, and stronger in character.
However, Pluto is opposing your Sun this year--an influence that begins in January 2011. The intensity of your self-expression may have the effect of alienating you from others' help or sympathy at times this year. It's important during this period to choose your battles wisely, as you can very easily become drained by obsessive thoughts and possibly resentments. You are learning to reclaim your personal power through the mirror of your relationships.
This transit marks a major growth period in your life in which you struggle with the buried elements of your personality and ego as you learn to accept, transform, or face them. You may be acting in a controlling, jealous, or overbearing manner which can alienate others or even push them away. This comes from a deep fear of letting go and surrendering to the idea that some things cannot be directed or controlled. As this fear surfaces, your behavior may be compulsive or obsessive; or you may experience these traits through someone close to you, especially a male. Either way, you are learning to detach yourself or let go of something, someone, or attitudes that are no longer serving you well. You might fear the loss of a person, a lifestyle, a job, or other significant part of your life. What you need to do is avoid turning this into a self-fulfilling prophecy. The fear itself may lead you to compulsive, suspicious, or difficult behavior; and this behavior might cost you the very thing that you hold dear. You tend to act on impulse and often don't listen to reason--even your own! You may have to deal with wilfulness and issues of power and competition this year--in others and in yourself. There is an inner drama taking place, and a feeling that external circumstances are undermining your own feeling of powerfulness. In the process, you may be able to get in touch with your internal motivations.
You are likely to be actively involved with teamwork and collaboration with others this year. There may be an increased need for sexual union, as your passions are stirred and in general you meet with ease when attempting to satisfy your desires through positive connections with others. There may be the beginning of a significant new relationship, or the intensification of an existing romance.
You are especially busy this year. At times, you may feel like the pace of your life is running ahead of you. You can be particularly productive, however, in all types of communications--writing, speaking, learning, teaching, and so forth.
Social and love relationships this year involve some challenges regarding decisions about sticking with past behaviors and breaking out into new territory.
Decision making may be a little challenging this year, as you might often have to choose between traditional methods and progressive new ones. In the process, you can rid yourself of negative thought patterns. You need to be aware of the possibility that you are pushing people away without realizing it with the manner in which you express yourself, which could be too negative or suspicious. Calling upon your intuition and imagination will help you to make the right choices.
Saturn in opposition to Uranus around the time of your birthday suggests some restlessness. Attempts to assert your individuality, freedom, and originality undermine your feelings of groundedness and security. Yet, you are not satisfied when you conform. There may be sudden and unexpected twists that force you to do something different or that help free yourself from old habits. Adjusting your plans is in order, and striking a balance between convention and innovation is the challenge. Setbacks tend to be temporary and often lead to new, more creative paths or solutions. Ambivalence is likely and could color many of your interactions.
Jupiter joined with Uranus is also found in your Solar Return chart, and this suggests the need for progressive change in your life. You might take risks (perhaps, but not necessarily, foolish ones) for the sake of freedom. You are open to new energies, approaches, and attitudes. Fortunate events occur as a direct result of your willingness to entertain the unusual and to think outside of the box. Enthusiasm runs high, the desire for freedom from restrictions is strong, and thirst for adventure is with you.
The year ahead is a significant one in which you find yourself in high demand. You might often feel that you are doing balancing acts as your priorities shift and you adapt to changes. You have much to learn through your relationships. You are likely to form or cement positive bonds with others, particularly with people who help you to assert yourself in a positive manner.
2010 is a Number Nine year for you. Ruled by Mars. This is a year of completion and transition. It is a time when we need to let go of things that no longer serve their purpose, and hold on to things that have a future. It is a time of cleaning out dead wood, not necessarily for new beginnings. It can be a time when a burden has been taken off your shoulders, and it can be a year of giving of yourself. Advice - let go of things that are holding you back, give of yourself and express your sympathetic, compassionate side.
2011 will be a Number One year for you. Ruled by the Sun. This is a year of action. The seeds you plant now, you will reap later. Others might find you less sociable, as you are busier than ever and you focus on your activities and your needs. Still, you are outgoing and your initiative is stronger than ever. Advice - Stand alone, take action, start fresh, express
independence.
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i wanna say that i hope some of it comes true
i wanna say i think thats its already starting too
i wanna say this is the whole book of my life unfolded before my eyes
but i know that these stupid horoscopes are so generic they reflect everyones life
if u read this, u may agree too
im gonna go read someones else's and see if i think its them
Your Birthday Year Forecast: A Full Moon in your Solar Return chart marks this as a year of great personal significance, when major new beginnings, endings, and activities occur. This period is the culmination of a stage of personal growth and development. Events occurring this year may bring various developments in your emotional, psychological, or spiritual life over the past several years to a head. Relationships are especially important. There can be increased activity in your professional and public life, causing a conflict with your domestic and personal goals. There is little moderation in your life this year. Connections are made or ended; or your job focus may change as one focus fades to make way for a new direction. The year ahead is certain to be a very busy, dynamic, and significant period in your life.
This Full Moon is a Lunar Eclipse, and the need to turn over a new leaf is very strong this year. It's a year of change and transformation for you. Your relationships are in strong focus and are the catalysts for these personal changes.
In September, Saturn transits square your Sun, and while this influence can bring some added responsibilities, it is designed for you to learn to become more realistic about your capabilities, more self-reliant, and stronger in character.
However, Pluto is opposing your Sun this year--an influence that begins in January 2011. The intensity of your self-expression may have the effect of alienating you from others' help or sympathy at times this year. It's important during this period to choose your battles wisely, as you can very easily become drained by obsessive thoughts and possibly resentments. You are learning to reclaim your personal power through the mirror of your relationships.
This transit marks a major growth period in your life in which you struggle with the buried elements of your personality and ego as you learn to accept, transform, or face them. You may be acting in a controlling, jealous, or overbearing manner which can alienate others or even push them away. This comes from a deep fear of letting go and surrendering to the idea that some things cannot be directed or controlled. As this fear surfaces, your behavior may be compulsive or obsessive; or you may experience these traits through someone close to you, especially a male. Either way, you are learning to detach yourself or let go of something, someone, or attitudes that are no longer serving you well. You might fear the loss of a person, a lifestyle, a job, or other significant part of your life. What you need to do is avoid turning this into a self-fulfilling prophecy. The fear itself may lead you to compulsive, suspicious, or difficult behavior; and this behavior might cost you the very thing that you hold dear. You tend to act on impulse and often don't listen to reason--even your own! You may have to deal with wilfulness and issues of power and competition this year--in others and in yourself. There is an inner drama taking place, and a feeling that external circumstances are undermining your own feeling of powerfulness. In the process, you may be able to get in touch with your internal motivations.
You are likely to be actively involved with teamwork and collaboration with others this year. There may be an increased need for sexual union, as your passions are stirred and in general you meet with ease when attempting to satisfy your desires through positive connections with others. There may be the beginning of a significant new relationship, or the intensification of an existing romance.
You are especially busy this year. At times, you may feel like the pace of your life is running ahead of you. You can be particularly productive, however, in all types of communications--writing, speaking, learning, teaching, and so forth.
Social and love relationships this year involve some challenges regarding decisions about sticking with past behaviors and breaking out into new territory.
Decision making may be a little challenging this year, as you might often have to choose between traditional methods and progressive new ones. In the process, you can rid yourself of negative thought patterns. You need to be aware of the possibility that you are pushing people away without realizing it with the manner in which you express yourself, which could be too negative or suspicious. Calling upon your intuition and imagination will help you to make the right choices.
Saturn in opposition to Uranus around the time of your birthday suggests some restlessness. Attempts to assert your individuality, freedom, and originality undermine your feelings of groundedness and security. Yet, you are not satisfied when you conform. There may be sudden and unexpected twists that force you to do something different or that help free yourself from old habits. Adjusting your plans is in order, and striking a balance between convention and innovation is the challenge. Setbacks tend to be temporary and often lead to new, more creative paths or solutions. Ambivalence is likely and could color many of your interactions.
Jupiter joined with Uranus is also found in your Solar Return chart, and this suggests the need for progressive change in your life. You might take risks (perhaps, but not necessarily, foolish ones) for the sake of freedom. You are open to new energies, approaches, and attitudes. Fortunate events occur as a direct result of your willingness to entertain the unusual and to think outside of the box. Enthusiasm runs high, the desire for freedom from restrictions is strong, and thirst for adventure is with you.
The year ahead is a significant one in which you find yourself in high demand. You might often feel that you are doing balancing acts as your priorities shift and you adapt to changes. You have much to learn through your relationships. You are likely to form or cement positive bonds with others, particularly with people who help you to assert yourself in a positive manner.
2010 is a Number Nine year for you. Ruled by Mars. This is a year of completion and transition. It is a time when we need to let go of things that no longer serve their purpose, and hold on to things that have a future. It is a time of cleaning out dead wood, not necessarily for new beginnings. It can be a time when a burden has been taken off your shoulders, and it can be a year of giving of yourself. Advice - let go of things that are holding you back, give of yourself and express your sympathetic, compassionate side.
2011 will be a Number One year for you. Ruled by the Sun. This is a year of action. The seeds you plant now, you will reap later. Others might find you less sociable, as you are busier than ever and you focus on your activities and your needs. Still, you are outgoing and your initiative is stronger than ever. Advice - Stand alone, take action, start fresh, express
independence.
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i wanna say that i hope some of it comes true
i wanna say i think thats its already starting too
i wanna say this is the whole book of my life unfolded before my eyes
but i know that these stupid horoscopes are so generic they reflect everyones life
if u read this, u may agree too
im gonna go read someones else's and see if i think its them
sydney white
just got done watching that
and now im thinking bout college and shit
and the educational aspect of me knowing imma fuck up
and the social aspect of me knowing that im never gonna goto a normal school and experience a normal school experience
i mean catholic school...then charter school then a vocational school in nyc that doesnt like have normal college dorms or sorieties or faternaties or nething
idk
maybe im just being weird
like im not the only one
and i kno there has to be atleast 5 people in the universe that are exactally like me
idk wat else to say
but yea
i kinda want to goto a normal college
and i kinda still wanna goto a normal high scholl
but w.e
imma go i guess
s
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7/2/10
lyrics...maybe
lost in the letters that gently rest on the paper my pen sweetly stains
i watch as it runs deep into my heart and soul
and you'll watch it run out of my eyes
its lame
but it always sounds better in my head
so i guess i lied
uggg, drama between two people
or more
and i go pulled in to it
one person tld me to start a rumor bout the other that she has mono
but i wont
even tho the other chick deserves it
bahaha
i watch as it runs deep into my heart and soul
and you'll watch it run out of my eyes
its lame
but it always sounds better in my head
so i guess i lied
uggg, drama between two people
or more
and i go pulled in to it
one person tld me to start a rumor bout the other that she has mono
but i wont
even tho the other chick deserves it
bahaha
still around
by 3oh!3 is stuck in my head
we got pssa scores back
i got proficent in math reading and writing
and basic in science
thank god science doesnt count
blah blah blah
i gotta go to my meeting with the dream killers
i think imma convince her i wanna get into MIT or some shit
bahaha
im sooooooooooooooooooooo geeked for warped tour :DDDD
tehehe
btw, my last post was my 300th :D
haha
byezzz
we got pssa scores back
i got proficent in math reading and writing
and basic in science
thank god science doesnt count
blah blah blah
i gotta go to my meeting with the dream killers
i think imma convince her i wanna get into MIT or some shit
bahaha
im sooooooooooooooooooooo geeked for warped tour :DDDD
tehehe
btw, my last post was my 300th :D
haha
byezzz
7/1/10
Looking down, 30,000 miles above the ground, the guy behind me says he's scared to death. Can't sit still and he's short of breath, but no one hears
i wanted to make the title your not alone, there is more to this i know!
but then i realized i already did..
bah
i started this in science
or math
now its an hr or so after
and im in my first elective
i walked into the room and said "crap i accidentily brought a good book to this class!"
haha
idk wat else to say
got stuff on my mind a guess
idk
alot happenedish yesterday
or so it feels like it did
blaaaaaaaaaah
i <3 columbine
i think imma read it now :)
blah, get outta/off my mind!!!!
but then i realized i already did..
bah
i started this in science
or math
now its an hr or so after
and im in my first elective
i walked into the room and said "crap i accidentily brought a good book to this class!"
haha
idk wat else to say
got stuff on my mind a guess
idk
alot happenedish yesterday
or so it feels like it did
blaaaaaaaaaah
i <3 columbine
i think imma read it now :)
blah, get outta/off my mind!!!!
tired
so im posting
i feel like i neglect this wen i dnt post every day
idk
a bunch of short shorts and fags r jizzing over twilight now
just saying...
i feel like i neglect this wen i dnt post every day
idk
a bunch of short shorts and fags r jizzing over twilight now
just saying...
6/29/10
careers!!!
is funn
we have our interviews
and im sitting here
tlking about random shit
its funny
xDDD
thehe
we sld have more days like this
:D
we have our interviews
and im sitting here
tlking about random shit
its funny
xDDD
thehe
we sld have more days like this
:D
6/28/10
i need someone to vent too
but theres nobody to turn too
with the bridges i burn instead of build
story of my life
usually my birthday is shit
usually school is shit
but this birthday it was fun
today school was decent
and being not at school was shit
idk
somethings wrong with me today
i hope its not this year
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sorry i've neglected you...
i read everyones blog i follow
im still behind on watching my u tube videos
i think i missed the lockerz redemption
i replied to everyones birthday wishes
im going to warped tour :)
or at least supposed to be
my dad doesnt want me and thinks i need adult supervision
hes being a dick
and i spazzed on him
i was like "if u think im walking around all day with u, ur wrong"
and blah blah blah
idk y i need supervision there, because ne thing i cld do there, i could have, i mean my schools down twn. and there are alot more privite areas than at a fucking concert
hes being a dick
and if he says i can go ill get my shit for school
and just go over marandas
and go back to sleep
then wake up in a few hrs
and go ne ways
and then theyll b like where are u
and ill b like warped tour
so fuck him
bah
ne who
im gauging my ears
and they hurt like a bitch
and they still arnt all they way thru
blahhhh
w/e
im out
im still behind on watching my u tube videos
i think i missed the lockerz redemption
i replied to everyones birthday wishes
im going to warped tour :)
or at least supposed to be
my dad doesnt want me and thinks i need adult supervision
hes being a dick
and i spazzed on him
i was like "if u think im walking around all day with u, ur wrong"
and blah blah blah
idk y i need supervision there, because ne thing i cld do there, i could have, i mean my schools down twn. and there are alot more privite areas than at a fucking concert
hes being a dick
and if he says i can go ill get my shit for school
and just go over marandas
and go back to sleep
then wake up in a few hrs
and go ne ways
and then theyll b like where are u
and ill b like warped tour
so fuck him
bah
ne who
im gauging my ears
and they hurt like a bitch
and they still arnt all they way thru
blahhhh
w/e
im out
6/24/10
fffffffffffack
i posted this big lng long
from my phone
about my dysgunctional family
and if didnt post
ugggg
w/e
from my phone
about my dysgunctional family
and if didnt post
ugggg
w/e
6/23/10
stop looking at me like that and just say somethin
arg...not like the person this is directed too can see it
but...nvm....doesnt matter
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a better place a better time
has been on repeat for the past hr or so
it feels like my heart has sunk
and has been concumed by my no existant soul
idk if that made ne sense
but to me it does
goodbye...maybe
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just a random thought...
sometimes i wonder if life is worth living
and if there is even a point
one of the thing that pisses me off alot is knowing that there are all these questions that cant b answered
idk y
but thats how it is
but yea...my main point is:::
arnt we just living to die?
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6/21/10
new song :)
i like it
its kinda up there next to "the end"
ne who the link is down there
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/2010/06/all-we-have-left-it-today.html
its kinda up there next to "the end"
ne who the link is down there
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
http://moosickinmyhead.blogspot.com/2010/06/all-we-have-left-it-today.html
collllllllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeenanananana!
turns out that creeper just used a pic of brad pit
haha
sooooooo if u think brad pitt is cute/hot
then yes he is
lolz
james said he was gonna go and pretend hes my bf and yell at him
it shall b funny xD
haha
sooooooo if u think brad pitt is cute/hot
then yes he is
lolz
james said he was gonna go and pretend hes my bf and yell at him
it shall b funny xD
6/20/10
to be honest my life has been an abortion, or at least it should have been
thats from the heroin diaries btw
but sometimes i feel like that
any who
today:::
i went to a funereal
i felt guilty
because last year, i was pissed at this guy
i dnt kno him
but we had to go ti his suprise bday party on my 16th bday
so i was being pissy
but who wldnt b?
i just remember saying
"we r gonna yell suprise and hes gonna have a heart attack and die!!!!"
yea..
then i went to my grandmas house
my favorite cusin was there :)
and his brothers like 2 year old son
i wanted to cry
and i wanted to see my other cusin
i havent seen eiter of them for like 5 or 6 years
if not more
and hes going into the military
and im not gonna b able to see him for god knows who long
i think hes there for 5 years
we barley talked tho
we had a nice chat about music
and my school and wat im doing after and what not
thats about it
and i kept thinking of all the fun we had wen we were younger
and that made me sad
;\
it was hard not to cry
and wen i hugged him i didnt want to let go
lolz
hes just that amazing of a person :)
now im home
school tomorrow
oh yea
for a second i though that Stephen Jerzak was the lead singer of Owl City
gawd, i use to love Stephen Jerzak
and tlk to him in comments :D
i wld have felt sooo bad if he was
but hes not
so it doesnt matter
and his shit is still good :)
ps coll, my myspcae stalker is NOT cute x_x
but sometimes i feel like that
any who
today:::
i went to a funereal
i felt guilty
because last year, i was pissed at this guy
i dnt kno him
but we had to go ti his suprise bday party on my 16th bday
so i was being pissy
but who wldnt b?
i just remember saying
"we r gonna yell suprise and hes gonna have a heart attack and die!!!!"
yea..
then i went to my grandmas house
my favorite cusin was there :)
and his brothers like 2 year old son
i wanted to cry
and i wanted to see my other cusin
i havent seen eiter of them for like 5 or 6 years
if not more
and hes going into the military
and im not gonna b able to see him for god knows who long
i think hes there for 5 years
we barley talked tho
we had a nice chat about music
and my school and wat im doing after and what not
thats about it
and i kept thinking of all the fun we had wen we were younger
and that made me sad
;\
it was hard not to cry
and wen i hugged him i didnt want to let go
lolz
hes just that amazing of a person :)
now im home
school tomorrow
oh yea
for a second i though that Stephen Jerzak was the lead singer of Owl City
gawd, i use to love Stephen Jerzak
and tlk to him in comments :D
i wld have felt sooo bad if he was
but hes not
so it doesnt matter
and his shit is still good :)
ps coll, my myspcae stalker is NOT cute x_x
hehe
i get to go see mu cuzin zach!!!!!
yay
im sooooo happy!!!!
I havent seen him since his brothers graduation
so he was like 16 then
and my dad said hes 21 now
gah..i miss him...like alot
hes my favorite cuzin
and even tho i said next time i saw him im gonna ignore him, i wont
haha
like everyone on that side of my family is going into the army
blah
basicially the point of this was to explain wat i wld b saying in a high pitched squeek
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this creeper on myspace...
this random guy keeps asking me out and wat not, and asked me if id go out with him if he was famous, blah blah blah...so i was on mysapce today, and this is what he sent me::::
ok but i think your really hot and i want to be in your pants
i want to take the virginity away from your virgin vagina and breasts
i love you with all my heart Holli
This love I feel runs deep inside,
With you I never have to hide,
You wrap your arms around me tight,
And I never feel the need to fight,
I love you more than I can say,
That love grows on as here we lay.
As you lean to kiss my head,
I think about that book I read,
The one where they had the perfect life,
The one where she grew up to be his wife,
They lived happily until the end,
I want this with you, I wont pretend.
You make me feel so alive and real,
I want to tell them how I feel,
I want to tell them how it is to be,
As in love as you and me,
You make me want to scream it out,
And tell the world what our love's about.
But really I just want you to know,
I will always let my love for you show,
Even when we are really mad,
And times are just really bad,
I'll say those three words to make it right,
So you can stay and hold me tight.
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it made me laugh
hysterically
and im about 75% sure it was coppied from some random persons something or odd
but i wanted to share it with u :D
bahaha
ok but i think your really hot and i want to be in your pants
i want to take the virginity away from your virgin vagina and breasts
i love you with all my heart Holli
This love I feel runs deep inside,
With you I never have to hide,
You wrap your arms around me tight,
And I never feel the need to fight,
I love you more than I can say,
That love grows on as here we lay.
As you lean to kiss my head,
I think about that book I read,
The one where they had the perfect life,
The one where she grew up to be his wife,
They lived happily until the end,
I want this with you, I wont pretend.
You make me feel so alive and real,
I want to tell them how I feel,
I want to tell them how it is to be,
As in love as you and me,
You make me want to scream it out,
And tell the world what our love's about.
But really I just want you to know,
I will always let my love for you show,
Even when we are really mad,
And times are just really bad,
I'll say those three words to make it right,
So you can stay and hold me tight.
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it made me laugh
hysterically
and im about 75% sure it was coppied from some random persons something or odd
but i wanted to share it with u :D
bahaha
i love...
when good music finds me :)
like how the the summer circuit found me
:)<3
i love when something/someone can make me so happy
it just fills my heart with little butterflies
and it feels like im floating out of wherever im sitting
and, i don't know how to explain it
but that ever to rare feeling
i feel now
:)
go check them out
http://www.myspace.com/thesummercircuit
[ps, they are soooooo tied wit the i drive for my fav local band. then thank you dahling, then either jaded holly or call paula...maybe...idk, maybe its just cuz those are the other names i can remember...and if i can remember them i had to have done that for a reason, right?]
like how the the summer circuit found me
:)<3
i love when something/someone can make me so happy
it just fills my heart with little butterflies
and it feels like im floating out of wherever im sitting
and, i don't know how to explain it
but that ever to rare feeling
i feel now
:)
go check them out
http://www.myspace.com/thesummercircuit
[ps, they are soooooo tied wit the i drive for my fav local band. then thank you dahling, then either jaded holly or call paula...maybe...idk, maybe its just cuz those are the other names i can remember...and if i can remember them i had to have done that for a reason, right?]
6/18/10
sitting in math class
my teacher reminds me of wheezy waiter
because of his beard
and he winks alot
and he mentioned coffee...once
im supposed to be doing my POW
but im done
i did it in careers and MCAS
im hungry
which is odd
cuz i ate breakfast
i was nominated to go to graduation
and represent the jouniors or something
i dnt kno how the fuck that managed to happen
but i guess i wanna go
but i dnt
cuz i dnt wanna cry
i dnt want to sit in a big stuffy place
for like 3 hrs
watching even more proof that some of my close friends are leaving me
thats y i didnt go last year
but i feel, idk wat is it
but idk
maybe its a sense of obligation
and how im just learning to say no
its hard
today i took a math test
it was fine
then i took the honors part
i turned it in blank
i dont under stand this shit
and my teacher told me to look at my notes
i found the ones that applied
but they were all just random numbers
non of them made a bit of sense
i looked at the instructions and tried to comprehend it
but nothing
idk, i cant even comprehend what i read
i cant make it make any sense wat so ever
i cant comprehend it
i and pick it apart and make any sense of it
what have i done to my self?
is this me just quitting and self conscienly not givving a shit?
or is this just me being completley brain dead
uggggg
w/e
i guess i dnt care
sas fair tonight
graduation tomorrow
or the garage fair with my parents
something tells me graduation would be better
for both me and them...
ps i jacked someones old gauges
and gaused my ears some more
they are real gauges :D
instead of earring that i made into gauges
but they are missing a ball
and i have an eraser
i need another ball
or bigger ones
i forget what size
i think a 12
no, 14
because normal ones are like 20 or 18
and it barley hurt
well, not compared to my ghetto gauge
because of his beard
and he winks alot
and he mentioned coffee...once
im supposed to be doing my POW
but im done
i did it in careers and MCAS
im hungry
which is odd
cuz i ate breakfast
i was nominated to go to graduation
and represent the jouniors or something
i dnt kno how the fuck that managed to happen
but i guess i wanna go
but i dnt
cuz i dnt wanna cry
i dnt want to sit in a big stuffy place
for like 3 hrs
watching even more proof that some of my close friends are leaving me
thats y i didnt go last year
but i feel, idk wat is it
but idk
maybe its a sense of obligation
and how im just learning to say no
its hard
today i took a math test
it was fine
then i took the honors part
i turned it in blank
i dont under stand this shit
and my teacher told me to look at my notes
i found the ones that applied
but they were all just random numbers
non of them made a bit of sense
i looked at the instructions and tried to comprehend it
but nothing
idk, i cant even comprehend what i read
i cant make it make any sense wat so ever
i cant comprehend it
i and pick it apart and make any sense of it
what have i done to my self?
is this me just quitting and self conscienly not givving a shit?
or is this just me being completley brain dead
uggggg
w/e
i guess i dnt care
sas fair tonight
graduation tomorrow
or the garage fair with my parents
something tells me graduation would be better
for both me and them...
ps i jacked someones old gauges
and gaused my ears some more
they are real gauges :D
instead of earring that i made into gauges
but they are missing a ball
and i have an eraser
i need another ball
or bigger ones
i forget what size
i think a 12
no, 14
because normal ones are like 20 or 18
and it barley hurt
well, not compared to my ghetto gauge
6/17/10
for like the first time ever
i got approve by a bitch of the admin saying i was in dress code
that all
oh yea..
and i love the way people replace the name of the person they are talking about witty "you"
they dont normally use he, or him, or her, or she...they always you
unless its obvious about what they are tlking about
but ppl almost never use their name
i just found that interesting
now, thats all
that all
oh yea..
and i love the way people replace the name of the person they are talking about witty "you"
they dont normally use he, or him, or her, or she...they always you
unless its obvious about what they are tlking about
but ppl almost never use their name
i just found that interesting
now, thats all
6/16/10
doesnt anyone...
blog when they are happy?
all i read is depressing things
but then again, when ur happy y wld u blog about it?
unless u blog every day about ut day
then i guess it wld be happy
luft need to be quite
hes tlking to honors kids in the hall
hes loud
i got the shoe lecture again
*sigh*
idc
i wanted to "make a deal"
that if i have my shirt tucked in every day, if then i can keep them
iv been having he urge to cry since last night
and i dnt kno y
ever time i feel the tear fill my eyes, i look away and up
t make them go back where they came from
i knew that as soon as you asked "can i ask u something" it wld do someting
wither upset me
or piss me off
it pissed me off
so i kno that thats not it
someone just mentioned dorsey
and that reminded me of the panutbutter song that him and brandon made
and the theater
i still never heard that
today is the last day that the seniors are gonna b here
and im not really as sad as i was last year
i think i was closer with less people then than now
and now i probably hate more than i like
probably not
meh
im thinking of what else to write
but i cant
so im just going to try to ramble on till i think of something
or not
oh yea!
ANNOUNCEMENT TO MARANDA AND COLLEEN!!!!!:::
dont make plans for friday
we are going to st annes school fair
along with shane
and maybe my friend from st annes, krystal, and two of her brentwood friends
and zach might b comming, if his plans change
soooo, yea
we shall have funn
and reackee havoc
and i cnt spell
:D
i guess thats all for now
and luft is still talking
but im gonna sit here and play games
or look at my work
or do science
because i almost never do work in the class it applies to
except science, and my electives
but thats just cuz i have to other work to do in them
in mcas i do carees or science
in science i do careers science or text to film
in text to film i do txt to film or science
so math is really the only class i do its work in
haha, i lied, i dnt do work in that class
except for pows which i to in mcas, or careers
blah
my nail polish is chipping off
so i might just take it off tonight
r tomorrow
and try to do a french mancure, with colourfull tips
or with silver tips
or black with glitter
or just colourfull
or one silver one black
or just random design things with colorr
i think imma ask ashlee if i can borrow her nail polish detailer things xD
or maranda, cuz i kno she has a black one
ill jsut idk
haha
ummm, idk
im ouwt
all i read is depressing things
but then again, when ur happy y wld u blog about it?
unless u blog every day about ut day
then i guess it wld be happy
luft need to be quite
hes tlking to honors kids in the hall
hes loud
i got the shoe lecture again
*sigh*
idc
i wanted to "make a deal"
that if i have my shirt tucked in every day, if then i can keep them
iv been having he urge to cry since last night
and i dnt kno y
ever time i feel the tear fill my eyes, i look away and up
t make them go back where they came from
i knew that as soon as you asked "can i ask u something" it wld do someting
wither upset me
or piss me off
it pissed me off
so i kno that thats not it
someone just mentioned dorsey
and that reminded me of the panutbutter song that him and brandon made
and the theater
i still never heard that
today is the last day that the seniors are gonna b here
and im not really as sad as i was last year
i think i was closer with less people then than now
and now i probably hate more than i like
probably not
meh
im thinking of what else to write
but i cant
so im just going to try to ramble on till i think of something
or not
oh yea!
ANNOUNCEMENT TO MARANDA AND COLLEEN!!!!!:::
dont make plans for friday
we are going to st annes school fair
along with shane
and maybe my friend from st annes, krystal, and two of her brentwood friends
and zach might b comming, if his plans change
soooo, yea
we shall have funn
and reackee havoc
and i cnt spell
:D
i guess thats all for now
and luft is still talking
but im gonna sit here and play games
or look at my work
or do science
because i almost never do work in the class it applies to
except science, and my electives
but thats just cuz i have to other work to do in them
in mcas i do carees or science
in science i do careers science or text to film
in text to film i do txt to film or science
so math is really the only class i do its work in
haha, i lied, i dnt do work in that class
except for pows which i to in mcas, or careers
blah
my nail polish is chipping off
so i might just take it off tonight
r tomorrow
and try to do a french mancure, with colourfull tips
or with silver tips
or black with glitter
or just colourfull
or one silver one black
or just random design things with colorr
i think imma ask ashlee if i can borrow her nail polish detailer things xD
or maranda, cuz i kno she has a black one
ill jsut idk
haha
ummm, idk
im ouwt
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